it's my Gemini moon, or something

[floatingleaf]

Okay, this is weird. I am on some sort of mad quest for new LJ-friends, because most of my current LJ-friends are way too quiet most of the time and I feel like I have no-one to talk to. I mean, I can monologue here till I'm blue in the face, and maybe someone will even read it and think "Oh crap, there she goes again" - and keep that remark to themselves out of polite consideration for my fragile ego - but that still doesn't in any way address my need for CONVERSATION. Or, you know, thought EXCHANGE. And I don't mean casual remarks about the weather or the price of eggs, thank you very much. I want to talk ABOUT stuff. I don't know, fandom (any fandom I am even remotely interested in), art, cinema, music, books, astrology, paranormal phenomena, gender, sexuality, the meaning of life (yes, even Monty Python, LOL)... you name it. I want to become friends with more people who discuss such (or other) stimulating topics in their journals on a regular basis - so I can participate in the discussion and keep my grey matter from withering away into a bleak moonscape of nothingness. And no, I am not interested in searching for people with similar interests through dating sites - because then someone might get the idea that I am simply looking to get laid. I am not. It is my BRAIN that needs stimulation like whoa, and yes, reading/watching good stuff on my own gives me that, but I also need to DISCUSS that stuff with other people, not just monologue endlessly about it. I need someone who actually has an OPINION on that weird indie flick I watched a while ago, and can also perhaps recommend to me another similar one that I might like. I also need that someone (or someones) to update their journal more than once a month. I don't know, maybe LJ isn't the right place for this, but I feel at home here and don't necessarily want to open another journal somewhere else just so I could beg random strangers to TALK to me, dammit. There MUST be people out there who have so much on their minds that they need a regular outlet in the form of a journal which doesn't only talk about highly personal stuff. Not that I mind highly personal stuff about people I already know - far from it - but I am hardly going to approach a stranger who posts exclusively about their sex life, for example.:P Anyway... I feel like an idiot trolling about through my interest list and reading random people's profiles - but I can't resist the compulsion to do it. I have no idea what came over me. I think I need help. Or a life, perhaps. Except THIS is my life. EXCHANGING THOUGHTS with people IS my life, it has always been. I can totally live without seeing another human face for a week or a month, but I need to HEAR from a human brain far more often than that. Or, you know, READ from it. And have some sort of communication, if possible. Otherwise I feel like a wrecked spaceship hurtling towards a black hole. Or something. And I'm not even into sci-fi. Or not much, anyway. But I can talk about the end of the world. Or the Age of Aquarius, you know. Or whatever. Just give me a topic you want to discuss, or tell me where I can find a journal/community that is relatively active and welcomes new friends/members. I need an outlet. Ranting on here just isn't cutting it anymore.

End of transmission. Thanks for putting up with my frustrations once again, and good night.

Comments

[samtyr.livejournal.com]

Well, I've seen a ufo or two. And where I live has ghosts but they're nice. Lots of things like that, if you want.

[crowdaughter.livejournal.com]

*hangs head* Oh, I am so sorry, floatingleaf, I am so rarely online these days at all, and then most of the time I am over at FFN and other websites - so, I apologize for being awfully quiet most of the time. Please feel hugged and appreciated, anyway. :(

[mellacita.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

I am sorry I am such a rubbish commenter. I've been realizing I need to make more of an effort to keep engaged with my longtime LJ friends here (and I think you qualify). I hardly ever have seen anything or read anything you post about, but I should get off my ass and try, maybe.

[illuins-lair.livejournal.com]

*hugs and apologizes*
I know I´ve been quiet lately. My whole life overwhelmed me somehow.
I truly miss our conversations and will do better in being LJ-active now when I´m getting sparklier again =/

[dissonant-dream.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I hope you can find some good people. Whenever I've gotten into a new fandom, I've searched out a couple of new friends. I always feel weird about it, but it's worked out quite well for the most part.

That's one of the main things I want out of life, you know. Intellectual stimulation. I didn't enjoy school but I love to learn. You should see my book collection. If something random interests me, I buy books about it - philosophy, astrophysics, witchcraft, ancient history, mythology. I tend not to post about stuff like that because I never know if anybody is interested and I have a tendency to ramble. But you're right. It's not just the reading that I like. It's getting other people's opinions. Interacting with people.

I guess what I'm saying is that I would love to talk about anything and everything with you.