I can understand you only too well. Regarding the feeling of being persuaded, not having made your "own decision". It can be suffocating, infuriating, etc, etc. And it can get you stuck in a place where you don't want to be, or shouldn't be, because you stay there out of sheer stubbornness. I am now only talking about my own situation in regard to some situations, thoughts I got from reading your post.
It has happened to me a few times since I became a mother -- it has given me great opportunity to practice overcoming myself without "selling my soul out". Enough rambling...
I with you all the luck in the world with finding an apartment to buy, to take that leap. We are looking for a new house right this moment, am nervously waiting to hear any opposing bids from other possible buyers of the third house we have seriously looked at and wanted -- it is nerve-wrecking. But luckily, there will always be another house, another opportunity... so I firmly believe.
Enough of my talking. I wish you all the best and hope to be able to follow your possible hunt for a home. ♥
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Date: 2009-09-08 11:38 am (UTC)It has happened to me a few times since I became a mother -- it has given me great opportunity to practice overcoming myself without "selling my soul out". Enough rambling...
I with you all the luck in the world with finding an apartment to buy, to take that leap. We are looking for a new house right this moment, am nervously waiting to hear any opposing bids from other possible buyers of the third house we have seriously looked at and wanted -- it is nerve-wrecking. But luckily, there will always be another house, another opportunity... so I firmly believe.
Enough of my talking. I wish you all the best and hope to be able to follow your possible hunt for a home.
♥