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Another week passed in a blur. Yes, I did receive another list of people to contact, and I did make more calls; some from home in the morning, and some from the office late in the day, after most of my coworkers had left (this time my list included a few papers from Western US, in the Pacific time zone, which is two hours behind Chicago - so calling them early in the morning really wasn't an option). One guy left me a voicemail asking to call him back regarding the email I'd sent him - and I did. This was early afternoon, but luckily the three people sitting closest to me had left their desks at almost the same time; I took that as a sign that I should call now, lol. I was nervous, of course, but not nearly as much as I would have been a few weeks earlier, I think. It is always a little easier for me to talk to someone who has left me a message first - especially if their voice sounds pleasant/friendly and I can understand every word they're saying - than to call a complete stranger. But regardless - I think I am making progress here. Slow and painful, but progress nonetheless. The main thing is, I am no longer afraid of this project. I still find it draining, bothersome and annoying - but I am not likely to have nightmares about it anymore. So maybe I should thank my boss for forcing me to face my limitations. Btw, I have very good results (over 90%, which was the goal), and it looks like we are done for now. I am so relieved I feel almost dizzy, lol. I just don't have the energy to worry about anything else at this point. All I want to do this weekend is sleep in, read fiction, watch a good film etc.

I haven't had much energy for commenting either - it was as if my brain kept shutting down every evening around 8-9 p.m. or so. I could read, but had no capacity for formulating thoughts etc. And writing emails was way too much work.:/ Btw, two good old friends emailed me this week, worried by my prolonged silence.:( I mean, I am usually the one pestering people about not writing to me often enough. I must have been really mentally preoccupied to let this happen. *sigh*

Anyway... I think I'll turn in now. Let me just wrap it up with some massive, heartfelt ***HUGS*** for stormatdusk. She will know why. <3333333