Indeed, life does go on, My Leaf, but remember that a lot of what you feel, and even of what happens, depends on your attitude. It might sound silly, but I do believe that our mindset has a huge influence on our daily experiences, on what we let happen to us (both in terms of positive and negative things).
Just a quick check-in to let anyone who might care know that I'm alive and relatively well. May I state now, loud and clear, that I do care and that I wish there were a way in which I could make you feel hugged and loved!!
I don't know whether something happened (at the weekend? the meeting you were looking forward to so much?) or whether you just feel low, but I would like to remind you that you're not alone (*she says after having disappeared for several days*, but you know I'm always there ;)). I'm happy that you could spend some time with Akasha and have some fun!!
For your parents, if I may express my opinion, I think your sister is right in saying that you're old (I'd rather say mature) enough to lead you life, but I think this means that you're strong enough to be true to yourself.
I know you hate lies and hiding things (how I understand you!) and the fact that you don't feel happy with hiding stuff brings you to the point that you don't want to get in touch with your parents. They could get upset and start preaching, so what? A few hours ago, I posted on my LJ the poem Ode to a Grecian Urn by Keats, the one that says "truth is beauty and beauty is truth".
You might have to hear that they are unhappy and they might even suggest that what happened with the old job was, in some ways, a "failure" on your part (Leaf, you know very well that it was not and don't let anyone bring you to think otherwise!!); you might find out, at some point, that this job is not the answer and you might have to tell them, well, these things happen. You can cope with the events in your life and you can cope with your parents' reaction. The most important thing is that you can always look into yourself and feel right.
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Date: 2006-11-23 02:12 pm (UTC)Just a quick check-in to let anyone who might care know that I'm alive and relatively well. May I state now, loud and clear, that I do care and that I wish there were a way in which I could make you feel hugged and loved!!
I don't know whether something happened (at the weekend? the meeting you were looking forward to so much?) or whether you just feel low, but I would like to remind you that you're not alone (*she says after having disappeared for several days*, but you know I'm always there ;)). I'm happy that you could spend some time with Akasha and have some fun!!
For your parents, if I may express my opinion, I think your sister is right in saying that you're old (I'd rather say mature) enough to lead you life, but I think this means that you're strong enough to be true to yourself.
I know you hate lies and hiding things (how I understand you!) and the fact that you don't feel happy with hiding stuff brings you to the point that you don't want to get in touch with your parents. They could get upset and start preaching, so what? A few hours ago, I posted on my LJ the poem Ode to a Grecian Urn by Keats, the one that says "truth is beauty and beauty is truth".
You might have to hear that they are unhappy and they might even suggest that what happened with the old job was, in some ways, a "failure" on your part (Leaf, you know very well that it was not and don't let anyone bring you to think otherwise!!); you might find out, at some point, that this job is not the answer and you might have to tell them, well, these things happen. You can cope with the events in your life and you can cope with your parents' reaction. The most important thing is that you can always look into yourself and feel right.
Trust yourself, just try.
Love,
xxxxxxxS.