Floating Leaf

Back after watching Zeitgeist: Addendum. I was very afraid to see this because of the effect the first part had on me... and yet, nothing could have prepared me for the intensity of my emotional response this time. Let me just say I haven't cried so hard in years (not since my last breakup, probably). Because of all the hurt and anger and disbelief and the blinding realization that all my instinctive mistrust of financial institutions and organized religion and the supposed 'natural' aggressiveness/competitive tendencies of the human race was in fact very well founded, and that a better world, which I imagined to be but a wishful fantasy, is in fact possible, but deliberately RESISTED by a relatively small group of those who profit from the status quo. Call me a conspiracy theory convert, if you please, but about 95% of what that movie says is what I have always instinctively known to be true, even if I didn't have 5% of the eloquence or facts needed to prove it. Society without money? Technology without pollution or destruction of natural resources? Spirituality without sin, fear or guilt? There are so many people who believe it can happen, and no one told me until now?... Or maybe I never noticed, because I was too busy trying to escape the 'fake' reality that keeps us - the mindless masses - in check. Well... I know now. Even though I won't live long enough to see any significant positive change - if it ever happens. The Age of Aquarius doesn't officially start until around 2150, anyway...;)

(If you want to know what I'm rambling about, watch the movie - it's available online for free; otherwise just ignore me and go about your daily business, kthxbai. I'm not an activist by nature and I won't ever preach or try to 'convert' anyone - I'm just sharing my thoughts. Take it or leave it. No offense meant to anyone of any particular religious or political persuasion.;) Good night.)

Happy St. Patrick's Day, flist.

I'm not feeling particularly bright or green right now, actually, but I have promised myself to at least try to post tonight, so here goes.

( Life lately is just so... blah, I guess. )

In other unrelated news, I watched Zeitgeist last weekend. Or the first part of it, anyway. It was recommended to me by a coworker, who sent me the link to the website:

http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com

It didn't surprise me all that much (I had seen Loose Change before, on the recommendation of the same coworker), but it certainly depressed me - more than I'd like to admit, I suppose. Because it makes way too much perfect sense to be dismissed as leftist propaganda. I feel like I finally connected the dots that were there in front of me all along - and in this case, it's not a good feeling. Because the picture that emerges is way too much to handle. And I feel duped and powerless and so outraged and yet so pointless, insignificant and weak. This is what reality does to me. I can't handle it. Please give me back my pink, pretty bubble. It's not like I can change anything. I can only lose my sleep over it, or have nightmares. Or feel ashamed to be a human being, because human beings are the most heartless, evil creatures on earth. Which is why they have to invent mythical dark forces - to cover up their own bottomless darkness. And it's not like I didn't know this already - it's just that I've tried very hard to avoid dwelling too much on it. And this film forced me to open my eyes right into the harsh sunlight, so to speak.

I could ramble on, but I do want my 6+ hours of sleep, so it's time to go. Sorry for being such a downer tonight. So inappropriate for the occasion. Blame it on my coworkers, though. Some of them think too much, instead of just mindlessly dragging their feet under the yoke like everyone else.:P

Snagged from gairid:

The Blogalyser reveals...

Your blog/web page text has an overall readability index of 14.

This suggests that your writing style is conventional
(to communicate well you should aim for a figure between 10 and 20).Your blog has 24 sentences per entry, which suggests your general message is distinguished by verbosity
(writing for the web should be concise).

CHARACTER MATRIX

male		female
self		world
past		future

Your text shows characteristics which are 53% male and 47% female
(for more information see the Gender Genie).
Looking at pronoun indicators, you write mainly about yourself, then the world in general and finally your social circle. Also, your writing focuses primarily on the present, next the past and lastly the future.

Find out what your blogging style is like!

Verbosity, hmmm?... Now, if I could spend as much time posting as I want to and never can, you'd see verbosity.:D
As for the predominantly male characteristics of my text, I really don't know what to think about that.;) Must be the slash fic with all the male pronouns, I suppose.:P

( mundane blabber under the cut )

Snagged from gairid:

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Top Commenters on floatingleaf's LiveJournal
(Self comments excluded from rankings)

1	romi	170
2	oceansecrets2	127
3	stormatdusk	114
4	taelyn_sass	61
5	Anonymous	49
6	mellacita	38
7	niennas_dreams	38
8	akashaelfwitch	35
9	slesia	34
10	gairid	33

( 11-77 )
Total Commenters: 78 (1 not shown)
Total Comments: 1929
Report generated 3/1/2009 8:25:48 PM by scrapdog's LJ Comment Stats Wizard 1.7

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I couldn't resist. Even though I knew seeing the top of this list would make me a little sad, for reasons obvious to those who know what I'm talking about.;) Here it is, in plain view - how few people have been a constant presence in this journal, and how vital it seems that they all stay in my life, regardless of how far apart they may be standing from each other. When you look at how few comments I get, in comparison to most other LJ-ers, you may be able to understand why I don't defriend people on a whim. Because those who actually care to be here are way too precious to not at least make an effort to step into their shoes and put their glasses on before I try to judge their actions. Which is an effort I have never ever regretted making, by the way. *nods*

*steps off soapbox*

Just a few remarks regarding the accuracy of this tally: niennas_dreams and dissonant_dream are actually one and the same person, so she should be higher on the list.:) ptychu and "Anonymous" are also the same person (the anonymous comments date from before I talked her into opening an LJ account ;). And the same goes for akashaelfwitch and aelfwitchfic, obviously. So the number of people who left comments here is actually lower than 77 - even though I'm rather pleased that it came up with such a perfect lucky score.;) *is superstitious*

Will definitely shut up now and go back to the regularly scheduled porn.:P

Snagged from taelyn_sass:

Your result for The New Greek Goddess Archetype Test...

You are Hestia!

The Goddess of Home and Hearth

Take The New Greek Goddess Archetype Test at HelloQuizzy

Well... yeah. With an annotation that I seem to have my own brand of spirituality, mostly unrelated to any popular religious ideologies, and that I am warm and welcoming only when I feel like it (unexpected visitors are not received with open arms, that's for sure).:P

So, I've been traipsing around YouTube again, and found this fanvid, which is a perfect introduction to Lacrimosa, in case you don't know what they're all about. I'm posting it here for my own future enjoyment, because I love some of the images - so no need to feel obligated to watch just to please me. Not that I suppose anyone would anyway.:P



YES. That's what I call a perfect match of sound and image. With most bands or singers, one often falls short of the other - with Lacrimosa, everything blends seamlessly to create one magnificent alternate universe. And it just hits all my fangirly buttons.

Heavens, I am such a goth at heart. *headshake*

Snagged from gairid:

Dear friends,

Please describe me in one word... just one single word. Positive or negative.

Leave your word in a comment before looking at what words others have used.

Then, if you like, copy and paste this to your journal to find out how people will describe you when limited to one word.

Not that I'm expecting a whole lot of responses, but this is such a cool meme I just couldn't resist.:)

Snagged from stormatdusk:

Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...

NBPC - The Daydreamer

Nature, Background, Big Picture, and Color

Take The Perception Personality Image Test at HelloQuizzy

Gorgeous pic... so calming, and yet energizing at the same time. It totally represents beauty and happiness to me. Maybe not necessarily the way I am, but the way I would love to be, or to feel at all times. Calm and bright and surrounded by beauty. Alert and optimistic, not tense and anxious and despondent - the way I've been feeling for the past few weeks. I try to hold myself together, to take it day by day, but sometimes I am just plain scared of what the future will bring.

When I close my eyes at night, I want to see trees and water, not dancing numbers and dollar signs that translate into bills and groceries and a bank account with a negative ratio of income against expenses.

Whoever invented money should go to hell.

This is what happened last night on my street, two houses down from where I live:

http://abclocal.go.com/wls/story?section=news/local&id=6634500&rss=rss-wls-article-6634500

My building is just outside the picture to the right - actually, you can see it briefly if you watch the video. It's the bigger yellow building behind the three identical red ones. My front windows look out on the backs of those other buildings, and I could see part of the scene after the commotion outside woke me up. ( Read more... )

Just a quick one tonight. I did mention planning to explore a certain German band that plays medieval music in modern arrangements, right? Well, here it is. It's called Qntal. And it's absolutely magical. I am transported to a beautiful place. Take a look at it if you are so inclined.:)