obligatory weekend post (TM)

[floatingleaf]

FINALLY got my acupuncture today. GODS, what a relief! I was ready to curl up in a ball and whimper in sheer misery. I also had a massive premenstrual tension headache, which didn't help. But it's all better now. Or at least, my upper body feels fine. The misery has gravitated southward...:/

At least I don't have to go anywhere or do anything tomorrow if I'm not up to it. The groceries were bought yesterday, since I left work early after our annual holiday lunch. I am also off Monday AND Tuesday, which leaves plenty of time for cooking, laundry and such.

Ugh. I had thought to make a more interesting post, but apparently that is beyond my capacity at the moment. I am using up all my devastating wit and stunning insights in conversations with my evil VC twin.;P We spoke on the phone twice this week, in addition to exchanging a few emails and the usual random bursts of texting. This is a HELL of a social life for yours truly, the certified hermit.;) I'm afraid I may be neglecting other people. Which I sometimes do anyway, simply because I have so little need for human interaction (UNLESS said interaction centers around my obsessions). Btw, we did speak about that, too; how the people I feel closest to are often very different from me in crucial ways - namely, extroverted, socially active and outgoing - simply because those are the kind of people who don't give up on me when I stay quiet for a while. Another insecure, reserved, introverted person would probably start to overthink my silence - and eventually assume that I am simply not interested in keeping in touch with them anymore (I know, because that's what I do when I don't hear back from a friend for longer than usual). Which most likely wouldn't be true... but by the time they figured it out, I would assume the same thing about them, and we would just gradually drift apart. But a confident, outgoing person would just call and shake me out of my hermit mode, and I would be happy to talk to them, for a change (unless I'm really not in the mood to talk to anyone; but again, in this case the confident person wouldn't feel hurt or rejected, they would just try again some other time). Anyway... just food for thought. And now, bedtime. *yawn*

Comments

[tindomerel.livejournal.com]

I'm glad acupuncture helped. I've never had it done but it sounds very interesting.

I can also relate to what you wrote about neglecting other social interactions and the complications it may cause. I feel that I'm constantly battling with a small worry (in the background of my mind) that my friends will give up on me because I tend to be so hermit and hardly ever meet or contact anyone. I'm relieved when there are some friends who already know me so well that they know it is not like that. But most of the time I feel that people give up if if you're quiet & tend to like to be home instead. :(

[meathiel]

Glad to hear you made it to acupuncture ... :D

Not sure if I agree with what you said about introverts needing an extroverted person ... I don't think extroverts REALLY get that you need alone time and give up on you pretty quickly. Once you've said no a couple of times they drop you ...

[babschwi53.livejournal.com]

You manage to do a 'obligatory weekend post' - more than I do. I always like to read them and know how you're feeling. Happy for the acupuncture working!