Thank you so much for taking the time to comment so extensively on my troubles. You are a dear. And yes, the whole thing made me very uncomfortable too.
I'm not sure I grasp the difference between "professional" and "personal" references, and whether someone you worked for can be a personal reference if their company policy keeps them from becoming a professional one. And to be honest, I don't think I'm up to making those calls anyway...
As for parents... yes, you are probably right that they would sense something. And I hate to lie, even to strangers. It's just that my mother and her penchant for high drama makes me incredibly nervous about admitting to any troubles. Believe me or not, but the way she reacts to news like that actually makes it worse. I never really meant to hide it forever - but the longer she remains blissfully oblivious that there is anything wrong, the less sleepless nights she has and the longer I only have to worry about the problem itself, not about the fact that SHE is so horribly worried, you know?...
If could actually pull it off, I'd much rather tell her about the whole thing AFTER I get hired again. "You know, mom, my last job didn't work out, so I found another one." That way she'd be impressed with my resourcefulness (is that a word?...), instead of wringing her hands helplessly over that miserable failure of a daughter she has (you might think I'm exaggerating here - and I probably am - but that's the vibe I've been getting from her since early childhood, no matter what she says to the contrary, so.....). But I will probably cave in and spill it out anyway... *weary sigh*
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Date: 2006-09-30 03:42 pm (UTC)I'm not sure I grasp the difference between "professional" and "personal" references, and whether someone you worked for can be a personal reference if their company policy keeps them from becoming a professional one. And to be honest, I don't think I'm up to making those calls anyway...
As for parents... yes, you are probably right that they would sense something. And I hate to lie, even to strangers. It's just that my mother and her penchant for high drama makes me incredibly nervous about admitting to any troubles. Believe me or not, but the way she reacts to news like that actually makes it worse. I never really meant to hide it forever - but the longer she remains blissfully oblivious that there is anything wrong, the less sleepless nights she has and the longer I only have to worry about the problem itself, not about the fact that SHE is so horribly worried, you know?...
If could actually pull it off, I'd much rather tell her about the whole thing AFTER I get hired again. "You know, mom, my last job didn't work out, so I found another one." That way she'd be impressed with my resourcefulness (is that a word?...), instead of wringing her hands helplessly over that miserable failure of a daughter she has (you might think I'm exaggerating here - and I probably am - but that's the vibe I've been getting from her since early childhood, no matter what she says to the contrary, so.....). But I will probably cave in and spill it out anyway... *weary sigh*
Thanks for your kind support again! *hugs*