Mar. 20th, 2009

floatingleaf: (intense)
Snagged from [profile] willys_digs:

You Are A Thoughtful Idealist
You are a bit tentative when it comes to new experiences. You have to push yourself to try new things, but once you do, you love the adventure.

You like to think that people see you as intellectual and wise. You consider yourself to be very smart.

You are a very romantic person. You can't help but see the world as it should be.

Right now, you feel very trapped in your life. You often feel like there is no way out of your rut.

Overall, your life is very peaceful - if not a little solitary. Much of what goes on goes on in your head.

You aren't optimistic about the future. You worry about what will happen to the world and if we'll be able to clean up the messes we've made.


'A LITTLE' solitary?... buahahahh. The last time I met up with someone outside of work or family was... let me think... December, probably. And the last time I actually talked to a friend on the phone (as opposed to emailing them) was at least two weeks ago. That's kinda scary, when you stop to think about it. *ponders*

Also, I was supposed to be working overtime tomorrow, but I'm not. As of this morning, it suddenly turned out that my help is not needed. Which means I can chill out and get all the sleep I could possibly want... but I admit I was kinda looking forward to the higher paycheck. *sigh* I mean, if you've been asked at least two weeks in advance if you can put in so many hours of overtime, and you've been gearing yourself up for it, so to speak, and then at the last minute they tell you to forget it, that's a bit anticlimactic, isn't it? :| Btw, I didn't schedule an appointment with my chiropractor for tomorrow morning, because if I had, I wouldn't be able to put in as many hours (we can only stay in the office till 3 p.m. on Saturdays) - and now I really wish I had, because I hurt.:/

I will stop whinging now, though. I need to sink into my lovely papasan chair with a heating pad and put on a movie or something - because more sitting up and typing after full five days of sitting up and typing certainly doesn't help. *rueful headshake*
floatingleaf: (sacrilege)
Back after watching Zeitgeist: Addendum. I was very afraid to see this because of the effect the first part had on me... and yet, nothing could have prepared me for the intensity of my emotional response this time. Let me just say I haven't cried so hard in years (not since my last breakup, probably). Because of all the hurt and anger and disbelief and the blinding realization that all my instinctive mistrust of financial institutions and organized religion and the supposed 'natural' aggressiveness/competitive tendencies of the human race was in fact very well founded, and that a better world, which I imagined to be but a wishful fantasy, is in fact possible, but deliberately RESISTED by a relatively small group of those who profit from the status quo. Call me a conspiracy theory convert, if you please, but about 95% of what that movie says is what I have always instinctively known to be true, even if I didn't have 5% of the eloquence or facts needed to prove it. Society without money? Technology without pollution or destruction of natural resources? Spirituality without sin, fear or guilt? There are so many people who believe it can happen, and no one told me until now?... Or maybe I never noticed, because I was too busy trying to escape the 'fake' reality that keeps us - the mindless masses - in check. Well... I know now. Even though I won't live long enough to see any significant positive change - if it ever happens. The Age of Aquarius doesn't officially start until around 2150, anyway...;)

(If you want to know what I'm rambling about, watch the movie - it's available online for free; otherwise just ignore me and go about your daily business, kthxbai. I'm not an activist by nature and I won't ever preach or try to 'convert' anyone - I'm just sharing my thoughts. Take it or leave it. No offense meant to anyone of any particular religious or political persuasion.;) Good night.)
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