I'm still alive?...

[floatingleaf]

First and foremost, warm thanks to everyone for the comments to my previous post (you lovely people know who you are :). Some of them (the ones that appeared before I left for work this morning) gave me the strength and courage I needed to face my boss about the whole me-not-being-right-for-the-job issue. And actually, she was very understanding and courteous about it, admitting that not everyone is suited for that type of environment and suggesting I should go to the HR and inquire about other positions within the company that might fit me better (actually, I was kind of amazed at how mature and professional we both acted during the whole conversation... lol). Since it seemed like a sensible thing to do, instead of just quitting at once (however tempting that might have been in my current state of mind), I think I'm going to grin and bear it for another week or so and see if anything works out. It wasn't so bad today, actually; I did make a couple of stupid errors, due mainly to not having slept for over 24 hours, but didn't get stabbed with any murderous looks for it. Or maybe I was just too exhausted to notice... lol.

On a side note... homeopathic sleeping pills Calms FORTE. HA HA HA. What utterly useless crap. I took THREE, and didn't as much as doze off all night. Didn't even feel my eyelids getting heavy, lol. I guess I need some hardcore chemical tranquilizers, like the ones they give to raving lunatics at mental institutions, to put me to sleep when I am in my full angst mode... *sigh*

Of course, the best natural sleep aid is sheer physical/mental exhaustion, and it's definitely at work right now.:) Actually, I took a longish nap already right after coming home this afternoon... and now all I feel like is brushing my teeth and going back to bed. I still have well over 100 unread emails, not to mention the unanswered comments... but hopefully I'll deal with that over the weekend. Ahh, the weekend - my only light in the deep, dark tunnel.;P *scurries off before her face hits the keyboard*

Comments

[mellacita.livejournal.com]

Yeah well I got plenty of those so take your pick. :P

[slesia.livejournal.com]

Sweetheart,
glad to read that today went better. As they say, when you hit the bottom, you can only go up *hugs*. What I mean is that when you get to the point of seeing everything only and completely black, then the next day you start learning to see in the dark and things look less bleak... *g*

If they could find you another place in the same company it would be really good (and it would save you the stress of looking for a new job) as long as the new place is fitting for human beings :) :)

As far as sleep is concerned, as you know, it is not one of my best periods either and when I went to see my GP (general doctor), I told her I kept on waking up in the middle of the night and stuff, and she gave me some sleeping pills to use just for a few days to re-establish a regular pattern of sleep and to help my brain get out of the 'oh my God, I can't sleep' chain-reaction. It's so good to wake up after a night's real sleep, Hon, who cares if they're chemicals: we all need some help to get through hard times :) :)

Luv and solidarity,
xxxxSlesia