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floatingleafAny recommendations for herbal remedies/relaxation techniques to fight a vicious PMS? I think I am reaching a new level of Pissed Off Hormonal Bitch, or something to that effect. I've been incredibly irritable today, for no good reason (other than PMS, obviously). I snapped at a coworker who was trying to help me with something (I apologized later, and she's not mad at me, but still); then I got terribly upset about another coworker's messy/haphazard approach to a certain task (that's how he is, and I know it, and usually I find it either amusing or only mildly irritating; but today I felt like strangling the guy with my bare hands); then I had an obsessive-compulsive fit of frantically trying to fix his mess at the last minute (after he had already left for the day), which resulted in leaving the building a minute too late and narrowly missing the bus - and then having to wait 40 minutes for the next one.:/ (And no, I couldn't go back to the office and do some more work during those 40 minutes, because, due to some stupid rules, we are not allowed to work after 6 p.m.)
As for why I was taking the bus in the first place... Well, my driver's license just expired. Here in the US it normally expires on your birthday. Also, you normally get a renewal notice/reminder in the mail. I didn't get anything (no idea why, btw) - so I almost forgot about it. Besides, I thought I would be able to renew it online this time - but no such luck. Since I haven't received the reminder with a code to enter into the online form, I have to physically go to the nearest drivers' facility - which closes at 5 p.m. I work till 5:30. And we are insanely busy this week - still, or again, or however you look at it. This time the busy doesn't involve any phone calls, at least for me - so it's more manageable. But still. This is the stuff I normally work on, the stuff I feel responsible for. I don't actually WANT to take any time off until after the nearest deadline - so I decided to use public transportation for the time being, just in case. After today, though, I am pretty much discouraged from that idea. Since I can't seem to vacate the premises early enough to catch the last bus, due to being unable to leave someone else's mess unsorted on the desk. *massive sigh*
The funny thing is, I am not being paid nearly enough to justify this sort of attitude. I should just say "screw it" and blithely shirk any and all responsibility for someone else's shortcomings. But if we are all working on the same project, and I feel somehow accountable for the quality of said project, then I can't just sit back and watch someone be totally non-anal-retentive about it. *headdesk* When did I become such a control freak?... Is this ridiculously insignificant (in the grand scheme of things, anyway) job beginning to take over my life? Should I seek therapy?...
As for why I was taking the bus in the first place... Well, my driver's license just expired. Here in the US it normally expires on your birthday. Also, you normally get a renewal notice/reminder in the mail. I didn't get anything (no idea why, btw) - so I almost forgot about it. Besides, I thought I would be able to renew it online this time - but no such luck. Since I haven't received the reminder with a code to enter into the online form, I have to physically go to the nearest drivers' facility - which closes at 5 p.m. I work till 5:30. And we are insanely busy this week - still, or again, or however you look at it. This time the busy doesn't involve any phone calls, at least for me - so it's more manageable. But still. This is the stuff I normally work on, the stuff I feel responsible for. I don't actually WANT to take any time off until after the nearest deadline - so I decided to use public transportation for the time being, just in case. After today, though, I am pretty much discouraged from that idea. Since I can't seem to vacate the premises early enough to catch the last bus, due to being unable to leave someone else's mess unsorted on the desk. *massive sigh*
The funny thing is, I am not being paid nearly enough to justify this sort of attitude. I should just say "screw it" and blithely shirk any and all responsibility for someone else's shortcomings. But if we are all working on the same project, and I feel somehow accountable for the quality of said project, then I can't just sit back and watch someone be totally non-anal-retentive about it. *headdesk* When did I become such a control freak?... Is this ridiculously insignificant (in the grand scheme of things, anyway) job beginning to take over my life? Should I seek therapy?...
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Date: 2011-03-10 08:04 am (UTC)When you care, you can't switch that off. You want to do a good job. And it seems ridiculous sometimes when I think about how much I get paid and how much I worry and stress... *sigh*
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Date: 2011-03-11 01:33 am (UTC)Thanks. Actually, one thing I have figured out by myself is to refrain from putting any caffeine into my system during my pre-menstrual days. I don't drink coffee any more, but I do drink strong black tea in the mornings - and usually it just makes me feel fresh and alert. When I am PMS-ing, though, it makes me feel like I'm about to fly through the ceiling. My hands shake and I drop things and... gahhhh. So after that last disastrous post, I switched to a calming herbal brew instead - and why yes, I found I was much better. Beats me why I hadn't thought of this before. *headdesk*
When you care, you can't switch that off. You want to do a good job.
The thing is, I'm not exactly sure WHY I care. I'm not sure when this happened. For most of my working life (which wasn't that long, btw, compared to most people) I just wanted to collect my paycheck, go home and forget about any work-related stuff (until the next day, at least). Now I actually think about work-related stuff even while at home. And I'm not sure it's a good thing. *scratches head*
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Date: 2011-03-27 02:29 pm (UTC)I feel like I've had PMS since the beginning of February. *sigh* Not enjoying myself right now, but I have found a homeopath and made an appointment for a couple of weeks, so I'm really hoping she'll help me.
That's quite a big shift! I've always cared, often to my detriment. It's definitely not always a good thing and I hope you can find a healthy balance - easier said than done. Meh.
*hugs*
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Date: 2011-03-27 05:14 pm (UTC)Ugh... that sounds horrible. I'll keep my fingers crossed for that homeopath to give you some really sound advice on how to deal with this. *hugs*
Also, I love your icon.:)
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Date: 2011-03-28 04:44 pm (UTC)*big hugs*
Oh, this icon! I love this icon so much! I'm glad you do too because I can't stop using it. It's so cute. It's from roxi_icons latest batch. I may be slightly addicted to her icons. ;D
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Date: 2011-03-30 02:11 am (UTC)In case you haven't noticed, this is whiner amnesty zone.:P
It's from roxi_icons latest batch. I may be slightly addicted to her icons. ;D
Heh. I might have the same problem.;)
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Date: 2011-04-17 11:29 am (UTC)She's just so talented and I love her icons and I just can't help myself. ♥
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Date: 2011-03-11 11:01 pm (UTC)Your inner room, where things are pleasant and worry-free and feels something along the lines of Rivendell?
Also.. Hug your co-workers.. Yeah, especially the ones that annoys you the most. It's usually juat a matter of corrupted energy levels in the end.
*rubs feet*