is that what a midlife crisis feels like?...:|

[floatingleaf]

Where does the time go? How come it's been a week since my latest post? Why does it feel like I can't keep up with life anymore, even though nothing out of the ordinary has been going on?...

To be honest, I guess I've always felt this way - but recently it's getting worse. This past weekend just flew by like a rocket, and I barely managed to take care of some incredibly boring mundane stuff. I'm afraid I might never say anything vaguely interesting in this journal again - not because there aren't tons of fascinating topics I could talk about, but because I will never find the time to go beyond "Hey, I'm still here, another week has passed, nothing momentous happened, but I was busy with the daily grind." That would pretty much cancel the purpose of this journal to me, because I'm not interested in keeping a Facebook account.:P Or a goddamn Twitter... LOL. I like the LJ format precisely because it allows you to write long, rambling posts - except you need to actually have the time and energy to do that. Otherwise you might just as well shut up and only lurk silently in the background, reading other people's entries. I am usually annoyed by LJ-ers who only pop in about once a month to say: "Hey, I'm still here, see you later!" - but what if it's either that or nothing?... Is it worth the effort?...

I don't know. It just feels grossly unfair, somehow. Life is fleeting, and so much of it has to be spent doing such trivial stuff (like work, for example :P). There is a whole lot of something missing from this picture, but I don't seem to have the time to even focus on it... *weary sigh*

Comments

[meathiel]

Hey ... I'd really miss you!

[tindomerel.livejournal.com]

I think it must be true what they say about time running faster the older you get, at least that's how it feels to me. And things take more energy than before.

[rosebay-fairie.livejournal.com]

*sigh* Life seems to be like that sometimes, time running away with you, days going past too quickly. My mum always says that life speeds up and slows down whenever it feels like it. When there is a time when things are getting you down, or life seems to be going too fast the tables will turn again and things will feel better and you'll have more time to appreciate it, well something like that anyway. I tend to stick by that advice. Maybe you just need a holiday? Some time off to just relax and not have to worry about work for a bit?

Keep your LJ, I agree with meathiel, I'd be sad to see you go.

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Thanks.:) Well... I'd miss me too.:D

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

It must be true, but it's kinda scary... *sigh*

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

I hope you're right. And yes, I probably need much more of a holiday than the US corporate system of highly limited vacation time allows... *sigh*

I'm not going anywhere - I just feel ridiculously envious of people who somehow find the time to post every day (or, in some cases, several times a day). I can't fathom how on earth they manage do that...