floatingleaf: (be gay)
2009-01-22 11:03 pm
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thank heavens for YouTube - again :)

I have this unsurmountable urge to share something tonight. In fact, it might be only the beginning of a major spammage, because I've been traipsing around YouTube on a sentimental music journey.:) I didn't even know so many of my favorite songs/artists/bands etc. from all over the planet actually had videos - let alone ones that were easily accessible online. I guess I'm still 'old school' in some ways and capable of approaching some aspects of the internet with a sense of childlike wonder.;) Anyway... this is a song I actually haven't heard before, though I'm rather fond of the singer (I don't suppose he wrote the song, though, because there were videos of quite a few other people singing it as well). I do admit some of his videos are awfully tacky (you CAN overdo it on the gay sometimes, you know) - but this is a live performance, and he's not preening too much for once.:P And the lyrics absolutely floored me. If gay men ever decide they need an official anthem, here it is. So, without further ado, I present Marc Almond - What Makes a Man a Man.


floatingleaf: (victory)
2009-01-20 10:45 pm
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YES

We had a TV set up in the breakroom at work today, to watch Obama's inauguration. It was too early for my lunch break, so I only came in for a few minutes and got the middle part of his speech - which turned out to be my favorite part (thanks for posting the entire text, [personal profile] taelyn_sass). In fact, I left the room so quickly because I was afraid for a moment I might actually start crying in public.:)

Here's the excerpt in question:

We are a nation of Christians and Muslims, Jews and Hindus -- and nonbelievers. We are shaped by every language and culture, drawn from every end of this Earth; and because we have tasted the bitter swill of civil war and segregation, and emerged from that dark chapter stronger and more united, we cannot help but believe that the old hatreds shall someday pass; that the lines of tribe shall soon dissolve; that as the world grows smaller, our common humanity shall reveal itself; and that America must play its role in ushering in a new era of peace.

To the Muslim world, we seek a new way forward, based on mutual interest and mutual respect. To those leaders around the globe who seek to sow conflict, or blame their society's ills on the West -- know that your people will judge you on what you can build, not what you destroy. To those who cling to power through corruption and deceit and the silencing of dissent, know that you are on the wrong side of history; but that we will extend a hand if you are willing to unclench your fist.

To the people of poor nations, we pledge to work alongside you to make your farms flourish and let clean waters flow; to nourish starved bodies and feed hungry minds. And to those nations like ours that enjoy relative plenty, we say we can no longer afford indifference to suffering outside our borders; nor can we consume the world's resources without regard to effect. For the world has changed, and we must change with it.


Yes. Yes and yes. And... yes. There's nothing left to be said after this, really. *crosses fingers for the future*
floatingleaf: (hidalgo)
2009-01-17 10:37 pm

back to normal :)

Much warmer today. Light snow, wet and slushy. Never thought I'd call that kind of weather 'nice' - but in comparison to what we had before, it is.:) Went out to check on the car and found I was able to get it out of the parking spot quite easily (must have been the salt I had left under the tires, or perhaps the rise in temperature had softened the snow all by itself). So I decided to do some grocery shopping - just to make sure I have a well-stocked pantry in case it happens again. Went to that cheap farmers' market that sells mostly East European, Italian and Hispanic foods (a rather typical Chicago blend, lol). Quite a bit out of my way, location-wise, but it's sooo worth it. The place is incredibly cheap, really. And they have everything. They had fresh strawberries on sale, two boxes for $3.00!!! In January! *is amazed* They had a frozen seafood mix for $3.50 or something thereabouts. They even had seafood cooking stock, which I'd never seen sold anywhere else. It will go perfectly well with the Moroccan fish tagine I'm making tomorrow (I was planning to use chicken stock instead). I also found all the ingredients for the turkey & hominy chili recipe from my WeightWatchers cookbook. In short, I have enough food for at least another full week, and I didn't spend much more than $50. Including the whole rotisserie chicken I grabbed almost as an afterthought, lol. And a can of German potato salad to go with it. Yum.:D

In other news, I watched a very good movie last night. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (slightly mental)
2009-01-15 09:05 pm

hell's on earth, and it just froze over :(

-10F/-20C today. Had to take public transportation to work, because my car is stuck in the frozen snow yet again. I knew it was stuck as soon as I parked it last night - there was this sudden shift as the tires slid into the groove. And I thought I had picked a relatively safe, even parking spot.:/ Anyway... standing around waiting for a bus/train in such hellish temperatures is NOT FUN. After about five minutes, everything starts to hurt. Your fingers hurt. Your toes hurt. Your face hurts. Your fucking LUNGS hurt as you breathe. After 15 minutes you're almost ready to fall over, and then want to hug the bus driver and thank him for rescuing you from certain death as he arrives.;)

I got home nearly three hours ago, and my toes are still tingling. Started the car (it actually starts!... groaning and wheezing a lot, of course, but man, a 12-year-old car starting in this weather is nothing short of a miracle... lol), poured some salt around the tires and moved back and forth a bit, but I don't hold high hopes for being able to get out of my parking spot tomorrow morning. So... public transportation again. It's supposed to be a bit warmer, though - as in somewhere around 5F/-15C. A hell of an improvement, really. And then almost up to the freezing point over the weekend (we were laughing at work today, saying it's gonna be a heatwave... lol). I wonder if that means I'll be able to get my car out. I'm stocked up on groceries for the time being, but will have to shop at some point next week - and I can't really do any substantial grocery shopping without my car.:(

Anyway... the tingling toes seem to suggest I'm still alive, but my brain feels numb. The two mugs of piping hot tea I had after dinner are making me pleasantly woozy. All I can think of right now is my WARM, comfy bed. I need SLEEEEEP. *yawns*

Wake me up sometime in April, k?... *passes out*
floatingleaf: (lucifer & angel)
2009-01-11 09:53 pm
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the loyal fangirl that I am :)

So, after all that Deine Lakaien gushing and video-spamming I did last night, I'm feeling kinda guilty, because I realize I never posted any videos by Lacrimosa. The thing is, when I first started obsessing about them back in 2006, I wasn't familiar with YouTube and had no clue about sharing either music or video files through LJ - so all I did was post some pics and lyrics. Which probably didn't give anyone a very clear idea of what I was obsessing about (not that I'm assuming anyone cares - but it is nice to pretend someone actually might, so please indulge me here and/or just ignore this post, kthxbai). Anyway... thank heavens for YouTube.:) Here's one of my favorite clips - Not Every Pain Hurts, from the album Stille (1997):



more under the cut )
floatingleaf: (daylight)
2009-01-11 07:47 pm
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I haven't done a quiz in quite some time, have I?...;)

Snagged from [personal profile] taelyn_sass:


Your result for The Pop Culture Archetype Personality Test...

The Monk

Ninja, Monkey, Zombie, Cowboy

Monks are humanitarian prophets and seers with deep convictions about weighty matters and clear insights into good and evil. They are idealistic champions of the oppressed and downtrodden, seeking good things for all (and poetic justice when wrongs are done) without any thoughts of personal glory or power. Fluent in languages and nonverbal communication, their complex characters and depth of personal talent brings them into contact with many. Yet they are not easily fooled, and are suspicious of others motives, being highly selective about the close friends they make. Both empathic and enigmatic, they often withdraw into themselves to focus on abstract theories and think about the inner workings of their minds and emotions. Their desire to share feelings and conclusions with others generally keeps them bonded to at least a few allies, but they prefer to do much of their true thinking quietly, often becoming so absorbed in thought that they ignore physical reality altogether.


Monks are often plagued by Avoidant behavior, feeling intense social discomfort and timidity due to a fear of negative feedback about their actions. Easily hurt by criticism, they turn away from all but a few close friends, and avoid all others unless they are sure of being liked. They avoid social activities and are shy when forced into them, and fear embarrassment if they show emotion or anxiety in front of others. They will go so far as to exaggerate difficulties in performing ordinary activities in order to avoid them, yet yearn for acceptance and attention while avoiding those very things that might bring them what they crave.


Famous monk types include Jimmy Carter, Mother Teresa, Gandhi, Martin Luther King Jr. and Carrie Fisher.


Take The Pop Culture Archetype Personality Test
at HelloQuizzy



The damn thing nailed me, I swear. Well, maybe not so the 'prophet' or 'champion' part... but avoidant behavior? Intense social discomfort? Becoming so absorbed in thought that they ignore physical reality altogether? Oh yeah. Welcome to my world... LOL. *headshake*
floatingleaf: (black hat)
2009-01-11 12:12 am
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I have a new fandom, lol

So, I've been doing some research on that band I mentioned in my previous post - Deine Lakaien. In fact, it's been my main preoccupation for the past few days. Because, as it turns out, they're not quite as obscure as I seemed to think. They're all over the web... lol. And the more I find out about them, the more intrigued I am. To cut a long story short, they're rather difficult to categorize because of all the different influences apparent in their music - I've seen them labelled as anything from folk to goth to synth-pop to darkwave to electronic. None of which quite fits, by the way. more info and videos under the cut )
floatingleaf: (dark)
2009-01-07 07:57 pm

did I start this year on the wrong foot or something?

Guess what? I'm sick again. I've been coming down with a cold since Monday. Tried to ignore it at first, because well, I'd just taken a sickie the previous week for God's sake, and besides, it's never a good idea to start using your sick days right at the beginning of January... but this morning I just couldn't get up. I mean, I dragged myself out of bed at about 7:15, plopped down on the toilet seat and promptly dozed off again. After about twenty minutes of just sitting there with the room spinning lazily around me, I realized there was no chance I'd ever make it to work on time, so I dragged myself back to bed. And slept through most of the day. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (beautiful stranger)
2009-01-03 09:03 pm
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the Dark Lord of United States healthcare system defeats me :(

So, wanna hear something funny? I got my new glasses so that I wouldn't lose the money in my Flexible Spending Account, right? Well, it turns out that the eye exam itself might cost me much more than what I paid for the glasses. Why? Because I did something incredibly stupid. )
floatingleaf: (slightly mental)
2009-01-01 06:07 pm
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revisiting childhood in my senility, or something

Hello and Happy New Year, everyone. I sure had fun last night. Want to know what I was doing? What had me so preoccupied that I barely noticed the stroke of midnight?... Well... I was playing with dolls. No, not my own lost and broken childhood relics, or the stunningly gorgeous and horrifically expensive Japanese ball-joint hotties that I wish I could afford. And not the sex-shop kind either.:P I spent hours entertaining myself, quietly and at no cost whatsoever, with the Candybar Doll Maker. And I didn't even need alcohol to make this fun (though I did have some, just because it seemed stupid NOT to have any on New Year's Eve... lol). Read more... )

So, without further ado, here's a multiracial party parade.:) (I couldn't find a way of changing a doll's skin color, so I didn't make a black or a very dark-skinned doll; but I tried for some variety with facial features and other details instead)

virtual cuties under the cut ;) )
floatingleaf: (halder)
2008-12-30 10:37 pm

eh

Picked up my cool new specs yesterday.:) Not sure they actually look as good on me as they do by themselves, though. When I first tried them on, I thought the rectangular shape flattered my big round face by making it look more narrow somehow... but now they seem almost intimidating with their sharp angles, and I don't feel like the kind of person who should be wearing glasses like that. Or maybe it's just my deeply ingrained resistance to change speaking up.:P

Anyway... here's a pic. )
floatingleaf: (playful)
2008-12-28 12:25 pm
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The Twins strike back :)

Here's the promised treat - my latest A/L + E/E ficlet. Just as silly and naughty as the rest of them.;) Enjoy!

Title: Winter Solstice
Author: Floating Leaf
Pairings: A/L, Elladan/Elrohir
Rating: R (no actual sex, but plenty of dirty talk instead ;)
Summary: Our lovely foursome plans on celebrating Winter Solstice together.:P
Warnings: Twincest, hints of possible group sex (not that I'm saying it will actually happen :D).
Disclaimer: Forgive me, Professor.
Author's Notes: Written as a Christmas gift for Nancy.

“Our first Winter Solstice together”, the elven prince mused, delighting in the serene expression on his lover's face. )
floatingleaf: (christmas elf)
2008-12-27 07:00 pm
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Christmas and all that

The weather is getting crazier by the minute. Last weekend we had snowstorms and Arctic winds, then freezing rain that covered everything in a thin sheet of ice, and now it's (almost) warm rain and distant thunder. Which is, of course, the preferable variety so far - not that it will last. Anyway, the trip downtown last Monday for a holiday dinner with friends was successful - by which I mean to say that no one froze to death, though I'm sure we all felt pretty close to it after just a few minutes spent outside.;) I don't think warm food & hot tea ever felt so blissfully satisfying to me before... lol. Taking a taxi back home instead of the train was really the only option I could handle under the circumstances, extravagant or not. Btw, I did check on my car after I got back, to see if I can open the door (it could have frozen) and if it will start (since I hadn't used it for about three days). It did. The one thing it didn't occur to me to check was whether I can actually get out of my parking spot (some of the tires were deeply imbedded in frozen snow). And so I found the next morning that I couldn't. )
floatingleaf: (mystery man)
2008-12-20 10:55 pm
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humbug, basically

I feel sooo tired. Saw my chiropractor this morning (she said I was just as tense and knotted up as I had been at the time of my first appointment back in October :/). Then went to the post office to pick up the last item for my Santa sack (I ordered most of the gifts online this year, to save time and avoid holiday madness at the stores - only to end up having to stand in long lines at the hellishly crowded local post office, because they always deliver when I'm at work, and for some unfathomable reason online bookstores refuse to send the entire order in one package, so that I would need to collect it only once and be done with it, instead of having to pick up each book separately; how is that 'better service' for me, I'll never understand). Then spent $90 on groceries - even though I went to one of the supposedly 'cheaper' stores and only got essentials (milk, cereal, eggs, yogurts, canned soups, chicken tenders, beans, onions, apples, bananas etc.). Maybe I need to change my definition of 'essentials'.:/ I also drove downtown to see if I could find my way around the area, because I am invited to have dinner with [profile] akashaelfwitch, [profile] jades_tempest and namarie120 (who's in Chicago for the holidays) at a downtown restaurant on Monday night. Unsurprisingly, I gave up on that pretty quickly. Not on the dinner, that is, but on trying to find my way around downtown while driving. It just doesn't seem to be on the list of things I am capable of.:( Screw it. I'm taking the train. Never mind that it's supposed to be around 5F/-15C outside. Which it probably already is at this point. Btw, there's a nice little Arctic blizzard picking up right now. If I don't use my car tomorrow (and I don't suppose anything will make me go outside in this weather) or on Monday (since I'm planning to take the train to work and then straight downtown from there), I might have trouble finding it under the snow on Tuesday morning - let alone digging it out.:[

Yeah. So much for holiday spirit. I thought I had it for a moment there, but it's gone. Can I just go to sleep and wake up sometime in the spring, perhaps?... With sunshine and flowers and enough money in the bank so I don't have to compare the prizes of canned foods?... Not really?... Oh well. Figured as much.:|

ETA: The nice little Arctic blizzard has been raging all night, and is still very much in force as of next morning. My windows are rattling, and I feel chilly despite the fact that the radiators are too hot to touch. And it's only the FIRST official day of winter in sweet home Chicago. *swallows a nasty curse*
floatingleaf: (gorgeous)
2008-12-18 09:55 pm
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(no subject)

Went to an optometrist today. Only because I have this Flexible Spending Account with $250 in it that has to be used by the end of the year (otherwise I lose it, and it's tax-free money taken from my paycheck, so letting it go would be stupid). And it only covers dental and vision expenses. When I set it up at the end of last year, I thought it would cover any kind of medical expenses - but that's because I was pretty confused about all the different insurance plans, and somehow didn't catch on to the fact that if you pick the high deductible plan with a Health Savings Account, then your Flexible Spending will only be good for dental or vision. So I was rather unpleasantly surprised when it didn't cover my chiropractic visits. See, the US healthcare system is like black magic to me at times... lol. Anyway... since my teeth seem perfectly fine for now (*knocks on wood*), and I've been wearing the same old pair of glasses for about 7 years, I decided that new frames were the sensible choice. I'm getting new lenses too, but the frames are really the hit - they look very modern and stylish.:) Plus, the doctor's assistant (a very attractive young woman) told me I had beautiful, perfectly shaped eyes, which made me feel unreasonably good.;P

In other news, there is supposed to be a severe snowstorm tonight/tomorrow morning over the entire northern Illinois area, including the northwest Chicago suburbs. No sight of it as yet, but we were actually told that if the snowfall is indeed as heavy as the weather forecasts suggest, our office might be closed tomorrow. And if it isn't closed (we're supposed to call our main line first thing in the morning to confirm), then everyone is encouraged to take public transportation to work instead of driving, if possible. I can do it, but it's going to suck, because I have to take a bus, a train and then another bus. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the closing.:P

ETA: Of course we weren't closed. We're never closed.:( But the snowfall wasn't too heavy, mostly just wet slush that melted away pretty quickly. And our office services manager had a few giant pizzas ordered for all the heroic employees who braved the nasty weather on a Friday morning to get to work.:) I don't think I've ever eaten that much pizza in one day. Serious cheese overload. *headshake* There's nothing like some unhealthy food to put you in the holiday spirit, is there?...;)
floatingleaf: (light)
2008-12-17 10:15 pm
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musing on priorities

So last Friday was the company-wide annual holiday lunch at a luxurious restaurant, with a gift lottery, after which we were dismissed for the rest of the afternoon. And today was another holiday lunch at the office, just for the operations department (about 20 people in all), with food ordered in and more games and prizes afterwards. And we were also (more unexpectedly this time) dismissed for the rest of the day. Even though everyone will still put down "8 hours worked" on their timesheet.

See, this is why I don't want to change my job. )
floatingleaf: (green eyes)
2008-12-13 10:03 pm

blah blah etc.

This morning the scale showed 132 lbs. Which means I've lost over two pounds since last weekend. I wonder if it's because I've been angsting so much... lol.

It also means I have almost reached my 'ideal' weight, which is 131. Funny that, since I could swear there is still plenty of absolutely superfluous flab around my belly & thighs. But maybe the flab is so soft it's actually weightless, lol. No firm & toned flesh to be found anywhere on my person, I'm afraid.:P And at 37, healthy weight is no longer enough for the body to keep a proper shape. Unless you work out a lot (which I have neither the time nor the energy for), gravity wins.:/

I do work out, for the record - about 2-3 times a week, on average. 20-30 minutes at a time. Mostly to relax and stretch out the stiff and tired muscles of my back & shoulders, which would be giving me hell otherwise. My neck gives me hell anyway, and it's gotten worse again since I last saw my chiropractor. I know it's mainly the cold weather that's making me tense up and lift my shoulders unconsciously most of the time. I could use more frequent chiropractic appointments, but since I have a high deductible medical plan (which, ironically, I picked because it took the least out of my paycheck), I'm just going to grit my teeth and suffer in silence.:/ Btw, I signed up for an HMO for next year - we'll see how that turns out. And yes, I realize it will lower the paycheck a bit - unless I cut down my 401K contributions (which are only 3% at the moment, so there isn't much cutting I can do). It sucks, but the high deductible plan was seriously kicking me in the pocket and I don't think I can handle that anymore. *sigh*

Why does real life have to be such a pain in the ass? I feel like I am becoming this boring, whinging, grumpy old hag who only talks about disgustingly mundane, petty things. I can barely put up with myself sometimes - why would anyone else?... *headshake*
floatingleaf: (pensive orli)
2008-12-12 09:07 pm
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another mundane ramble

We had our annual holiday lunch at work today, after which they let us go home early - so I used that opportunity to get my new driver's license (otherwise I would need to take time off work to do this). I had my car title with me, but no one even asked me about it - they just wanted proof of name change. So I guess it's not necessary to get the title changed as well, after all (and if it's not necessary, I'm certainly not doing it, because it would involve an extra fee). Anyway... I have this brand new shiny license with a new name and a new photo now.:) The photo looks better than the previous one, which showed a fat face with a double chin (it was taken before Weight Watchers, lol) - but guess what? It shows a big, red, nasty cold sore on my lip instead.:( And I don't even get cold sores anymore. Not since I started actually drinking plain water on a daily basis, as opposed to only sweetened and/or caffeinated beverages (which does improve the skin considerably, among other things). Seriously, I haven't had a cold sore in months - so it figures I would get one now, just when I need to have a photo taken.:/ But what can you do - it's been very cold, dry and crispy this week, and my lips keep cracking even though I apply chapstick every five minutes or so. *sigh*

In other news, last night I went to another cheap grocery store that a coworker told me about, and got a solid supply of food for less than fifty bucks. Not sure how long exactly it will last me, but I bought ingredients for three different recipes - and usually every time I cook I make at least 3/4 servings (= meals), sometimes more. So it is technically possible to feed a single stomach on $200 a month.:) That makes me feel hopeful. )
floatingleaf: (angsty)
2008-12-10 10:33 pm
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reality check :|

I have a pathetically shameful and a little scary confession to make today. Supposedly I am this mature, clever, organized, responsible and down-to-earth person, right? And yet somehow I managed, for the past two years, to simply ignore the fact that my living expenses are actually HIGHER than my salary. The reason I was physically able to ignore it is because I had savings. Notice the past tense here?... Yep. I somehow managed to bring the contents of my checking account quite a few thousand bucks down while working a full-time job, and never really stop to think about what that means until now. But as of this week, it's finally dawning on me that if my account balance keeps dropping at the current rate, very soon there will be nothing left to fall back on when the paycheck isn't enough.

How did this all happen? Well, it's a long story, I suppose. )
floatingleaf: (scruffy smile)
2008-12-09 07:00 pm
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because wasting time is my hobby ;)

Snagged from [profile] willys_digs:



What Your Cute Monster Says About You



You are a deep, thoughtful, down to earth person. You don't put much stock in appearances.

You are never superficial or flippant. You take time in life to study, learn, and get to know people well.



You inner demon is laziness. You can get so caught up in your own world that you neglect everything around you.

People think you're cute because you're intelligent. Your wit and wisdom are charming.



OH YEAH (on the laziness part, lol). The rest of it is more or less true as well.;)