floatingleaf: (blue viggo)
Floating Leaf ([personal profile] floatingleaf) wrote2010-04-03 06:45 pm

a serious case of speeding brainwaves, yet again :)

So... I'll be going to my parents' house for Easter tomorrow. I'm not particularly looking forward to it, since I have to stay overnight (dad's neurologist appointment is on Monday, and it wouldn't make sense to drive back here tomorrow night only to drive back there the next day - it's over 40 miles one way, after all) - but I guess I'll find something to occupy myself. I might actually use the time to go through all the stuff in my old bedroom and decide what should go in the recycling bin - or make a dent in my sister's impressive gothic novel bookshelf.;) They do have a computer, btw, but it's situated in a very "public" area of the house - so I don't expect to be able to do much more than perhaps check my email. And I probably won't be responding to comments and stuff until Monday night or later (depending on what time I get back here etc.).

In other news, we had another company meeting at work this week, and our CEO announced that, financially speaking, we are slowly getting out of the dump and that there will be raises in July. No more than 2%, probably, but we haven't had any since 2008, so we'll take that, thank you very much. *relieved sigh* Oh, and btw: the management of my apartment building did get their act together and send me the lease renewal, only about a month late.:P And they did NOT raise my rent. I think they are very anxious to keep the tenants that they've got at this point, because there are several empty apartments in my building alone. Anyway - there is hope that my bank account will not reach negative balance.;) Unless my car breaks down again, that is - which it hasn't done in a while. *knocks on wood fiercely*

Also, I've added another wonderful recipe to my list of favorites: Mexican Sweet Potato & Black Bean Salad, with chipotle-chili dressing. OMG... yummmm.:D It has a rich taste, with just the right balance between heat and sweetness. It's also pretty quick & easy, as well as equally delicious either warm or cold. Definitely a keeper.:D

Oh, and I've finally seen Michael Moore's Sicko - but I'm not sure if I want to write about it. I would probably end up ranting for hours, and I don't really have the time. Just... the irony of my parents having immigrated here, of all possible places on earth, just so our family can have a "better life", is killing me sometimes. I mean... UK was much closer. So was France. My mom had some long-lost uncle in France, for heaven's sake. But no - in Poland, in the eighties, US was THE place to go. Everyone we knew had a relative in the US. Or somewhere in America, at any rate. We could have at least picked Canada - one of my cousins lives in Canada. But no - here we came, to the country with the most fucked-up healthcare system in the world. And yes, we have so far been much luckier than most of the people whose heartwrenching stories are told in Moore's documentary - but for how long?... Who knows? And just listening to those people in Europe talk about all the amazing benefits they take for granted: completely free, excellent healthcare; a MINIMUM of 5 weeks' paid vacation per year, even for new hires (at my company, you get 5 weeks after TEN YEARS OF SERVICE); 6 months of paid maternity leave; unlimited sick days, for heaven's sake. How can you limit sick days?, says this woman in the film. If you're sick, you're sick. Logical, no? Well... not in the US.:/ Which reminds me of one job interview I had back in 2006, where the hiring manager said: There are no sick days. You've got to be here, no matter what. (to be fair, that was a Polish-owned company, LOL) And don't even get me started on that "medical reviewer" woman who confessed before the court how she got endless raises and promotions at her health insurance company for DENYING care to people in need. Or on that $120 medicine for the lady with respiratory problems, who then bought it for about 5 cents in Cuba (!!!). And here, in this great, amazing, cooler-than-cool country a mob of miserable idiots, who can't even spell the word "moron" correctly in their own language, is hysterically protesting socialized medicine. Which they are under no threat to see anytime soon, anyway. While some of their fellow citizens are dying in the streets because of their lofty (mostly fictional by now) "freedoms". Btw, on the drive back from work a few days ago, I saw this elderly guy standing at the side of the road with a huge sign that said: OBAMA MUSLIM TERRORIST. A one-guy demonstration, as it were. How deeply insightful, grandpa. I hope you have good health insurance - because if you don't, then you are even more stupid than you look. WHY IS THE WORLD FULL OF IDIOTS, ANYWAY???... AAARRRGGGHHHH. *takes a deep breath*

Okay. That was a condensed mini-rant that just had to come out. I feel better already.:P

And one more thing, just to end on a positive note: I LOVE MY FLIST, and I love LJ in general. There are some absolutely amazing people on it. Some of my most wonderful friendships started here, and I can't think of a better way to CONNECT on a very deep level. Which reminds me of this conversation I had recently with a coworker. We were talking about the internet and various ways of online interaction, as well as being anonymous versus revealing your legal name on a public forum etc. - and I said that I usually prefer to use a nick, unless I have a deeper personal connection with someone. Whereupon my coworker stared at me like I was insane. "Deeper personal connection? Through THIS???", he asked incredulously, pointing at his computer screen. He just couldn't fathom what on earth I was trying to say. Well... I wasn't about to go into any details of fanfic porn and general awesome silliness/mental exhibitionism that goes on in these parts, LOL. So I'll just let him think that I am slightly off my rocker. And I will never tell him that my flist actually includes people who have met their SIGNIFICANT OTHER through LJ and are now LIVING TOGETHER as couples in real life, because they first had a deep personal connection through THIS.;) Just saying.

Oh, and THANK YOU for more postcards, [livejournal.com profile] dissonant_dream! They are gorgeous. Especially the one from Charlecote Park. Oh, how I'd love to live close to such a beautiful spot!... Damn, I miss Europe so much. Not just Poland by itself, but all of Europe - including places I've never been to, LOL. I miss historic areas, cultural atmosphere, my friends... everything. It's just... displacement syndrome, I has it.:(

Have to go do some cooking now. I might be able to respond to some comments later tonight, but if not, then I will hopefully catch up with them sometime next week. The main addressee of this cryptic remark certainly knows who she is.:D <333

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-04-11 09:31 am (UTC)(link)
Wow.. uhm..*giggles*
Yep. It actually did. *shows you 2 buttons* Is it me or do I have a slight tendency to get hysterically excited from reading about another persons life? I mean.. yeah.. *snerk*

The Viggo-gushing is hilarious just because it´s SO MEEEE!!! Only I have it as bad for Orli! =D I´m talking about sooo pathetically many years that it´s ridiculous..not even real crushes goes on for that long and all. I just didn´t have anyone to share it with before joining LJ. How could I EVER??? Let´s face it - it´s a bit embarressing being over 20 and fangirly, it seems. People would just laugh and tell me to grow up a bit, right. Well, anyway.. now, I could *really* talk about this for hours LOL but what I want to say is that it was sooo funny and YAY!!! and "Exactly! Omg!" reading about your intense Viggo!crush going on and on. *grins* I didn´t know there were people like me having celeb!crushes that bad and I LOOOOOOVE IT!!!!!
As for the not-at-all-sad-attempts-of-lovelife I can only say they are actually interesting from my POV, tells me a lot about *how* you love, filling in some blanks and contributing to the whole image of your personality. The same for other things like your experience of the job-market and struggles with aligning into too narrow lines. Your movie-reviews (omg I´m telling you, our taste is frightingly alike!!) and your slash-fascination.. wow it´s so ME and I all the time went Yes!!! THAT!.

I think I really like your shameless self.
LOL Let´s hope it´s a good thing since I can´t seem to stop myself at this point.

*still babbling*

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-04-11 10:07 pm (UTC)(link)
I´m talking about sooo pathetically many years that it´s ridiculous..not even real crushes goes on for that long and all. I just didn´t have anyone to share it with before joining LJ. How could I EVER??? Let´s face it - it´s a bit embarressing being over 20 and fangirly, it seems.

Yeah, I know. I'm famous for those ridiculous crushes, so you're safe with me.;) I have always had one, as far back as I can remember. The longest one - on a Polish actor - lasted about 6 years, from when I was 13 until 19 or so. Only two of my closest friends knew about it (and, unfortunately, my parents, who teased me about it mercilessly... LOL). I was literally obsessed with the guy, watching his movies religiously over and over. Then, at 19, I fell passionately in love with Sinead O'Connor. I kid you not. I went bananas over the woman for about two years (again, only two of my closest friends knew about it at the time, and I was careful to keep the extent of this obsession hidden from my parents as well). Then I had a little break from celebrity crushes, because I was busy crushing on my RL friends.;P I sort of convinced myself that I was grown up now and real people will do from now on.:) But at some point I got tired of RL angst and ran off to a mental happy place again.;) I did have an intense crush on the vampire Lestat for a while (the literary character, not Tom Cruise or Stuart Townsend - though they were both exellent in the role, imo). Then I stumbled on LOTR-slash and got whacked over the head by Viggo!madness, LOL. You know the rest.:P

wow it´s so ME and I all the time went Yes!!! THAT!

That's a wonderful feeling, and I'm so happy that we both seem to get that vibe from each other.;) *mighty squishhh*

I can´t seem to stop myself at this point

And why would you do that?... *cheers you on* ;P

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-07-09 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
It´s absolutely wonderful to just *know* that someone out there is experiencing something so similar to my own slightly embarassing celeb!crushing. (previously it was Johnny Depp for an eternity omg!LOL)

Why does it have to be so fucking taboo - I mean; it´s ok only up to a certain age and then everyone seems to think "get a life!"..

My wifey is a celeb!crusher... *squeeeeee´s & heartzz*

Celebcrushes are a very interesting subject in itself...I mean, I wonder what it is that´s shining through in terms of representation - some obscure metaphor - or personification of ideals - or embodiment of hidden desires.. or *can´t remember word in english*, that takes on the shape of something we desire...

Oh, and..Ewwww...Tom Cruise *pukes*
(I can only watch Vanilla Sky, because Penelope is Teh Hott)

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-07-10 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
it´s ok only up to a certain age and then everyone seems to think "get a life!"..

Yep. And that's just plain hypocrisy, because let me tell you - when I went to see the latest POTC movie, and I looked around the theater at the end, while the credits were rolling... guess what? Most of the audience who stayed till the very end, to see that final close-up of Will coming back to Elizabeth (that sexy smile - I'm sure you know VERY WELL what I'm talking about :D), were women in their thirties or older. I kid you not. You are SO not alone, darling. *pervs with you over the yummy pirate boy* ;)

I wonder what it is that´s shining through in terms of representation - some obscure metaphor - or personification of ideals - or embodiment of hidden desires

Yeah. It is a fascinating topic. I think for me, the celebs I have been crushing on were mostly projecting the image of honest, brave people who had the courage to be themselves. To open up emotionally (through acting or music), to defend their political/social beliefs despite strong controversy, vicious criticism or even the risk to their personal safety, to think and question and see themselves (or the world) in new, unexpected ways. Such people are my heroes - and if they also happen to be talented and sexy, then well... that doesn't hurt at all.;P

Ewwww...Tom Cruise *pukes*

Yeah... haha. He wasn't that bad when he was younger. It's mostly the scientology thing that creeps the hell out of me these days. *shudder*

And I have never seen Vanilla Sky. It has Penelope, you say?... Mmmmm... Penelope is walking temptation in any role. I have, like, a total sex-crush on her. She is unbelievably scrumptious sometimes. *slurps*

Oh, and thanks for the hot dog, babes!...:) Even though I am a little puzzled as to its symbolic message. Other than the obvious phallic connotations, obviously. Which, knowing you, COULD be the only message...;P *hides behind a pillow to avoid being hit with flying sex-toys* :D :D :D

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-07-17 11:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Most of the audience who stayed till the very end, to see that final close-up of Will coming back to Elizabeth (that sexy smile - I'm sure you know VERY WELL what I'm talking about :D), were women in their thirties or older.
*gulps* I happened to be with my father... ROFL (OMG! good that the chairs have those comfy handles to squeeze)
Pirate!Will has undone me so many times it´s in fact highly embarrassing.. *wibbles*

celebs I have been crushing on were mostly projecting the image of honest, brave people who had the courage to be themselves. To open up emotionally (through acting or music), to defend their political/social beliefs despite strong controversy, vicious criticism or even the risk to their personal safety, to think and question and see themselves (or the world) in new, unexpected ways
Totally the Viggo!effect... *swoons with u*
As a matter of fact; I think Viggo - as one of few people - (whether it´d be as an actor or not), can ultimately take my breath away anytime just by being himself in all the whatever-constellations he would appear in - because I find it extremely sexy and immensely intriguing to be oneself towards the world --- be it separate or all at once (and definitely in whichever order) and each one of those sides are worth to spend a lifetime in as it is.

I don´t know whether Orli fits into that category of extreme depth somewhere, or being even near to that kind of caliber or not - but he does represent something that speaks to me through all the layers somehow - on a few levels, and mostly in riddles. I do think he´s a very interesting actor too - apart from being his uber!sexxy self, that is. (which particular combination shouldn´t be allowed at_all btw cuz it´s overwhelming in itself etc. *squeaks*)

Penelope is walking temptation in any role. I have, like, a total sex-crush on her. She is unbelievably scrumptious sometimes.
OMG YESSSS!! Sex-crush for me too, she´s amazing in so many ways that it turns ridiculous even trying to explain them. Vanilla Sky is on my list of movies which I can see several times, every time discovering new details. And her performance is always the one that intrigues me the most.
As for Tom Cruise..bah! He´s made some sincerely good movies too - but as himself I do consider him Teh Creepy. And that would make him Mr Double Personality to me.

The symbolic message of the hot dog… My lips are sealed. *SNERRRK*

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-07-18 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
the Viggo!effect

I like that expression.:P

I find it extremely sexy and immensely intriguing to be oneself towards the world

Yep. Me too.

I don´t know whether Orli fits into that category of extreme depth somewhere

I don't know either. Maybe he does. The very fact that he & Viggo seemed so totally smitten with each other during LOTR filming definitely proves that there was more to Orliboy than what met the eye.;P

And I agree, he is a very interesting actor. He just hasn't had much of a chance to prove this, because the casting directors usually don't look past his pretty face.:/ But he was absolutely wonderful in Haven, and I watched that movie twice just to savor his performance. I hope he gets more roles like this - as opposed to the eternal and slightly overblown action hero type. *snort*

He´s made some sincerely good movies too - but as himself I do consider him Teh Creepy. And that would make him Mr Double Personality to me.

Yep. He doesn't strike me as a paticularly sincere type of guy, LOL.

The symbolic message of the hot dog… My lips are sealed.

I am becoming more & more mystified by the minute.;D

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
The very fact that he & Viggo seemed so totally smitten with each other during LOTR filming definitely proves that there was more to Orliboy than what met the eye
*falls eagerly in!lovvvve with your tinhat!heart* I have... nutting more to add. Except maybe.. a lot.

I prefer/love independent movies but damn it; if ORLI´s in them.. they are.. something in a category of their own... aka goood - no matter how bad they might be seen through a critical eye - and no matter what they´re about; Orli is always ..uhmm.. Orli. No such copy of his on Earth. Fullstop.

Generally, I consider Vig's choice of movies slightly more interestingly artful, but I may be biased. What choices did he really have, teh Orli!boy..? Such gorgeous features and such a Hollywoodesque claim-for-fame...yearning to penetrate him with their claws..? Vig always wandered his own ways in some sense. Claws or not. A narrow road that is, and not for everyone.

Hotdog!issue:
Ohnooo.. no more except the usual and somewhat highly intentional hotdog!squeeage that it is coming to know such a lovely person as you, through fandom and trough thee mysterious internetzzies. No cocks were in thought when sending it. Promize.

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-08-06 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
Orli is always ..uhmm.. Orli. No such copy of his on Earth. Fullstop.

Awwwww...;P

coming to know such a lovely person as you, through fandom and trough thee mysterious internetzzies

Thank you. I feel honored. *eyelash-flutter* ;)

No cocks were in thought when sending it. Promize.

Really?... There are times you don't think about cocks???... :P *hides under a pillow*



[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-08-06 12:20 am (UTC)(link)
There are times you don't think about cocks???

TehFuck?!! Uhmh.. ye-eah...*snickers*
LOOOOOOOLLLL! (Yeah, as a matter of fact: LOL-ing can´t fully express mah insane state of sniggeringz right now, ok..)
*dies in pile of laugher*
*cough*
I am a (superiorly snarky & somewhat obscure) elvish ranger, dear. We definitely do not think of cocks all the time. Hah. Bwhahhaha...
*applies pillow + clings to it in hope of salvation*
*can´t refrain from drawing happysparkly!cock on window*

Um. Nope, absolutely not all the time, hon..
(Cocks are slightly hilarious btw. They have no fucking manners.)

Though I eat from two tables, I might have gained myself a cock-fetish somewhere along the way. Yup. No idea how that happened. Convert me. Pleeze.

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-08-07 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
I am a (superiorly snarky & somewhat obscure) elvish ranger

LOL!!!

Cocks are slightly hilarious btw. They have no fucking manners.

WORD.:D :D :D

That just reminds me of what a friend of mine (a very butchy dyke) once said: "Men's bodies are so ridiculous - they have this silly dangly thing between their legs..." :P

I eat from two tables

I like that expression.:) But you know what - maybe there aren't really two separate tables. Maybe there is just one long table, and we're all seated somewhere in the middle, a little bit closer to one end or the other, but with the ability to shift around every once in a while.:)

I might have gained myself a cock-fetish somewhere along the way

Nothing wrong with that. I'm going to have lots of fun teasing you about it.;P

Convert me. Pleeze.

Haha!!!... I don't feel the calling to be a missionary, dear.:D If you're happy with your cock-fetish, you can keep it.;) Just as long as it's not a problem for you that I don't have one.:P


[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-08-16 01:45 am (UTC)(link)
"Men's bodies are so ridiculous - they have this silly dangly thing between their legs..."
LMAO- indeed! Though I always found men´s bodies both fascinating and in many ways aestethically beautiful to look at - mostly from a distance somehow. And of course, I do envy the privilige of penetration, which surely must have its appeal - hence my cock-envy *snerk*.. but goddamn.. I would never want to actually have that thing dangling between my legs on an everyday basis y´know.
A woman´s body is much more secretive and imo more erotic in that sense - it´s never obvious like as in the case of a penis, living its own life.
Well, from the POV of Lust - nothing can be judged really, and I may be biased.... ´cause I´m the Sparkly...

maybe there aren't really two separate tables. Maybe there is just one long table, and we're all seated somewhere in the middle, a little bit closer to one end or the other, but with the ability to shift around every once in a while.:)
OMG!!! *diesdiesdies*

Do you have any idea how much I ADORE YOU?? This is what I mean... the table, and its immense possibilities...
My cock!fetish aside; - I totally do recognize art in its true form....

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-08-19 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
I always found men´s bodies both fascinating and in many ways aestethically beautiful to look at - mostly from a distance somehow.

Really?... *snicker* Yeah, from a distance they're OK.;)

But joking aside, a well-maintained (that is, slim and toned -> *points at icon* ;) male form has its merits. Except for the body hair. Body hair seriously creeps me out. It's one of the main reasons I find women more appealing - smooth, hairless chests, legs & armpits. If men started shaving more than their faces, I might consider giving them a go.;P

I would never want to actually have that thing dangling between my legs on an everyday basis y´know.

Haha!... Yeah, me neither. *chortle*

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-08-20 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Body hair.. *shivers* Who invented it I ask?

And on that note, I guess I need to claim that I do have very smoothe skin.. as well as a very high body tempereature ..Or at least that´s what I´ve been told.. *snerk*
(might as well point me towards being an alien) *promotes self*

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-08-22 04:20 pm (UTC)(link)
I do have very smoothe skin.. as well as a very high body tempereature

You're a good bed-warmer, then?... *snicker*

might as well point me towards being an alien

LOL!!!

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-08-22 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Woot! Yes, I´ve a certificate somewhere.. (bedwarmerTM) =P

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-08-17 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, I guess that´s just me being sparkly!me, thinking I need to be this or that to be understood.
I have a lot of fetishes except cocks, but I suppose there´s no point in even trying to analyze any of them, but to just include and integrate them into the complex variety of one´s personality. I float between labels somewhere I guess. No need to be converted either, I never chose a side. I just fancy people who are interesting enough to be unaware of their sex appeal.

as long as it's not a problem for you that I don't have one
LOL I honestly don´t have anything against people without cock!fetishes *snerk*
That would make me a very silly person indeed.

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-08-20 01:08 am (UTC)(link)
I float between labels somewhere I guess.

Like most of us, probably.

I just fancy people who are interesting enough to be unaware of their sex appeal.

WORD. Viggo totally fits into that category... LOL.

I honestly don´t have anything against people without cock!fetishes

:D I meant I hoped it wasn't a problem for you that I don't have a cock - not a cock-fetish. *LMAO*



[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-08-20 09:48 pm (UTC)(link)
I meant I hoped it wasn't a problem for you that I don't have a cock - not a cock-fetish.
*giggles*
Well dear, there are certain advantages from both sides, yeah? Or rather another side of sexuality, differently shaped. The reasons for me being attracted to women has nothing to do whatsoever with anything cock-like, savvy..
*dies* omg.. *dies again* um.. more about soft skin and boobies and secret folds and mental qualities.

Now, Viggo must belong to a very floaty cathegory, right? He has no defined sexualty in my eyes, which is soothing - because no label would really fit him properly anyway and that feels comforting in a way I can´t even begin to describe.

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-08-22 04:07 pm (UTC)(link)
soft skin and boobies and secret folds and mental qualities

Mmmhmmm... *nods* ;)

He has no defined sexualty in my eyes, which is soothing - because no label would really fit him properly anyway and that feels comforting in a way I can´t even begin to describe.

Yes yes yes!!! I love how he flirts left and right with no regard to gender whatsoever. It's as though in Viggo!universe there is no concept of a "sexual orientation" - there are just more or less fascinating people, and everyone deserves at least an appraising glance.;) It's like he knows that mental connections are really the sexiest thing of all (have you seen how he's all over David Cronenberg every time they appear together?... he must be in love with the man's brain, and he doesn't care what people think of this exuberant affection... it's just sooo endearing... *sigh*).

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-08-26 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
Viggo is..
...and that´s what he is.

I couldn´t possibly even TRY to comprehend the complexity of him, even if I tried.
Actually, he´s growing on me - through your eyes, in many ways.
Because you adore him to such extent, my gaze is fixed upon the magic; zooming him in.
He´s extremely interesting. I knew that already. But.. You are trying to corrupt my senses, are you not..?

*mumblegrumbles*

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-08-27 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
You are trying to corrupt my senses, are you not..?

Moi?...
*blinks innocently* ;)

I never said: You Must Bow Before Teh Greatness of Incomparable Viggo, or anything to that effect. Have I?... *bites lip*

:D

Oh, and btw: using THAT icon on me should be illegal. *melts*

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-08-31 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
Ye-AHH!! You!! *points*
You is Teh Corruptios Viggoishness!! (like you wouldn´t know that already)

You Must Bow Before Teh Greatness of Incomparable Viggo
Now.. *purrs* this is something we should always need to explore deeper. And stuff.
(Never heard of the guy. Nope. Never. *duct-tapes self*)

Icon!smashes your pervy crayonpainted Woodstock-soul

[identity profile] floatingleaf.livejournal.com 2010-09-01 04:15 am (UTC)(link)
this is something we should always need to explore deeper. And stuff.

Um... YES. And then some. More stuff, I mean. *flails*

[identity profile] illuins-lair.livejournal.com 2010-09-09 12:17 am (UTC)(link)
See?? You lurve me.. a little bit, yes =D
*bounces & makes fool of self*