more job-related angst than I have ever spouted in one sitting

I wasn't planning on posting today... but something happened, and it shook me up so badly that I'm afraid the only thing I can actually focus on right now is writing about it. So here goes:

I just learned the hard way that my current job is definitely not for me. Apparently, I am causing a serious problem for the whole department, because of not catching up fast enough. According to my boss, by now I should have been doing much better, while in fact my production rate has slowed down since I started. The funny thing is I was completely unaware of that until she told me - I thought I was actually getting the hang of everything and doing just fine. And I probably would be, if it wasn't a so-called "fast-paced environment". Because there is nothing complicated about the job itself. There's just the fact that if I'm going to meet the requirements, I would have to do it about three times faster than I am right now. And I honestly don't think that's possible. ( Read more... )