my first instinct was to just get up and run out of the building, and never come back. Oh fuck.. this is terrible! I can really immagine the end-of-world-feeling. =( *wavers between distracting you in doorway and dragging u away to Café safely 2 blocks away*
You were awesome, and you did the absolutely best thing you could do and the most sincere for everyone involved and mostly to yourself! That´s what really count!! Sometimes we have to accept our limitations - not everyone is made for feeling immense!careless!ease with stuff like that; everyone has their dark spot which we maybe can´t step over at certain points in life. I´m glad your boss show her confidence in you when you really needed it, and that you just let it all out!! That´s mah girrl!! Showing vulnerability is the purest thing we can do, and it takes a lot to go there like you did. We need to stop thinking we´re all fitted for the same tasks or that we have to be superwomen all the time when we´re just human beings! The way to deal with our "weak" sides is not to push ourselves until we break. It´s to take small steps - handable ones so that we barely notice we´re moving ahead and one day discover that we´ve surpassed it and reached the goal anyway, with a lot less efforts and headaches. Resistance is futile!
*groupsnogs you and your boss*
I just feel relief and gratitude, and a willingness to try harder to break out of my shell at some point futher down the road. Woot!!
*places deflated baloon tenderly on pillow while singing awful nonsense-songs until snoring occurs*
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Date: 2010-03-12 03:58 pm (UTC)Oh fuck.. this is terrible! I can really immagine the end-of-world-feeling. =(
*wavers between distracting you in doorway and dragging u away to Café safely 2 blocks away*
You were awesome, and you did the absolutely best thing you could do and the most sincere for everyone involved and mostly to yourself! That´s what really count!! Sometimes we have to accept our limitations - not everyone is made for feeling immense!careless!ease with stuff like that; everyone has their dark spot which we maybe can´t step over at certain points in life.
I´m glad your boss show her confidence in you when you really needed it, and that you just let it all out!! That´s mah girrl!! Showing vulnerability is the purest thing we can do, and it takes a lot to go there like you did. We need to stop thinking we´re all fitted for the same tasks or that we have to be superwomen all the time when we´re just human beings!
The way to deal with our "weak" sides is not to push ourselves until we break. It´s to take small steps - handable ones so that we barely notice we´re moving ahead and one day discover that we´ve surpassed it and reached the goal anyway, with a lot less efforts and headaches. Resistance is futile!
*groupsnogs you and your boss*
I just feel relief and gratitude, and a willingness to try harder to break out of my shell at some point futher down the road.
Woot!!
*places deflated baloon tenderly on pillow while singing awful nonsense-songs until snoring occurs*