you might want to give her a call on Monday and say you took the weekend to consider it, but you couldn't feel comfortable asking your former employers to disregard their company policy. They may appreciate your integrity!
But I DID tell her I was going to do it, even though I knew I was lying through my teeth. And I know that not wanting someone to disregard their company policy was not the true reason. I just chickened out, as I way too often do (which is also why I couldn't tell her NO up front). I'm just the kind of person who meekly says "yes" to everyone, then takes the cowardly way out by putting her head in the sand. How's that for integrity, huh? (can you tell I'm feeling extremely cynical today?...:/)
they may surprise you with their support
It's not that I think my parents won't be supportive. It's my mother's way of being supportive that scares the hell out of me... lol. She has a very peculiar idea of me in her head that has surprisingly little to do with the way I (or anyone else, for that matter) see myself as a person. Believe me, I'd much rather handle this on my own than have her try to help me. *shudder* But I somehow survived it last winter, so I probably will survive it again... *weary sigh*
Sorry for sounding so jaded... but this is how I feel, and here of all places I'm not going to pretend or fake anything. I'll let my LJ friends see the dark side... Hopefully not everyone will run away.;) *hugs*
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Date: 2006-09-30 04:37 pm (UTC)But I DID tell her I was going to do it, even though I knew I was lying through my teeth. And I know that not wanting someone to disregard their company policy was not the true reason. I just chickened out, as I way too often do (which is also why I couldn't tell her NO up front). I'm just the kind of person who meekly says "yes" to everyone, then takes the cowardly way out by putting her head in the sand. How's that for integrity, huh? (can you tell I'm feeling extremely cynical today?...:/)
they may surprise you with their support
It's not that I think my parents won't be supportive. It's my mother's way of being supportive that scares the hell out of me... lol. She has a very peculiar idea of me in her head that has surprisingly little to do with the way I (or anyone else, for that matter) see myself as a person. Believe me, I'd much rather handle this on my own than have her try to help me. *shudder* But I somehow survived it last winter, so I probably will survive it again... *weary sigh*
Sorry for sounding so jaded... but this is how I feel, and here of all places I'm not going to pretend or fake anything. I'll let my LJ friends see the dark side... Hopefully not everyone will run away.;) *hugs*