floatingleaf: (nymph)
2012-03-20 11:13 pm
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a perfect lazy day of books and music :)

I took a day off today, since my period hit last night and I woke up feeling extremely weak and sluggish (despite having gone to bed around 10 p.m.). Luckily, it wasn't a big deal; we're still busy at work, but it's not so frantic anymore. And having a lazy morning in bed makes the whole monthly affliction much more tolerable...

The weather is still incredibly summerish - I opened the windows to air out the place a bit, and the breeze felt very warm. It even got a bit stuffy inside in the afternoon. I felt tempted to turn on the AC at one point... but I said to myself: It's MARCH, for God's sake. You don't turn on the AC in March! LOL. I didn't even take the kitchen window fan out of the closet - because, for all I know, it might still get cold again in a few days, and once the fan is put in, I won't be able to close the window. But I feel like I have to keep reminding myself it's March - the outside temperature certainly doesn't confirm it... *headshake*

In other news, I just finished reading one of my latest purchases: Fun Home by Alison Bechdel. It's an autobiography in the form of a graphic novel. In case you've never heard of Alison Bechdel, she's the author of a popular comic series, Dykes to Watch Out For. Read more... )

I have also just discovered that they totally revamped my favorite download website: Soundike.com. At first I freaked out, because I immediately thought that now they're going to start charging as much as Amazon or iTunes - but, lo and behold, they actually lowered the price! It used to be $0.15 per track - now it's $0.10 per track. Seriously... TEN CENTS. Full album for less than a dollar. It actually makes me a bit suspicious. They say they're legal, but how can that be true?... I'm not sure if I should stay away, or instead download as much as possible while this incredible deal lasts (sure it won't be forever). They have a banner up saying "Birthday Party! Only $0.10 per track!" - so perhaps it's an anniversary of the site's launch or something. Anyway... I am currently sampling the medieval/Celtic band Omnia, recommended to me by [livejournal.com profile] meathiel (btw, the track samples last a full minute now - they used to be 40 seconds). Thanks, Kerstin! It sounds lovely.:)

And now... bedtime.:/
floatingleaf: (green sunset)
2012-03-17 11:35 pm
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St. Patrick in a bikini :D

Today was a glorious summer day. No, not a warm and breezy spring day, which perhaps wouldn't have been so surprising - but most definitely a SUMMER day, with people running around in shorts and flip-flops. Not that some Chicagoans don't switch to shorts and flip-flops as soon as the snow melts... lol. But today it was actually warm enough for ME to wear a summer outfit - and that IS saying something. I totally would have worn a sleeveless top, too - if only my armpits had been shaved.:P But seriously, who expects this sort of weather in March?... In the upper part of the northern hemisphere?... It feels absolutely surreal. I mean, a week ago I was still wearing my winter jacket, scarf and gloves. Today, a frilly skirt and sandals. I was actually planning to buy a new light spring jacket/windbreaker, since both my old ones are very worn and shabby - but it looks like I don't need one, since there was no spring to speak of. Apparently, we only have two seasons now: the hot & humid one, and the cold & wet one, LOL. Not a rainy one, since both would qualify as rainy here in Chicago - so that wouldn't differentiate one from the other. Anyway... the funny (or not really) thing is that a substantial percentage of the American society still blithely claims that NOOOOO, of course there is no global warming.:/

But let's not even go there, mmmkay? I have no energy for disturbing topics tonight. In fact, I can feel my brain shutting down right now.:/ I've been running errands and shopping for most of the day, and now all I want is BED. *sigh*
floatingleaf: (sultry)
2012-03-03 11:57 pm
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oh well

So, I did watch that old Viggo flick I mentioned a while ago (La Pistola de mi Hermano). It's a strange little movie about a pair of troubled teenagers. And it's not nearly as old as I thought - it was made in 1997. So Viggo is actually 39 it in... LOL. He does look very young - but that's Viggo for you.:D )

In other news, the weather is very grey, windy and uninviting, and I feel lethargic, but strangely restless at the same time. My customary walks to the neighborhood grocery stores exhausted me far more than they should have, and I wanted to talk about other stuff, but it's late now and my brain is shutting down.:/ I can't do the "night owl" thing anymore, even on weekends. It's no fun getting old... LOL. *sigh*
floatingleaf: (prison)
2012-03-03 10:10 pm
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my Internet Explorer is being a bitch :|

I'm having weird issues with my browser - whenever I click on something, I get the message that the website is "not responding". Refreshing usually works, but then the next time I try to do anything, the message comes back again.:/ Or the site freezes for a minute or so. And it's been happening with a bunch of different sites, so I know it's not just one particular webpage with problems. Also, my internet connection seems perfectly fine. So I figure it must be the browser. I have Internet Explorer 9 - the latest fancy-shmancy version that is supposed to be oh-so-cool. Any ideas on why it might be acting like this?... It makes web browsing extremely frustrating - not to mention posting LJ comments and stuff like that. I am actually making this entry as a test, to see if I am able to post under the circumstances. If it comes through, I'll try to do another one...
floatingleaf: (victory)
2012-02-27 11:40 pm

Happy Birthday to an old crush :)

Because the older I get, the more sentimental I become (surprised, anyone?...;), I just realized today is the 67th (!!!) birthday of a certain Polish actor I had the most severe crush on as a teenager. So I googled him, just in case there actually were some nice pics available (when I searched before, all I could find were relatively recent ones, and he hasn't aged very well... and, sadly, my collection of newspaper clippings from those ancient times when he still looked good never made it across the Atlantic) - and voila! there he is, playing Hamlet back in the sixties:



See the grainy old black-and-white photo?... *gets all teary-eyed* (yes, that was before I was born, I'm not THAT ancient yet...;P)

And then I found this: "One of Poland’s most popular actors Daniel Olbrychski celebrates 50 years on screen" (from last December):



Not bad for 67, if I say so myself.:) Fifty years on screen, and he never lost that crooked smile... Here's to another fifty in good health and spirits (and no, I am not alluding to the legendary fondness for alcohol among Polish actors in general, and this one in particular; or perhaps I am, just a little...;).

And now I really must scamper off to bed... *sigh*
floatingleaf: (Rossetti flaming hair)
2012-02-25 11:57 pm
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recommended reading for the curious mind :)

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] meathiel and [livejournal.com profile] dissonant_dream for the blue dragons!... They're cute.;)

Winter is making its final (hopefully...) stand this weekend, and after trudging through frozen snow for most of the day running errands my legs feel weak and achy. Luckily I don't have to go anywhere tomorrow...

No other personal news to share... but there is something I've been thinking about a lot for the past few days. See, I discovered this blog on intersexuality. Also known as hermaphroditism - but the latter term is seen by some people it refers to as controversial. Anyway... the essence of the matter is that our (Western) culture tells us everyone is born either male or female, except for some extremely rare "birth defect" cases that require immediate corrective surgery. And that is simply not true. )
floatingleaf: (dreamy)
2012-02-22 09:40 pm
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a silly meme, just because

Comment to this entry and I'll give you a letter. List ten things that you love that begin with that letter and then post that list on your journal.

[personal profile] kehleyr gave me "S"... an easy one.:)

Here goes:

spring (can it come soon?... *wistful sigh*)
summer
storms (especially summer storms :)
sunsets
sunflowers
snowdrops
strawberries
stories (as in "fiction")
songs
solitude

Can you tell I am extremely ready for a change of season?...;)
floatingleaf: (slightly mental)
2012-02-10 09:15 pm
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cleaning my nose for the ultimate thrill (it's a quote, folks, okay?)

It's cold. And snowing. And I really hoped that the office would close early today because of it... but it didn't happen this time. Instead, I had more work thrown at me. Next week is going to be a mad scramble to keep up with all the stuff flooding my desk.:/

In other exciting news, I don't think I managed to go to bed before midnight even once in the past week - despite seriously planning on it every single day. Don't ask me how this happens. Ironically, the more tired I am, the more difficult it becomes to "mobilize" myself for early bedtime, because my entire body/mind slows down somehow and I lose track of time. Like, for example, I don't realize I just spent an hour (instead of 10-15 minutes) filing my nails, or something to that effect. I've no idea if that makes any sense to "normal" people. But then again, I'm not sure there are any "normal" people on my flist, so maybe I shouldn't worry.;P Seriously, I am inclined to think that anybody remotely sane would have given up on me long ago...

In that vein, and because I am way too exhausted to talk about anything remotely clever or interesting tonight (not that it ever stops me from posting... LOL) - let me share some song lyrics that reflect my current state of mind pretty well:

Sixshooter by Tiamat )
floatingleaf: (cat)
2012-02-02 09:50 pm
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why not? *shrug*

Stolen from [personal profile] crowdaughter:

I'm running a test to see who's reading my posts. So, if you read this, leave me a one-word comment about your day that starts with the third letter of your LJ USERNAME. Only one word please. Then repost so I can leave a word for you. Don't just post a word and not copy - that's not as much fun!
floatingleaf: (winter)
2012-01-17 09:55 pm
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I think my "spirit animal" must be a bear :)

Damn you, Winter. Why do you have such a profound effect on my daily functioning?... I thought I had stuff to post about, but my brain refuses to put it into coherent sentences. All I want to do is eat and sleep... and then eat again, and sleep some more. Staying more or less awake for 8 hours a day at the office seems about as much as I can handle. As soon as I get home, brain goes into standby mode.:/ As in, waiting for bedtime. *yawns*

It was raining yesterday, btw, but now we have another Arctic freeze coming. There will be ICE all over the sidewalks tomorrow morning. *cringes* And that's really all the news I can muster... *gives up*
floatingleaf: (indian runner)
2012-01-15 10:22 pm
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it seems I haven't posted a gay movie review in a while ;)

I saw an unforgettable film last night. David's Birthday (original title Il compleanno). It came out in 2010, and apparently was a big hit at Cannes. It's a story of a middle-aged, seemingly straight, happily married guy falling for his best friend's teenage son. I think the name David is a very deliberate choice, because the boy totally has the look of a Michelangelo sculpture about him.:) And he is an underwear model (played by an actual Brazilian model, Thyago Alves). Read more... )
floatingleaf: (rockstar lestat)
2012-01-12 11:33 pm
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excuse me while I switch into fangirl mode - yet again...;)

Winter has descended. It's been snowing for most of the day, and the temperature has dropped well below the freezing point. And since the past week or so was unusually mild for January, this is a bit of a shock to the system. I feel partially hibernated.;) And the fact that I waited about 20 minutes for the bus tonight, at the stop near our office with no shelter, certainly didn't help. It gave me a bad case of tingling toes.:/ But guess what got me through it? Tiamat in my headphones... LOL. I just finished creating the massive playlist last night, and it's been my lifeline throughout today (mind-numbingly boring hours at work included). And ever since I got home, I've been thawing slowly while browsing their videos on YouTube. My mind is far from lucid enough to attempt any sort of comprehensive presentation - as in, how the musical style of Tiamat changed in curious ways over the years, while remaining entirely awesome throughout, or something - but let me just share a few random picks. Here's Gaia, from the album Wildhoney (1994):



Still totally death metal there - the slow, hypnotic kind (which I love). But listen to this - Do You Dream of Me?, from the same album actually. Such a sweet, nostalgic little tune - with a very interesting animated movie set to it:



And then there's this. Brighter Than the Sun, from the album Skeleton Skeletron (1999). I love the video, which is a little tongue-in-cheek (just like the album title, I suppose) and strongly reminiscent of the Sisters of Mercy. And, to be honest, you wouldn't know it's still the same band - if not for the pleasingly memorable angular features of frontman Johan Edlund. Yes, I do admit I have developed quite a liking for his stone-faced Nordic hauteur.;P



Any color you like - as long as it's black. OH YEAH, BABY.:D

And with that, I bid you good night.:)
floatingleaf: (gothic)
2012-01-11 11:27 pm
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a brief public announcement and a random treat :)

I hereby notify anyone who might care that I have finally created a DreamWidth account. I mean to use it as a backup, in case LJ goes to hell (which everyone seems to think is eventually going to happen). It's a free account for now, without any bells and whistles, and I'm not too crazy about the available journal styles for free accounts - so I don't really feel like posting from there. However, I don't think it is possible to crosspost from LiveJournal to DreamWidth (I know I can do it the other way around, but... meh). Anyway... I'll worry about that later. For now, I imported my profile, entries & comments over there for safekeeping, but I don't want to get rid of the paid LJ account (and my 200 pretty iconses, prrreciousss!...;) anytime soon, so I guess I'll just leave it the way it is and see what the future brings. However, if you are on my friends' list and do have a DreamWidth account, by all means go ahead and add me over there (I am also "floatingleaf" on DW). And let me know who you are if your DreamWidth username is different from the LiveJournal one.:) I just want to get an idea of how many people on my flist actually have DW accounts...

In other news, I just accidentally discovered another INCREDIBLY AWESOME music band. TIAMAT. The name sort of rang a bell (and I mean as a band, not just as a Babylonian goddess... LOL) - but I never really looked into it further, until it came up on the list of "similar artists" while I was downloading something else the other day. So I thought, well, I might just as well check it out... and before I knew it, I was a hardcore fan.:D I love when that happens. Somehow, seemingly out of nowhere, another 4-hour playlist appears on my iPod as I get to sample two decades of discography that happened while I wasn't looking.:) Anyway... long story short, it's another one of those Scandinavian bands that started out as death metal, but ended up being more goth rock/darkwave/psychedelic etc. It sort of sounds like a cross between Anathema and Sisters of Mercy. Which, if you ask me, is positively orgasmic.:P Surprised, anyone?... *looks around* Didn't think so.:D

Well... no time for futher elaboration tonight, but here's a random vid to illustrate the case in point. Wings of Heaven, from the album Prey (2003):



This is the kind of sound I can't ever possibly get enough of. Seriously... who needs drugs? Music is all the "high" I can handle, thank you very much. *floats somewhere on cloud nine*
floatingleaf: (thoughtful)
2012-01-07 11:55 pm
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I should just read some good fanfic instead, shouldn't I?

A disturbing article on how pharmaceutical companies in the US create and "promote" new mental disorders in order to sell more drugs:

http://www.alternet.org/story/153634/7_reasons_america%27s_mental_health_industry_is_a_threat_to_our_sanity/?page=1

Ever wonder why we suddenly have so many mentally ill people in need of drug treatment, including small children?... Yeah, that would be why. If you're feeling brave, read the story of a four-year-old who died of a massive overdose. She had been diagnosed with ADHD AND bipolar disorder, and prescribed three different psychotropic drugs. Yeah, a four-year-old. Why? Because she was "hyper". And even though her parents went to jail after she died, the psychiatrist who prescribed the drugs wasn't even put on trial. She's still treating small children according to the same guidelines, "without any restrictions, penalties or supervision."

And here's the conclusion of the article, which I completely agree with:

When we hear the words disorder, disease or illness, we think of an individual in need of treatment, not of a troubled society in need of transformation. Mental illness expansionism diverts us from examining a dehumanizing society.

In addition to pathologizing normal behavior, the mental health profession also diverts us from examining a society that creates the ingredients — helplessness, hopelessness, passivity, boredom, fear, and isolation — that cause emotional difficulties. We are diverted from the reality that many emotional problems are natural human reactions to loss in our society of autonomy and community. Thus, the mental health profession not only has financial value for drug companies but it has political value for those at the top of societal hierarchies who want to retain the status quo.


In other words, apparently being human is now a disorder. We all need medication that will transform us into unfeeling, unthinking, unquestioning, docile androids. And if it kills us in the process, then oh well... accidents happen. At least someone made a profit.:/

Which reminds me of how a year ago, when I had landed myself in a nasty financial pickle and was feeling pretty crappy because of it, some people immediately suggested that I should seek "treatment for depression". Which, had I done it, would have most likely resulted in being handed a prescription for some mind-numbing pills. It kind of shocked me that this was apparently the most obvious "solution" to the problem in the eyes of those people - but perhaps I understand it better now. Not that I find it any less troubling - but at least I can see where it comes from...
floatingleaf: (winter)
2012-01-03 09:47 pm
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feeling sulky

So I didn't go to the movies yesterday. I woke up still feeling pretty weak and lethargic, and was actually relieved when [profile] akashaelfwitch cancelled our outing (something urgent came up on her end). It was very cold and windy too, so getting dressed and venturing outside really didn't sound appealing. Instead, I spent the day lounging about, reading, catching up on emails etc. Which seems to have been exactly what I needed.

This morning my energy levels were back to normal, but after a full day at work I am a little deflated again. It is always a bit tough to "get back to reality" after a long, relaxing weekend - especially if said "relaxing" was mostly due to not feeling very well. And it is particularly tough, for me, in cold weather - after spending a few days ensconced warmly at home. There's always this baleful feeling of "wahhh, do I REALLY have to go out there in the grey, frosty morning and shiver at the bus stop???" *sulks*

I'm sure I'll get over it in a few days... but right now I'm struggling with a bit of classic winter gloom. Which means I might not be feeling very chatty in the near future. The one thing that helps with this despondent mood is getting more sleep - which, of course, makes weekday evenings even shorter.:/ But what's the use of longer evenings if you're not coherent enough to enjoy them much anyway?... I've found the hard way that I am unable to "cheat" my body when it comes to the required amount of sleep - that "one more hour" of computer time at night will sooner or later come back to bite me in the ass, especially if I have to get up early the next morning. Still, it's tough to be the strict parent to my inner child and send it to bed when it's having such a great time online.:D Which, I'm sure, is something a great many of my flisters can relate to...
floatingleaf: (pouty)
2012-01-01 05:50 pm

grumble grumble

I feel very strange. My body has been acting in a most frustrating manner since yesterday morning, and I can't help but wonder what the reason might be. Like I mentioned, my period started early - but it also feels very reluctant to actually get on with the program, so to speak. cut for possible TMI and general boring/grumbling rant you can safely skip )

Oh, and while I'm in a grumbling mode, let me also remark on the fact that I won't be getting that new phone I had mentioned a few posts back. I received a negative response by mail. Thank you for your interest, blah blah blah, but we are unable to process your request at this time. As to why, they are referring me to the credit reporting agency Equifax. I should have expected this... but still it pisses me off. I mean, it's been three years since I changed my name, and apparently my "new identity" is still not being recognized by the credit bureaus.:/ Read more... )
floatingleaf: (toothy grin)
2012-01-01 12:05 am
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Happy New Viggo :)

Happy New Year, Dear Flist! Here's a little something to make you smile - a very short, hilarious interview with Viggo, David Cronenberg & Vincent Cassel that someone just posted on [livejournal.com profile] viggo_daily:



I couldn't resist sharing it, because it made me LOL despite the generally crappy mood I'm in right now (nothing to do with being by myself on New Year's Eve - everything to do with Mother Nature being a bitch and making my period start about five days early this month, introduced by a vicious headache).

Anyway... no worries, dear Viggo - I will never send you dirty underwear in the mail.:D My fannish obsession - even for you - doesn't go QUITE that far. Thank God. *headshake*

The Hour has struck!!! I think it's officially OK to go to bed now...:P
floatingleaf: (music)
2011-12-30 11:57 pm
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something to ponder as the year ends

Just a random video share tonight - because I love the song, and I think it's a great metaphor for the shallow competitiveness of today's show business. And not only for that, perhaps. I think it's actually a brilliant philosophical commentary on Western culture, in general. In less than 3 minutes. Sung by a guy with a very beautiful voice. The video isn't great quality, but it's a rare track and I'd rather share that than one of the "top hits" everybody knows anyway. So even if you're familiar with Marillion, you might not have heard this song. Which is - very ironically - called Number One...



Don't you ever wonder if this will to win is a weakness?... Why yes, I do. I've wondered about this for quite a while. It's hard not to, when you live in a country that claims to be "the best" in so many ways, while at the same time failing so miserably at upholding the simplest standards of human decency and compassion towards so many of its residents (I don't say "citizens", because - newsflash! - non-citizens are human too, even if this lovely and highly civilized administration chooses to refer to them as "aliens"). It's "survival of the fittest" (read: "the richest" and/or "the most privileged") around here; either you're "number one", or you're a loser. Well... sing me a song for the deliberate loser, Steve. <333
floatingleaf: (lantern)
2011-12-30 01:27 am
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could I ever resist a meme?... *snort*

So this meme-thing has been making its rounds through my flist...

A summary of the year 2011... )
floatingleaf: (violinist lestat)
2011-12-27 10:20 pm
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how to rescue a boring post :)

Just like I expected, yesterday was tremendously lazy. I spent most of it in my pajamas and didn't venture outside (not that this is extremely unusual for me, mind you - I just felt even MORE lazy than on a typical day off...;P). Today was back to work, but only for three days before another long weekend. Which, hopefully, will be a little less lethargic and gluttonous... (since it won't feature my mother, I don't see why not...;)

Btw, I love my new Sony headphones. They tend to stay put (unlike the tiny ones I always used before), and - as a bonus - they keep my ears warm.:) And, of course, they are much better at blocking outside noises - so I can actually hear my music over the roar of traffic at the train station...

But speaking of music - that band I mentioned recently, Antichrisis, has given me a bit of a surprise. I said it sounded gothic, right? Well, it did - on the first album. When I moved on to the second one, I was greeted by a very lively, soulful brand of Celtic folk-rock with only some metal-sounding vocals here and there. Not that it was a disappointment - I love Celtic music, and it does sound very fresh and captivating. I also tend to like bands which are difficult to categorize. And this one definitely is. Their music is chock-full of various influences that you might think don't really go together - until you hear them put together, and then you go, Hmmm... oh wow! That actually works!!! :D Most tracks are pretty long - 7 to 10 minutes on average - and as soon as you think you have the style of the song figured out, it changes without warning, shifting like windswept, cloudy skies. Here's that gothic groove again... now a catchy folky tune... now, wait, didn't that bit sound like hip-hop?... oh OK, no worries, we're back to the reels and shanties. And the funny thing is that it really DOESN'T CLASH. Not to me, anyway.

But describing music in words can only do so much. Here's a video - a very good example of that strange indefinable style I was talking about. It's a long song - and the longer you listen to it, the more it surprises you. In a good way.



And another one - just a pretty gothy lullaby this time, with some beautiful images to match, because that's precisely the sort of thing I am unable to resist.;)