It is absolutely heartbreaking to get to know about what your family is going through. That your father hasn´t got any results yet, that your mother is working too hard and finds herself in this situation where her health condition affects so directly the work ability and stands in clear contrast to her only source of income and which consequences it has for them both. How the vision of a dream is fading for your parents and that their health is in trouble and that You are tensed and sleep deprived and worried.. *holds tight and sniffles with you because it´s not fair damnit* I *really* want to hug you. It makes me full of frustration and I want to know if I can do something? Anything.
My mother went through the same thing as yours about a year ago, but it has adjusted itself (took a few months) and there was not a need for any surgery in the end. It´s quite common I think (nontheless unpleasant)
Stay close as a family, whatever happens you have each other. Please do not panic. As alliwantisanelf says: BREATHE!! It´s interesting how in the crises of life we forget the most fundamental of everything, we forget how to breathe naturally.. I´m trying to do exactly that right now too, for different reasons. It does help. Maybe because it´s like the most basic thing in life and also the first thing that completely freaks out and rushes out of hand under pressure. Keep it simple, like counting breaths or just observing them. Generally: Please BREATHE. A lot.
Your dream seem like one of those unpleasent ones staying just under the skin, mocking for days after - filling up every part with annoying shivery-tense angst. They are tough. =/ One condensed bitter pill of misery. (Just your fears, but not at all pleasurable confronting them.)
I immediately got to think about "I dreamt I saw a great wave..." Don´t fear sleep. It´s not yet dawn. Night changes many thoughts..
*sits next to your bed watching over your sleep and switches on pink!unicorniness to hunt away troublesome dreams*
*hands you some more blue balloons to stay afloat*
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Date: 2010-03-10 12:42 am (UTC)I *really* want to hug you. It makes me full of frustration and I want to know if I can do something? Anything.
My mother went through the same thing as yours about a year ago, but it has adjusted itself (took a few months) and there was not a need for any surgery in the end. It´s quite common I think (nontheless unpleasant)
Stay close as a family, whatever happens you have each other.
Please do not panic. As
It´s interesting how in the crises of life we forget the most fundamental of everything, we forget how to breathe naturally..
I´m trying to do exactly that right now too, for different reasons. It does help. Maybe because it´s like the most basic thing in life and also the first thing that completely freaks out and rushes out of hand under pressure. Keep it simple, like counting breaths or just observing them. Generally: Please BREATHE. A lot.
Your dream seem like one of those unpleasent ones staying just under the skin, mocking for days after - filling up every part with annoying shivery-tense angst. They are tough. =/
One condensed bitter pill of misery. (Just your fears, but not at all pleasurable confronting them.)
I immediately got to think about "I dreamt I saw a great wave..."
Don´t fear sleep. It´s not yet dawn. Night changes many thoughts..
*sits next to your bed watching over your sleep and switches on pink!unicorniness to hunt away troublesome dreams*
*hands you some more blue balloons to stay afloat*