I win :P

So. Guess what. Went to see my parents yesterday, but didn't tell them anything. Why? Because they didn't really ask. And because they were far too cheerful and happy to see me to actually make it humanly possible for me to spoil the mood. My mother kept chattering away on a variety of topics, and I kept asking questions to keep her going and divert her attention from my humble self (heh; I was never so avidly interested in her garden crops, the progress of her favorite soap operas or the grotesquely sad and confusing political situation in Poland...;P). She did ask, fleetingly, "Anything new on the job?"; but I barely had time to shake my head before she was off on her next tangent. If she had paused, sensed anything, looked concerned or suspicious, I would have blurted the truth; but as it was, it would be simply asking for trouble where there was none. I think it just doesn't occur to either of them that I might have any work-related problems, because I was hired so recently and seemed so happy about it at the beginning. So I let them keep that notion... for now, anyway. In other words, I have just "bought" myself at least two more weeks, during which a lot might happen. And if I feel compelled to tell them during my next visit, I will say that the whole thing only just happened - so that the job-searching period would ultimately seem shorter from their perspective. It's not exactly lying - it's stretching the truth to fit my hidden agenda of keeping everyone involved as happy as possible.:P I honestly don't see how their knowledge of the situation at this point would be of help to either me or them - quite the opposite, in fact.

I know it sounds like I'm trying to justify myself here - but it's more an explanation, for the benefit of the few kind people who commented on the previous post, advising me to be open and honest about the whole thing. I still appreciate those comments; but I also believe that if those kind people had known my mother personally and had any idea of how she reacts to stress and worry, they might have advised differently. Anyway... enough said on the subject.

My favorite recruiter (the one who got me the previous temp job) called me today about a very low-paid ($10 per hour) and short-termed (three weeks) opportunity that she knew wasn't what I'm looking for, but thought she'd tell me anyway - just in case I badly needed the money right now. I said no thanks - luckily I can afford to wait a little longer for something more permanent - but the fact that she made the call anyway reassured me again of how reliable she is, and that if things were bad, she would always find SOMETHING for me. She is actually the only person who sent me on any job interviews back in February/March - out of all the employment agencies I kept in touch with. And I have a gut feeling that no matter where else I look, she will be the one who sends me to work again. Still, I keep flipping through the ads; more to be able to tell myself that I'm actually doing something than for any other reason. But I'm definitely not as nervous about it as I was last winter. The only thing that would make me really nervous would be my mother monitoring my progress and angsting over every day I spend without actually EARNING INCOME. So yeah... now we're back to the beginning of this post, the circle is complete, and I shall hereby excuse myself to watch my latest Blockbuster Online movie.:D