Thank you for posting this. Such an important subject! And I can so well relate to your definition of yourself as it's very close to how I see myself as well (even if it is fluid and ever changing thing for me).
I think it is really horrible how everything is so dualistic in this world. And how is it even possible that doctors & parents can make such decisions for the babies instead of accepting there's much more to sex & gender than just the two conventionally accepted concepts.
For quite a long time now I've felt quite lost in the world divided into two categories; men & women/masculine & feminine. I'm truly grateful that shamanism (& mystic) as a spiritual path & worldview regard the gender flexibility as a positive, accepted thing. It has really helped a lot.
I used to be very feminine in my early 20's and I was raised as a girl but I always felt something was missing. These days I do not want to define my gender at all because I feel I just do not really fit in any one definition. There are times when I feel I'm actually a gay man with a female body and it is quite confusing but on the other hand I also feel attracted to women as a woman. I have so many different sides of me that I could never really define myself as bi-anything. I've come to a conclusion that I fall in love with people, not genders. And I've always felt attracted & fascinated by androgynous people and people who are hard to define in terms of gender. Maybe because deep inside that's how I've always felt as well.
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Date: 2012-02-26 06:54 am (UTC)I think it is really horrible how everything is so dualistic in this world. And how is it even possible that doctors & parents can make such decisions for the babies instead of accepting there's much more to sex & gender than just the two conventionally accepted concepts.
For quite a long time now I've felt quite lost in the world divided into two categories; men & women/masculine & feminine. I'm truly grateful that shamanism (& mystic) as a spiritual path & worldview regard the gender flexibility as a positive, accepted thing. It has really helped a lot.
I used to be very feminine in my early 20's and I was raised as a girl but I always felt something was missing. These days I do not want to define my gender at all because I feel I just do not really fit in any one definition. There are times when I feel I'm actually a gay man with a female body and it is quite confusing but on the other hand I also feel attracted to women as a woman. I have so many different sides of me that I could never really define myself as bi-anything. I've come to a conclusion that I fall in love with people, not genders. And I've always felt attracted & fascinated by androgynous people and people who are hard to define in terms of gender. Maybe because deep inside that's how I've always felt as well.