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floatingleaf) wrote2007-08-27 08:40 pm
floatingleaf) wrote2007-08-27 08:40 pm
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an intended 'short' post that somehow got out of hand
Okay... let's see. *tries to organize scattered brain cells* Here's what's on my mind as of right now:
1) Toronto is NEXT WEEK OMG. Still can't quite comprehend it, don't know where the time went etc. I am so excited I can barely sit still... lol. Also nervous as hell, since I haven't traveled in so long (not on my own, at any rate). But I try not to obsess too much over what might possibly go wrong.;)
2) I hope my body is going to adjust to the new healthy diet and stop craving bread & cheese, or smoked fish & pickles.:/ For now, I can barely stay within my daily points (including the optional five), and occasionally there's this nagging sensation in my stomach. It's not exactly hunger, but it's like I'm missing something. Even though I truly love my fruits & veggies. I mean, I bought this little microwave steamer, and I had steamed salmon with baby carrots & cabbage leaves & fresh peppers & little onions for dinner last Friday, and I was truly surprised at how good it all tasted with no butter and very little seasoning. And it did fill me up... for about two hours.:| *sigh*
I guess the key is to eat light, little snacks throughout the day to keep the hunger off, but to choose them wisely (for example, a banana does count as a light snack, but a chunk of cheddar cheese the size of a banana certainly doesn't :P). Even though they still add up to the total and leave no room for true indulgence. *snort* Well... that's the idea, I guess. No indulgence. Just basic nutrition. Which somehow makes me feel like a junkie on a detox, you know?...
3) So, I waited till my doctor was back from her vacation and called her again about the test results. She didn't seem to have a vague idea what I was even talking about. Said she would find out and call me back. Then, a few hours later, when I was out shopping, she left me a message saying that she COULDN'T FIND MY RECORDS. Okaaaaay. That was Friday afternoon. So today I called again, and they said they didn't have my results yet. So I told them the study was five weeks ago. So the girl I was talking to said she would call the lab and find out what happened. And finally, tonight, she called me back and left a brief message, more or less to the following effect: "The test was good, but they advise you to lose some weight. If you have any questions, call the doctor". Yep. That was it. That's what I had been waiting for since July the 20th.
No comments. As for the wise and timely advice, see point 2).
Yes, I know that even if I do have apnea, which they somehow missed, it is likely to go away if I manage to slim down - since I certainly didn't have it when I was thin. Not that I necessarily slept well, mind you; but if I didn't, it was either emotional angst or my bladder acting up (or both, since they're so obviously interconnected). Which could still be - and probably is - the case even now. I know I am usually kinda nervous at bedtime (on weekdays, at any rate), because I worry that I won't be able to get enough sleep - and lo and behold, that's precisely what happens (self-fulfilling prophecy, anyone?...). *sigh* I'm just a serious case of nerves and I need to freaking RELAX - in every possible meaning of the word. I'm just not sure I even know how to do that anymore.:[
Btw, I bought some kind of herbal sleeping pills at Whole Foods that are supposed to help you "go to sleep faster and wake up energized". Exactly what I need. So I took one last night. And guess what? I didn't go to sleep any faster than normal, but I did wake up around 5 a.m., energized as all hell - if by 'energized' you mean shaking all over and with a monster of a headache.:{ Yeah. A nice surprise, that one (I thought the worse that could happen would be no effect at all, since that's what sleeping pills usually do - or fail to do - for me). No more pills then, I guess. It's almost like my body hates me and betrays me at every turn - or maybe I hate it, and that's where all the problems come form. Which is why I need to change it, so that I can love myself again...
1) Toronto is NEXT WEEK OMG. Still can't quite comprehend it, don't know where the time went etc. I am so excited I can barely sit still... lol. Also nervous as hell, since I haven't traveled in so long (not on my own, at any rate). But I try not to obsess too much over what might possibly go wrong.;)
2) I hope my body is going to adjust to the new healthy diet and stop craving bread & cheese, or smoked fish & pickles.:/ For now, I can barely stay within my daily points (including the optional five), and occasionally there's this nagging sensation in my stomach. It's not exactly hunger, but it's like I'm missing something. Even though I truly love my fruits & veggies. I mean, I bought this little microwave steamer, and I had steamed salmon with baby carrots & cabbage leaves & fresh peppers & little onions for dinner last Friday, and I was truly surprised at how good it all tasted with no butter and very little seasoning. And it did fill me up... for about two hours.:| *sigh*
I guess the key is to eat light, little snacks throughout the day to keep the hunger off, but to choose them wisely (for example, a banana does count as a light snack, but a chunk of cheddar cheese the size of a banana certainly doesn't :P). Even though they still add up to the total and leave no room for true indulgence. *snort* Well... that's the idea, I guess. No indulgence. Just basic nutrition. Which somehow makes me feel like a junkie on a detox, you know?...
3) So, I waited till my doctor was back from her vacation and called her again about the test results. She didn't seem to have a vague idea what I was even talking about. Said she would find out and call me back. Then, a few hours later, when I was out shopping, she left me a message saying that she COULDN'T FIND MY RECORDS. Okaaaaay. That was Friday afternoon. So today I called again, and they said they didn't have my results yet. So I told them the study was five weeks ago. So the girl I was talking to said she would call the lab and find out what happened. And finally, tonight, she called me back and left a brief message, more or less to the following effect: "The test was good, but they advise you to lose some weight. If you have any questions, call the doctor". Yep. That was it. That's what I had been waiting for since July the 20th.
No comments. As for the wise and timely advice, see point 2).
Yes, I know that even if I do have apnea, which they somehow missed, it is likely to go away if I manage to slim down - since I certainly didn't have it when I was thin. Not that I necessarily slept well, mind you; but if I didn't, it was either emotional angst or my bladder acting up (or both, since they're so obviously interconnected). Which could still be - and probably is - the case even now. I know I am usually kinda nervous at bedtime (on weekdays, at any rate), because I worry that I won't be able to get enough sleep - and lo and behold, that's precisely what happens (self-fulfilling prophecy, anyone?...). *sigh* I'm just a serious case of nerves and I need to freaking RELAX - in every possible meaning of the word. I'm just not sure I even know how to do that anymore.:[
Btw, I bought some kind of herbal sleeping pills at Whole Foods that are supposed to help you "go to sleep faster and wake up energized". Exactly what I need. So I took one last night. And guess what? I didn't go to sleep any faster than normal, but I did wake up around 5 a.m., energized as all hell - if by 'energized' you mean shaking all over and with a monster of a headache.:{ Yeah. A nice surprise, that one (I thought the worse that could happen would be no effect at all, since that's what sleeping pills usually do - or fail to do - for me). No more pills then, I guess. It's almost like my body hates me and betrays me at every turn - or maybe I hate it, and that's where all the problems come form. Which is why I need to change it, so that I can love myself again...
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