grumble grumble

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I feel very strange. My body has been acting in a most frustrating manner since yesterday morning, and I can't help but wonder what the reason might be. Like I mentioned, my period started early - but it also feels very reluctant to actually get on with the program, so to speak. There is hardly any bleeding at this point - but the usual headache and overall tension are nearly unbearable, and have been that way since last night. Normally, after several hours of such torment the floodgates are finally released and I become very weak and sleepy, but also completely calm and ready to just rest comfortably until my strength returns. This time, I spent well over 12 hours in bed just because of the skull-splitting headache... but I am still tense and antsy, as though the whole thing hasn't even started yet. *grits teeth* I wonder if it's because of the unusually high-calorie diet I've been on for the past two weeks or so. I really hope that is the case, because that means it will get better as I go back to my normal, healthier eating habits. But I don't really know. It could be just because I'm getting older, and menstruation is about to become even more of a curse to my body for however many years before it finally stops.:/ Or it could be the weather, which is extremely windy and unsettling at the moment, with the temperature about to drop sharply overnight. Or it could be the little bit of wine I had yesterday - just one tiny, 187-ml bottle of White Zinfandel, because it felt somehow wrong not to have ANY alcohol at all on New Year's Eve.:/ Besides, I had hoped that the wine would make me drowsy and dull the headache, and help me sleep better (alcohol usually does make me sleepy). And sleep I did - but the headache, if anything, only got worse by this morning. Now, after some painkillers, it has subsided a bit, but I can still feel it simmering in the background. It feels, oddly, like a hangover - and I didn't even get drunk.:/ It seems that I am done with alcohol - at least while I'm PMS-ing. *grumbles* I am also done with sugary cakes, greasy meats and all other poisonous crap that seems to connote "celebration" in most people's minds. I need to get all that unhealthy balast out of my system. My body doesn't need or even like it, in the long run, and I think it's trying to tell me as much. If only I would listen... *sigh*

In a way, I guess I should be glad that this happened during a holiday weekend, because that means I will not need to call in sick to work during the first week of January (which is always awkward). But I had hoped to actually enjoy myself a bit this weekend, not just endure it.:/ And I had planned to go see A Dangerous Method in a theater tomorrow, with akashaelfwitch and jades_tempest. Granted, I had already seen it at the festival, in October, so I don't absolutely HAVE to go again now - I can wait for the DVD. But Akasha hasn't seen it, and I was the one who offered to go with her, and now I feel stupid, because at this point it doesn't seem like I will be in good enough shape to go anywhere tomorrow. And on Tuesday it's back to work.:/

Well... at least I did some cooking yesterday, before the headache got the better of me. So my work lunches for next week are more or less taken care of. And I did laundry on Friday. Yay me. Now I can spend the rest of the holiday weekend in bed, grumbling and groaning like a proper ailing old woman... *scowls*

Oh, and while I'm in a grumbling mode, let me also remark on the fact that I won't be getting that new phone I had mentioned a few posts back. I received a negative response by mail. Thank you for your interest, blah blah blah, but we are unable to process your request at this time. As to why, they are referring me to the credit reporting agency Equifax. I should have expected this... but still it pisses me off. I mean, it's been three years since I changed my name, and apparently my "new identity" is still not being recognized by the credit bureaus.:/ You'd think they'd go by the Social Security Number, which obviously hasn't changed; and besides, it's not like I invented a completely new name out of the blue. It was merely a spelling adjustment. And yet, they seem to think I am somehow a completely new person without any credit history.:/ I know my one and only credit card is still in the old name; but I tried to get it changed, several times, to no avail. I sent them a copy of the court document proving my name change in the mail, enclosed with one of my bills; they ignored it. I edited my account information online; and still, I keep receiving the bills in the old name. I guess I will have to call them before my current card expires. Not that I know if it will actually change anything. Even updating your personal info on utility bills seems more difficult than it should be; you can go on the website and change your address, for example, but not your name. So, technically, there is no record of the person bearing my current name paying any bills or anything. Which is probably contributing to the problem. I'm afraid I will have to call every single company I have any dealings with (possibly more than once) before this matter is finally resolved. And those of you who've been following this journal for a while longer know how much I abhor phone calls. I only do them if there is absolutely no other way of getting something accomplished - and even then, only if said something is really urgent or vital. Otherwise, I procrastinate. Once I spent TWO WEEKS without internet, mostly because I dreaded calling customer service to fix my connection. And that should tell you something.:/

Anyway... I'm just feeling crappy, and I needed to vent. If anyone actually got to this point in the story, I apologize for your wasted time.;) I'd better shut up now and attempt to relax... *humorless smirk*