premenstrual ponderings :)
Apr. 13th, 2012 11:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
floatingleafI am happy to announce that this Friday the 13th proved quite uneventful.:) Of course, the day isn't over yet, so perhaps I shouldn't say anything.:P
My general mood is better, if restless - I should be getting my period this weekend, so I am full of this shaky, nervous energy that can be either productive or destructive, depending on some unspecified factors (Mother Nature's whim, chiefly, I suspect). So far it feels productive, but of course that can change any minute. We'll see what happens tomorrow...
I need to start taking better care of myself, in a number of ways. First of all, I've gained a few pounds over the past few weeks, and I need to put a stop to it before things get out of hand. Paying closer attention to my diet would be one good way to do it. Moving more would be another. I need to establish some sort of exercise routine that I am actually going to stick to - and it can't be too strenuous, because that's the surest way to make me overdo it the first time, and then give up entirely for weeks. It's happened many times. *sigh* I need to be gentle, but persistent. I also need to make an effort to go outside more, even if I don't feel like it - because being outside (in tolerable weather, at least) usually has a positive effect on my mood. I need to unglue myself from the computer sometimes, even if it feels like I'll never catch up on all the posts/comments/emails etc.etc.etc. Internet stuff has a way of never being fully done, no matter how much time you spend on it - and somehow it's always at the expense of sleep, exercise or other much healthier pursuits.;) The frustration of "OMG I haven't checked my flist in so many hours" isn't a healthy symptom, and should be ignored until it goes away.;P (Who am I kidding on this one, really?... *snort*) I also need to introduce some sort of spiritual practice into my life, because that's just another missing piece of the puzzle for me. I don't know yet what it should be (meditation, perhaps?...) and how to go about finding that out, but I know it has to happen sooner or later. I just feel this immense, unexplored potential for spiritual experience within myself - and I don't want to use the word "religion", because that is a dirty word that makes me think of mind control and hatred - and I want something quite opposite, something limitless and undivisive. And I don't want to be a mindless fanatic that needs to be told what to believe - I want to find out by myself, lol. Whatever that means. I just know there is a source of inner strength and comfort in this pursuit that can sustain me, if I only allow myself to access it. Because living from moment to moment just isn't enough...
My general mood is better, if restless - I should be getting my period this weekend, so I am full of this shaky, nervous energy that can be either productive or destructive, depending on some unspecified factors (Mother Nature's whim, chiefly, I suspect). So far it feels productive, but of course that can change any minute. We'll see what happens tomorrow...
I need to start taking better care of myself, in a number of ways. First of all, I've gained a few pounds over the past few weeks, and I need to put a stop to it before things get out of hand. Paying closer attention to my diet would be one good way to do it. Moving more would be another. I need to establish some sort of exercise routine that I am actually going to stick to - and it can't be too strenuous, because that's the surest way to make me overdo it the first time, and then give up entirely for weeks. It's happened many times. *sigh* I need to be gentle, but persistent. I also need to make an effort to go outside more, even if I don't feel like it - because being outside (in tolerable weather, at least) usually has a positive effect on my mood. I need to unglue myself from the computer sometimes, even if it feels like I'll never catch up on all the posts/comments/emails etc.etc.etc. Internet stuff has a way of never being fully done, no matter how much time you spend on it - and somehow it's always at the expense of sleep, exercise or other much healthier pursuits.;) The frustration of "OMG I haven't checked my flist in so many hours" isn't a healthy symptom, and should be ignored until it goes away.;P (Who am I kidding on this one, really?... *snort*) I also need to introduce some sort of spiritual practice into my life, because that's just another missing piece of the puzzle for me. I don't know yet what it should be (meditation, perhaps?...) and how to go about finding that out, but I know it has to happen sooner or later. I just feel this immense, unexplored potential for spiritual experience within myself - and I don't want to use the word "religion", because that is a dirty word that makes me think of mind control and hatred - and I want something quite opposite, something limitless and undivisive. And I don't want to be a mindless fanatic that needs to be told what to believe - I want to find out by myself, lol. Whatever that means. I just know there is a source of inner strength and comfort in this pursuit that can sustain me, if I only allow myself to access it. Because living from moment to moment just isn't enough...
