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This morning the scale showed 132 lbs. Which means I've lost over two pounds since last weekend. I wonder if it's because I've been angsting so much... lol.

It also means I have almost reached my 'ideal' weight, which is 131. Funny that, since I could swear there is still plenty of absolutely superfluous flab around my belly & thighs. But maybe the flab is so soft it's actually weightless, lol. No firm & toned flesh to be found anywhere on my person, I'm afraid.:P And at 37, healthy weight is no longer enough for the body to keep a proper shape. Unless you work out a lot (which I have neither the time nor the energy for), gravity wins.:/

I do work out, for the record - about 2-3 times a week, on average. 20-30 minutes at a time. Mostly to relax and stretch out the stiff and tired muscles of my back & shoulders, which would be giving me hell otherwise. My neck gives me hell anyway, and it's gotten worse again since I last saw my chiropractor. I know it's mainly the cold weather that's making me tense up and lift my shoulders unconsciously most of the time. I could use more frequent chiropractic appointments, but since I have a high deductible medical plan (which, ironically, I picked because it took the least out of my paycheck), I'm just going to grit my teeth and suffer in silence.:/ Btw, I signed up for an HMO for next year - we'll see how that turns out. And yes, I realize it will lower the paycheck a bit - unless I cut down my 401K contributions (which are only 3% at the moment, so there isn't much cutting I can do). It sucks, but the high deductible plan was seriously kicking me in the pocket and I don't think I can handle that anymore. *sigh*

Why does real life have to be such a pain in the ass? I feel like I am becoming this boring, whinging, grumpy old hag who only talks about disgustingly mundane, petty things. I can barely put up with myself sometimes - why would anyone else?... *headshake*

Comments

[romi.livejournal.com]

Hi! You know that when you have just lost weight it takes a while for the skin to shrink! You will feel flabby for a while and it will become better, I am sure! But on the other hand, time is an issue of course, and some people never recover from the flab. But you may not be one of them :)

This said by a person who gained and lost several times but hopefully has stopped that negative circle.

I hope you'll soon feel less boring and whinging, and start feeling rather interesting and contemplating, something you are to me at least.

Many hugs
Romi

[taelyn-sass.livejournal.com]

Getting fit and healthy is part of my new to-do list. You've done wonderfully with your weight loss! You should be proud so try not worry about a bit of flab. The body at 37 is not the same as that at 17.

Our health care system leaves much to be desired. I hope the HMO works out better for you.

I feel for you on the grumpy thing as I'm there, too. Hang in there.