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[floatingleaf]

So... a friend of mine expressed a wish to see a current pic of yours truly, and I didn't have any. I said I hate to be photographed these days... but then I decided to get over myself and at least TRY to take a pic that wouldn't look disgusting. It took about fifty failed (and instantly deleted) attempts or so... but there it is.:D






In other news, I just removed my Facebook account. There was no point to it, really, and I started getting "friend requests" from people I didn't even know, which sort of freaked me out. Plus, there's just too much talk about Facebook at my workplace. Everyone seems to be on it. And I had always considered my online life to be something entirely separate from my "professional" life, such as it is. I do not want that to change. LJ is my safe haven, where I do not have to flaunt my legal identity in everyone's face, so to speak (those who do know my "real" name are discreet enough not to use it here). Oh, and btw - the friend who had originally invited me to create a FB account has disappeared from the site as well, with no explanation whatsoever. I took that as a sign... my own cue to leave the scene, so to speak. Whoever was on my friends list over there can reach me by other means, should they choose to. I just didn't feel comfortable there and couldn't quite see the purpose of the whole thing. It was frustrating to even look at it, somehow. Call me weird. *shrug*

Anyway... LJ is my online home of choice, and here I shall remain.:)

Comments

[willys-digs.livejournal.com]

You are so adorable. Us curly haired imps must stick together. ;)

Here, here on your LJ home. I feel the same way.

hugs

Jo

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Adorable?... Heh. I don't think I've heard that one ever since I was about five years old.:P *hugs back*

[illuins-lair.livejournal.com]

*OMG!HEARTS*

You have the most lovely smile... *smiles back to computer screen while bouncing*
and I totally envy your hair..*twirls obsessively*
It´s what I would call Adorable Floatingleafinesseiness ..and you can write that straight down in our TM!book. =)
You look fairylike to me. And you´re...glowing!

Omg I was so happy to see this, I think you´ve made my day.


Facebook!Goodbyeness!! Yep - there it goes. Since I´ve never had one in the first place I don´t know the feeling of letting it go but something tells me that by the way you describe it; mixing up RL and online!life in a most disturbing way I am glad that I have refused the whole thing this far.
It´s scary! Everyone and their grandmother is on facebook.. WTF?!! *pretends to neverever have heard of it*

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

*rereads your comment over and over while blushing and twirling a lock of hair*

Remember what you told me, about falling in love with myself?... If you keep saying nice things like that, I just might.;)

The hair is freshly dyed, btw. No one noticed, because it's not much different from my natural color - but all the grey is safely covered, lol. Which was sort of the point.:P

Everyone and their grandmother is on facebook..

Yeah. Everyone, their grandmother, their 5-year-old grandchild and their pet hamster, too. Way too much of a crowd for a quiet, private girl like me.;)

[illuins-lair.livejournal.com]

Remember what you told me, about falling in love with myself?... If you keep saying nice things like that, I just might
You see.. it´s FANTASTIC!! Though I´m just reminding you of what you already know somewhere deep inside..
First commandement: Love Thyself. =)

(somehow I imagine "falling in love with others" is also somehow "falling in love with the reflection of Self")

The color does look very natural to me. It suits your "glowing"! It says to me; "I´m bravehearted and quite wild and not easily tamed and twirl like unquenched fire in the rain if you look closely enough"
And also if your awesome!hair was midnight!blue I would find it hiding stars too.


About online/RL-life..
I find myself becoming more and more open while also becoming more and more secretive, by the years. Funny isn´t it.. that one can find such complete comfort in anonymous contacts while the whole ide a of being found by everyone I know is freaking me out. Maybe I´just getting old or slightly crazy.

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

somehow I imagine "falling in love with others" is also somehow "falling in love with the reflection of Self"

Very true. Or it could be falling in love with those qualities that one believes one's self is missing, but should like to possess.;)

It says to me; "I´m bravehearted and quite wild and not easily tamed and twirl like unquenched fire in the rain if you look closely enough"

Wow... that is very beautiful, darling, but I think you are romanticizing my hair quite a bit.;) To me it says: "I'm moody and unmanageable and if you use the wrong shampoo, I will totally make you look like an old dirty broom!" :P

(See?... I have trouble accepting compliments - maybe I need an advanced course in that... LOL!)

I find myself becoming more and more open while also becoming more and more secretive

Hmmm... maybe I do too. But I've always been very open to chosen individuals and very secretive to the rest of the universe, I suppose. And it's usually taken years for anyone to become one of the 'chosen' - unless I first met them online, that is.:P

[illuins-lair.livejournal.com]

LOL omg! you think? that I has romanticizing!issues??? *looks around & tripsess over your curls while trying to look in business*

Or it could be falling in love with those qualities that one believes one's self is missing, but should like to possess
yes I know what you mean.. but in my eyes we´re all one so perhaps we have forgotten about certain qualities on the way; other´s reminding us of them while in fact we are all complete as we are. So maybe not really missing.. but having forgotten..*adds wine to discussion*

"I'm moody and unmanageable and if you use the wrong shampoo, I will totally make you look like an old dirty broom!"
LMAO - *hands over bird!nest of own hair to compare and shut you up*

I like your twirly!hair even if it´s moody. Damn it, I like YOU even if you´re moody and even if I may use the wrong shampoo to smoothe ya´ I will take on the broomstick!qualities to save your virtue etc =) <<<<<<<--- If you know what I mean I will happily subscribe for a translation.

*snatches you off to secluded NZbeachhouse to pamper you with compliments until you actually believe me and recognize yourself and yield and skydive and live happily!evah!after!*

I've always been very open to chosen individuals and very secretive to the rest of the universe, I suppose. it's usually taken years for anyone to become one of the 'chosen'
YESSSS!!!THISS!!! Exactly what I mean.

Is this the real you? In other words; can you be YOU here?
(I don´t wish you to be anything else)

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

in my eyes we´re all one so perhaps we have forgotten about certain qualities on the way; other´s reminding us of them while in fact we are all complete as we are

That's an interesting theory... *ponders* I'm not sure it's true, but definitely wine-flavored discussion would be welcome.;P

If you know what I mean I will happily subscribe for a translation.

I'm not sure I know what you mean, but somehow I know I like the meaning, whatever it is.;)

snatches you off to secluded NZbeachhouse to pamper you with compliments until you actually believe me and recognize yourself and yield and skydive and live happily!evah!after

Skydive???... It would take a HELL of a lot of convincing to make me do THAT... LOL. But, you know... keep trying.;P

Is this the real you? In other words; can you be YOU here?

Yes. That was basically the purpose of starting this journal. So I could rant and rave with no holds barred and no fear of someone 'unauthorized' - like a relative or a co-worker - reading this and finding the contents very disturbing. That's why I don't mention my legal name here. Some people do, especially those whose journals are friends-locked - but mine isn't, for the time being, because I still believe in random discoveries by accidental readers etc. In other words, if I read a good fic by someone or am intrigued by their profile, but their journal is locked, I will not ask them to friend me without actually knowing for sure if I DO want to read about their life etc. And I can't possibly know for sure, because their journal is locked. Unless they friend me first, of course. But because my journal is open, that person can make up their mind first and make things a little easier for me that way. There is no making new friends among locked journals, basically. But the downside of an open journal is that someone unwelcome could stumble upon it. So the least I can do is keep it anonymous and not mention its existence to casual RL acquaintances. So far it's worked pretty well. I just got a little nervous for a while when I had Facebook: what if someone I know on LJ AND on FB mentions my LJ name over there?... and then someone I know in RL goes to LJ to check this "Floating Leaf" out?... LOL. But deleting my Facebook account took care of that little hypothetical problem for the time being.;)

What I am trying to say in so many words is basically thet yes, I am very much ME here - and if something happens that makes me lock my journal, then I shall do it, just so I could remain true to myself in the privacy of it. It's my little (in)sane asylum, LOL. <3