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Now that I've finished my rewatch of Interview with the Vampire, I'm rooting around Facebook and YouTube for various previews of the upcoming season. Here's my favorite so far:



It's a bit of a shocker, even for those of us who read the book. Looks like instead of glossing over the more disturbing parts of the source material, the makers of this show grabbed a huge glittering neon marker to underline them. LOL.

It's going to be such a wild ride. And the cast is just fucking brilliant. No offense to Tom Cruise... but I think he may have lost the title of the most memorable Lestat in the history of cinema. Just saying. ;-)
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The weather continues to be absolutely nuts. Today was a full-on summer day, out of nowhere. I actually went to the beach after work to dip my feet in the lake. The water's still beyond frigid, of course - but I did notice two or three brave people splashing around in it. For me, being able to wear a summer dress and flip-flops in March felt outrageous enough. ;-) Especially since we're going back to near-freezing temps within the next 24 hours. *sigh* And it's supposed to chuck down with rain for the rest of the week...

Another amusing coincidence happened yesterday: as I was walking out of my building towards the bus stop across the street, a random stranger complimented me on my stylish beige fake leather jacket. A few minutes later I came to the conclusion that said jacket wasn't quite warm enough for the day, so I walked back home to change into something warmer... and as I was waiting for the elevator, another random stranger in the corridor said: "Nice boots!" (I was wearing my old and battered Merrell boots that are very likely to fall apart very soon, and that I just can't make myself get rid of, because I love them so much.) I had to laugh. I do get those types of compliments every once in a while... but I think twice in a matter of minutes is a new kind of record. :-D ( Read more... )
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Just a quote today, from a spiritual teacher I subscribe to (Kerry K from South Africa). One of her recent emails really resonated with me - and while I usually delete most email newsletters after I've read them, I feel the urge to save a chunk of this one, just for my own future contemplation.

You want lights in the sky.
A timeline split you can photograph.
Spirit guides with better PR.
You want proof.

But the shift you are in right now
is cellular.

It does not perform.

It recalibrates. ( Read more... )
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I did my annual oracle card spread today - one card for each month of 2025. I used the Vintage Wisdom Oracle deck, as usual... but then I felt inspired to also use the Angels and Ancestors deck, for an alternative version. It will be interesting to see how the predictions complement each other. And I did one more thing I hadn't done before: I drew an additional card to represent the dominant energy of the entire year. The Vintage Wisdom deck gave me Compassion (by the way - I've recently started taking a flower essence blend called Fierce Compassion), and the Angels and Ancestors gave me the Seer - See Beyond the Current Situation. Here's part of the message: You are being encouraged by your ancestral guides and angels to see beyond what you think is happening now. Don't allow your ego or doubts to play games with you. Instead of seeing yourself as stuck or lost, know you're in an energetic holding space while the universe recalibrates a path that is more favourable for you. Angels of light are upgrading your energy, so your experiences can be more enjoyable. You are moving toward something extremely uplifting and enlightening, so stay calm and keep your eyes on the prize.

Just thought I'd put that down for future reference. ;-)
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Just a brief check-in today, to share a gorgeous song from Kiki Rockwell's new album, released just a few weeks ago. The video is a little cheesy, but I simply adore the song, and it's got the lyrics, too - so here goes:



I have spent the weekend mostly grocery shopping, cleaning up and organizing a bit (threw out an old rickety end table, which was falling apart, and put up a new tiny bookcase, which - thank God - was very quick and easy to assemble), downloading music, reading and watching Netflix (I decided it was time to revisit The Witcher before moving on to some new fantasy series I haven't seen before). Was late to the Conscious Conversations call today, because Zoom did a number on me and refused to open until after I reboot, which took a while - and then nobody wanted to stay on past the regular closing time, so it felt like the whole thing was over way too soon. *sigh* But otherwise, I managed perfectly well to keep myself occupied and distracted from pondering the challenges of fulfilling my soul's mission on this planet. As you do. *snort* That is all.
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Today I just want to share this powerful animated short film (13 minutes) that someone posted on the NAAS forum. It's pretty dystopian, and it makes some strong statements about the nature of our modern world that could potentially offend some people... but I'm mostly planting it here for my own future reference, so please kindly move along if it doesn't resonate with you. I think it's absolutely brilliant. And it does end on a hopeful note...

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Looks like summer started today. It just exploded out of nowhere. We barely had any spring to speak of. I still wore my winter jacket to work last Thursday. O_O Today, however, I was out in a short-sleeved top, feeling perfectly comfortable. It's very windy - but it's a warm wind, the kind that usually brings about a change of season. The weather forecast still shows some chilly nights ahead... but it's definitely time to rearrange my closet and put away the heavy winter stuff. As well as review my summer outfits, because I've definitely gained some weight since I last wore them. Some of those tighter skirts might have to go. :-/ Not the one I dug out today, I'm happy to report - even though it's an "extra-small" size. I really love it, and I was worried it might not clear my hips anymore. And I was right. It doesn't. But guess what? I was able to pull it on through my head and shoulders, and the waistline isn't too tight. Thank God the circumference of my upper body is a lot smaller than that of my butt... LOL.

I'm also still downloading music and updating some of my countless playlists. I have so many favorite artists now that I can no longer keep up with most of them, and I often don't find out about "new" albums until they're not so new anymore. Which is what just happened with Stromae - the brilliant musician and performer from Belgium, whom I first discovered about a decade ago. I did post a few of his videos on here at the time, as I recall. They are typically just as engaging as the songs themselves - very meticulously created mini-movies that each tell their own intricate story. Especially this one:



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Today I just want to share my new Tarot deck. Yes, another one. Even though I'm still a little shy about using Tarot, and reach for simple, straightforward oracle cards much more often. Tarot is complex, and I feel like it might take me years to learn it properly - but when I see a gorgeous deck like this one, I can't resist the pure aesthetic pleasure of exploring the images and symbols. So it was one of those spontaneous purchases in the OMG LOOK AT THE PRETTY category. ;-) Besides, it totally aligns with the "divine feminine" theme, since it is called Tarot of the Witch's Garden. Very pagan, very green and very optimistic in its general appearance:

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The guidebook is gorgeous, too: printed on nice, glossy paper, with full-page color images of every card... which is pretty rare. By the way, the image on the box shows The Magician, who is usually depicted as a male figure. Clearly, here in the witch's garden magic is female. :-D

Below is a selection of my other favorites: ( Read more... )
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One of my favorite things happened today. A spontaneous, unexpected music discovery. Kiki Rockwell. I was looking for something else on YouTube, and randomly clicked on a video showing a bunch of women in period costumes... and I was totally hooked within the first 30 seconds. LOL. She's just a pure channel for the divine feminine - in its most fierce, uncompromising incarnation. The lyrics give me the chills, because they sound like past life memories and/or ancestral spirits coming through. And the videos are quite creative, as well. Just utterly yummy. Take a look:



And just one more, because it's possibly the trippiest music video I've ever seen:

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Today I finished all assigned work by lunchtime... then spent the afternoon decluttering some old document folders and downloading music. This wasn't even the plan... but I happened to click on a link to a music video someone posted on NAAS, and before I knew it, I became a hardcore fan of another brilliant singer/songwriter/performer. Ayla Nereo. Her videos are absolute masterpieces (she often directs them herself, in addition to writing the lyrics, singing, dancing and playing several different instruments). I'm just going to post a few favorites:



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Another video from Amigo the Devil, just because. This song is absolutely gorgeous, and it packs an emotional punch. Such raw vulnerability. I've watched a bunch of interviews with the guy, and he actually said it's the most personal song he's ever written, and it makes him feel nervous and exposed to perform it live. But people love it. Of course they do. I can't think of anyone who wouldn't be able to relate all too well. For myself, I just want to hug him and cry. This is deep shadow work. In other words, what most of us need to do a lot more of if we are ever to see a more beautiful outer reality. Why yes - we're still in the thick of Scorpio season. ;-)

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Not much to report this weekend. I watched Thirteen Lives, but somehow it didn't affect me as much as I thought it might. The film is really heavily focused on the logistics of the massive rescue operation, rather than the psychological/emotional impact it had on everyone involved. We learn very little about the boys being rescued - and so it doesn't really feel, to me at least, like I have good reason to be hugely invested in their survival. It's almost like a documentary; very detailed and thorough about the sequence of events, but somehow shallow at the same time when it comes to the people. What I would have been really interested in seeing would be an intimate story about the psychological impact of trauma, in the context of a natural disaster/basic survival and so on. Viggo could have been SO good at that (think of The Road!). But he didn't really get a chance for any deep inner explorations in this movie; he plays a "tough guy" who barely shows any emotion at all. He's all business, so he takes care of business - and then he goes home. Story done. LOL.

That is all. :-P
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Who knew? Apparently I started this journal exactly 19 years ago. O_O It's been a hell of a trip, and I can confidently say I've made some massive progress in the so-called personal growth department. I wonder what the next 19 years will bring... ;-)

Who knew? Apparently I started this journal exactly 19 years ago. O_O It's been a hell of a trip, and I can confidently say I've made some massive progress in the so-called personal growth department. I wonder what the next 19 years will bring... ;-)

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I had my dental cleaning appointment this morning. I also got new X-rays and a review of my "treatment plan". I have this decaying molar on the upper left side that can be either restored or taken out. It's up to me which. The decay hasn't gone too far... but if I choose to keep it, it will need a crown, which will cost me about $1,000 (with insurance). And, apparently, I already need three or four other crowns (not as urgently, but still). An extraction, on the other hand, will "only" cost around $250. I can live without that tooth, it's far in the back, I am already missing one molar on the bottom and not really feeling any difficulty with chewing my food... but still. On some level, I'm not happy with the concept of removing a perfectly good tooth, just because I don't want to spend the money. But the truth is, I DON'T WANT to spend the money. *sigh*

My dental insurance covers less than 50% of restorative treatments, and it maxes out at $1,500; so I can only afford about two crowns per year. Another good reason to skip THIS one. But my dentist said she really hesitates to remove a tooth that could still serve me for a decade. So I'm really of two minds about this right now. What would you do?

Dental work is the bane of my existence, I tell you. It never ends, and it eats all my savings. I was terrified of the dentist as a kid, because back in communist Poland they didn't have good anesthesia, and every visit was pure torture. Now that the treatments themselves are virtually painless due to modern technology, the nightmare factor has shifted to the bills. I have to wonder if perhaps this is all due to some karmic baggage. Did I break somebody's jaw in a past life or something? Because really, this is getting old, and I am just SOOO tired of it. *headdesk*
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I had an ambitious plan today to do the 40-question year-end meme that's floating around... or at least an abbreviated version of it. However, in the so-called meantime I happened to discover my latest audio-visual crush... and so this is all I want to talk about right now. :-P I've been more than ready for some new inspiring music for quite a while now... so I'm not really surprised to be swept up in such a powerful fascination all of a sudden. In fact, I've been hoping for something like this to happen soon. I just didn't have the time to deliberately search for it. AND I had a feeling it was going to happen anyway. ;-)

So I took a peek at Dead Can Dance's latest videos on YouTube yesterday afternoon... and she came up as a suggested "similar artist". (Not really similar, but you know how YouTube throws stuff at you, based on what you've watched before? So I'm guessing that the general weirdness of videos was the common denominator here... LOL.) Sevdaliza. First glance at Google search results will tell you she's a "Dutch-Iranian singer-songwriter"... but what it actually means is that her family left Iran for the Netherlands, and she currently lives in Rotterdam. She was born in Tehran as Sevda Alizadeh, and she also has Russian and Azerbaijani roots. Her striking physique is a perfect match for her bold performance style... and it might also amuse you to know that she used to play on the national Dutch basketball team before she decided to devote her life to music (which explains her statuesque, athletic and slightly androgynous charm). She's only been publicly known as a musician for the past few years... but the explosion of raw creativity that she embodies was undeniable right from the start. She would not be contained. In fact, she created her own record label, so as not to be influenced by anyone else's artistic vision. Her videos are bold and surprising, even a little creepy... sometimes in contrast to the songs themselves, which can be piercingly gentle and vulnerable. I know this may sound corny... but I think she is expressing the wounded soul of this day and age. Someone called her a "futuristic traditionalist" (in addition to music videos, I've watched a bunch of interviews as well) - and I think it's a very fitting description. As for her music genre, I've seen it referred to as "electronic", "trip hop", "downtempo", "avant-pop", or even "alternative R&B". I don' really care what you call it. It's definitely unique and captivating. Haunting, even. I just put together a playlist that's almost two hours, and that I am probably going to play to death over the next few weeks. Anyway... instead of prattling on, let me just share a few examples. Here's the first video that caught my attention:



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Today I want to share a link to a fascinating article. Yes, another one of Charles Eisenstein's essays; I'm afraid I may have become a bit of a fan. ;-P This is a brand new one, though, and it gave me some valuable insights into the huge ideological "war" that seems to be raging across the US (and global, to some extent) media and the entire cultural landscape these days. Because I am somewhat allergic to politics, I tend to feel lost in the nuances of various popular controversies, puzzling over why on earth some people say or believe the things they do. So I am always grateful for a balanced, detached, thought-provoking explanation. And Charles seems to be really good at that. That's what drew me to his writing in the first place. His ability to step back from the polarization and offer a different perspective: not from "somewhere in the middle", but from OUTSIDE the entire dichotomy. Seeing the flaws, the blind spots and the "hidden gems" on either side. As well as delivering a hopeful message at the end, despite some really uncomfortable conclusions along the way. He really gave me a lot to process... and so I feel the need to quote a few choice bits. But first, here's he entire text:

https://charleseisenstein.org/essays/from-qanons-dark-mirror-hope/

Now for the uncomfortable conclusions. He basically starts out with a rather grim vision of the future that seems inevitable - unless we, as a society, collectively take a breath and examine the sources of our respective convictions, seeing the humanity in our apparent "enemies" and honestly searching for common ground. Here are the two "grim possibilities" he envisions: (1) In a few years a new and more formidable demagogue will arise to channel the repressed forces [= Trump supporters and other right wing groups] toward a fascist coup. (2) A neoliberal corporatocracy, costumed in the garb of progressive values, will consolidate its already well-developed powers of surveillance, censorship, and control to establish a techno-totalitarian state that will attempt to repress those forces forever. But then he also says this: (1) I believe that the blind spots both sides share are more significant, and more dangerous, than their disagreements, and (2) Beneath the conflict is a hidden unity that will emerge when all parties humbly try to understand the other.

So I've been chewing on that. ( Read more... )
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First of all, it feels really good to know that in less than two months, a vile, racist, misogynistic, homophobic, malignant narcissist will no longer be president of the United States. :-D

Second of all, the weather has been GLORIOUS. If not for the growing piles of fallen leaves underfoot, you would never believe it was November. I saw a whole bunch of people walking around in short sleeves today, and I almost wished I'd worn a summer outfit, myself (almost... but not quite ;-). It's supposed to stay like this into the middle of next week...

Third of all, I thought I had some profound insights to share, but it's getting late and I need to crash. Dang it. I admit defeat. Here's my shortest LJ post ever. *sigh*
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I am still in this really weird headspace that is hard to put into words. It is as though my lifelong habit of freaking out in the face of uncertainty is in a protracted wrestling match with my new-found tendency to trust that everything is unfolding exactly the way it's supposed to. I don't know who's winning this time, but I can definitely feel the tension. There is also this constant push/pull between the need to just be with this inner conundrum, and the urge to distract myself away from it. As well as the need to write about it, and the feeling of pointlessness inherent in that. I don't know if I'm making any sense. I'm in split-personality mode, and I'm having a hard time deciding which side needs to be given a voice right now.

Perhaps it's best to refrain from posting until I have specific news to share... which should be pretty soon. Trying to write now feels like pulling teeth, regardless of how much the chaos inside my head seems to be needing an outlet. I just can't bear to keep beating the dead horse of my majorly triggered (and majorly triggering) money-related anxieties, and I don't seem capable of talking about anything else, either. So there you have it. My inner demons are ready for battle, and I wish I could just bury my head in the sand. Which is, of course, a bad idea, as I'd be getting my ass kicked anyway.

Well then... enough useless metaphors. Excuse my unusual lack of verbosity, and good night.
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Full Moon in Pisces tonight. I had every intention of posting a long entry, but I am feeling decidedly non-verbal. So instead of my typical disjointed ramblings, here's something that expresses my emotional state better than words:



And another one:



This is the vibrational state I want to stay in, throughout all the uncertainty and turbulation that I know is coming. That is all. *breathes*
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Holy buckets. What a day. *wipes brow*

So I decided to go get that X-ray at the ortho clinic. The website said you didn't need an appointment - but when I called to confirm this, it turned out you can't just come in for an X-ray; you need to make an appointment with one of their doctors. *sigh* So I did. Luckily, they had a same-day spot for me. Or not so luckily, after all, since apparently I couldn't have picked a worse day for trying to get around the city via public transit. ( Read more... )
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