floatingleaf | it's my Gemini moon, or something

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it's my Gemini moon, or something

Okay, this is weird. I am on some sort of mad quest for new LJ-friends, because most of my current LJ-friends are way too quiet most of the time and I feel like I have no-one to talk to. I mean, I can monologue here till I'm blue in the face, and maybe someone will even read it and think "Oh crap, there she goes again" - and keep that remark to themselves out of polite consideration for my fragile ego - but that still doesn't in any way address my need for CONVERSATION. Or, you know, thought EXCHANGE. And I don't mean casual remarks about the weather or the price of eggs, thank you very much. I want to talk ABOUT stuff. I don't know, fandom (any fandom I am even remotely interested in), art, cinema, music, books, astrology, paranormal phenomena, gender, sexuality, the meaning of life (yes, even Monty Python, LOL)... you name it. I want to become friends with more people who discuss such (or other) stimulating topics in their journals on a regular basis - so I can participate in the discussion and keep my grey matter from withering away into a bleak moonscape of nothingness. And no, I am not interested in searching for people with similar interests through dating sites - because then someone might get the idea that I am simply looking to get laid. I am not. It is my BRAIN that needs stimulation like whoa, and yes, reading/watching good stuff on my own gives me that, but I also need to DISCUSS that stuff with other people, not just monologue endlessly about it. I need someone who actually has an OPINION on that weird indie flick I watched a while ago, and can also perhaps recommend to me another similar one that I might like. I also need that someone (or someones) to update their journal more than once a month. I don't know, maybe LJ isn't the right place for this, but I feel at home here and don't necessarily want to open another journal somewhere else just so I could beg random strangers to TALK to me, dammit. There MUST be people out there who have so much on their minds that they need a regular outlet in the form of a journal which doesn't only talk about highly personal stuff. Not that I mind highly personal stuff about people I already know - far from it - but I am hardly going to approach a stranger who posts exclusively about their sex life, for example.:P Anyway... I feel like an idiot trolling about through my interest list and reading random people's profiles - but I can't resist the compulsion to do it. I have no idea what came over me. I think I need help. Or a life, perhaps. Except THIS is my life. EXCHANGING THOUGHTS with people IS my life, it has always been. I can totally live without seeing another human face for a week or a month, but I need to HEAR from a human brain far more often than that. Or, you know, READ from it. And have some sort of communication, if possible. Otherwise I feel like a wrecked spaceship hurtling towards a black hole. Or something. And I'm not even into sci-fi. Or not much, anyway. But I can talk about the end of the world. Or the Age of Aquarius, you know. Or whatever. Just give me a topic you want to discuss, or tell me where I can find a journal/community that is relatively active and welcomes new friends/members. I need an outlet. Ranting on here just isn't cutting it anymore.

End of transmission. Thanks for putting up with my frustrations once again, and good night.

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Well, I've seen a ufo or two. And where I live has ghosts but they're nice. Lots of things like that, if you want.

I've seen a ufo or two

Really? What was it like?...:)

where I live has ghosts but they're nice

Now, ghosts are a tricky subject, because I have a very active imagination and am easily influenced by ghost stories, whether true or fictional. I usually avoid watching supernatural horror movies for that very reason. But if you say that they're nice...;)

Well, most of the ufos I saw as a child were simply the kind to follow the car I was in at night. As for interaction -- nothing that I can remember now. Of course, they were in the process of decommissioning an old air base that was near here so that might have had something to do with it.

It could be argued that they were just testing aircraft but I have never heard *any* aircraft that was *that* quiet. They were totally silent and they stayed centered over the car(s).

As I grew up, they started to hover over the house as well.

Hmmm... interesting. Are they still watching you?...;)

I've never had anything "paranormal" happen to me that I know of - unless you count a CD that had finished playing in the CD player and then started again from the beginning without me pressing any buttons, or the radio "turning itself on" mysteriously (both things only happened once). For which there probably is some perfectly rational explanation that I am simply unaware of.;)

Actually yes, they are still watching me. (Seriously.)

As for "weird electrical things" happening, that is too many to even try and list. (Except for computers, which really are sentient. ;)

Wow, it must be creepy to feel "watched". Hopefully you are just the subject of some scientific experiment.;)

The funny thing is, I have always wanted something "paranormal" (not too scary, of course) to happen to me, and have been "on the lookout" for it - and it almost never did. Yet it so often happens to people who couldn't care less and/or dismiss it as complete nonsense, lol.

By the way, have you noticed random people turning around startled if you happen to be looking at the back of their head? That's the one thing that happens to me all the time.:D

*hangs head* Oh, I am so sorry, floatingleaf, I am so rarely online these days at all, and then most of the time I am over at FFN and other websites - so, I apologize for being awfully quiet most of the time. Please feel hugged and appreciated, anyway. :(

Don't apologize, I didn't mean to make anyone feel guilty about not hanging around LJ anymore.:) I do understand that people have lives, are busy with other online stuff, move on etc. The post was more about looking for suggestions - as in, do you know of any active journals/communities/blogs that you think I might find interesting? Maybe there is something happening on other people's flists that I am missing out on, because I don't know that many people?... LJ is such a huge place, after all.

I do feel hugged and appreciated, though. Thank you.:) *hugs back*

*Hugs*

I am sorry I am such a rubbish commenter. I've been realizing I need to make more of an effort to keep engaged with my longtime LJ friends here (and I think you qualify). I hardly ever have seen anything or read anything you post about, but I should get off my ass and try, maybe.

Hey, it's OK. You always have plenty of comments to respond to (and probably a huge flist to keep up with as well), so I am not expecting you to acknowledge every post I make. Besides, I often post about stuff that is of no interest to you, so you're not missing out on much, really.;) And sadly, we do not share a fandom anymore (maybe I should get into Merlin, dammit!...:P).

On the other hand, you do post regularly and often share some interesting/thought-provoking stuff, so you are actually one of the few nice exceptions to the general apathy that rules my friends' page these days.:) I just need to find more people like you, and I'll be fine.;)

*hugs and apologizes*
I know I´ve been quiet lately. My whole life overwhelmed me somehow.
I truly miss our conversations and will do better in being LJ-active now when I´m getting sparklier again =/

I miss you too, and I admit I've been a little worried by your disappearing act. Not that it doesn't happen with other people... but somehow I didn't expect it to happen with you. So I thought there must be some serious trouble going on...

Btw, if you need to vent about whatever overwhelming stuff you're dealing with, I'm here. I have pretty much become a physical extension of my computer screen of late...:| *looks sheepish*

I seem to have been at war with myself.. (highly interesting at times) though nontheless enough of a complicated excuse for not being here, as I was in my mind - except from a self-considered prophecy: that I didn´t have anything remotely interesting to add - which in reality really is that 'I should do better in protecting people around me from my issues'. Pathetic, I know =/

Thank you, dearest, for offering support - I just don´t know where to start and I am not too comfortable sharing my burdens.

I am moving ahead, but slowly.. =)

*hugs* I hope you can find some good people. Whenever I've gotten into a new fandom, I've searched out a couple of new friends. I always feel weird about it, but it's worked out quite well for the most part.

That's one of the main things I want out of life, you know. Intellectual stimulation. I didn't enjoy school but I love to learn. You should see my book collection. If something random interests me, I buy books about it - philosophy, astrophysics, witchcraft, ancient history, mythology. I tend not to post about stuff like that because I never know if anybody is interested and I have a tendency to ramble. But you're right. It's not just the reading that I like. It's getting other people's opinions. Interacting with people.

I guess what I'm saying is that I would love to talk about anything and everything with you.

That's one of the main things I want out of life, you know. Intellectual stimulation. I didn't enjoy school but I love to learn.

Oh yeah. I have moved around too much throughout my adult life to accumulate a huge book collection, but I read tons of online articles on a variety of topics - pretty much everything you mentioned, maybe except for astrophysics.:) And sometimes I would post a link and/or ramble about it a bit... but then usually no-one responds. On the other hand, I don't always respond either when other people post their own ramblings, so I guess I shouldn't complain. *shrug*

I would love to talk about anything and everything with you

The feeling is mutual, dear. *hugs*

My parents never liked when we moved and had to lug all my books. ;) Do you have particular places online where you go for articles, or all over? The thing about astrophysics...I don't have a sciency brain but I love where science and philosophy collide. I find it fascinating.

I try to respond to everything that my close friends post so if you do post anything, I'll hopefully be there. I think my problem is I've started checking my flist when I get home from work so I keep on top of it, but sometimes then my brain is tired and all I have to offer are lame and stupid responses to things.

*hugs*

Do you have particular places online where you go for articles, or all over?

Well, one site I check regularly is http://www.AlterNet.org, which is a progressive news site. It often leads me to other places if the articles have links in them. I have stumbled on a few interesting feminist blogs, for example. Sometimes I just click link after link and end up somewhere totally unexpected and fascinating... and then forget to bookmark it, so I can go back there later. Lame, I know.:/

I don't have a sciency brain but I love where science and philosophy collide. I find it fascinating.

Same here.:)

my brain is tired and all I have to offer are lame and stupid responses to things

Oh, I know. The "evening browsing" sydrome.;) You're kinda there, but you basically just want to read smutty fanfic and can't muster a coherent enough response to someone's sophisticated rant. Been there, done that. Way too often, in fact.:/ *sigh*

Thanks for the link, I've had a quick look around and will definitely go back there when I have more time - and a brain that's working properly. ;) Oh, I have done that too, losing excellent links that way. So frustrating.

Problem is, my brain is like that morning or evening at the moment. Oh well, do I get points for trying? :)

do I get points for trying? :)

You definitely do.;)

*big hugs* Thank you. ;)

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