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I thought I had things to say today - positive things, even - but somehow they just seem totally pointless and irrelevant. And fake. Because whatever I said, it would be just pretending that everything is fine again. And it isn't.

I can't let go of LJ, because I generally find it hard to let go of things I have become accustomed to - but it's not the blessed, joyful place it used to be for me. Now it's more like that phase of drug addiction where you take them because you know you need to, but it's not any fun anymore.

Not that I really know what I'm talking about. Luckily for me, I guess.

Again, I think I'd better shut up.

Maybe I need a life or something.:|