time for change, it seems
Dec. 16th, 2006 11:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
floatingleafSo. Quite a few things to say today. First of all, my heartfelt thanks to the four lovely people who left gifts in my stocking.:) (you know who you are - and you were most generous, I might add :D)
Second of all - Happy Birthday,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
rainweaver13! I know it's kinda late, but I sincerely hope you had a good one.:)
Third of all, I had a great time last night withakashaelfwitch and agrotora - one of my favorite manip artists (*points at icon*), who is currently in Chicago visiting Akasha. There's nothing like a slashy chat to put one well into the joyous holiday mood (at least one such as me ;P).
However, my joyous holiday mood died a sudden, though not entirely unexpected death this morning. As I have mentioned here some weeks/months ago, there have been problems with clogging drains in the apartment I live in, and my roomate - who owns the place - is of the opinion that it's my fault (it doesn't matter if I don't agree - I have no way of proving to her that she's wrong, and somehow that's not even the point anymore). To cut a long story short, the bathtub drain is fine since it got fixed a couple months ago, but there is a major clog in the kitchen as of right now, and it no longer matters how careful I've been not to let that happen ever since the problems first started. It's happened anyway. The water just stopped going down in the sink at one point, almost entirely, and so the dirty dishes have been accumulating for a few days, because the sink was full of water after the last wash-up. I bought a huge bottle of some tough, poisonous "liquid plumber" stuff, meaning to use it and clean everything up as soon as the water actually does go down, since I noticed it was receding, after all - albeit very slowly. I didn't know what else to do, and I definitely wasn't waiting for my roomate to take care of everything herself. I was just waiting for the damn water to go down enough to let me try unclogging the drain. But of course, as it somehow always happens in situations like this, she lost her temper first. So she announced this morning that she will fix the drain "one last time", but if this happens again, I'd better look for another place to live. Well, I'm not going to wait till she gives me a month to move out or something. Especially that she also informed me how magnanimous she had been by letting me use her plates & pots & pans and all the kitchen stuff. This was apparently a grave mistake on her part, and as of now she doesn't want me to TOUCH her kitchen utensils any more (I find that grotesquely hilarious for some reason, but that's another story). So I am supposed to go shopping and buy whatever I need. Not a problem - less shopping for when I do get my own place one day, I guess. She's also raising my rent by $50, starting January (again, she's been unbelievably magnanimous by keeping it at the same level for so long :P). Not a big problem either. What is a problem to me, however, is the righteously offended looks she gives me now and the tense atmosphere whenever we're in the apartment together. I guess it's pretty safe to assume we're not friends anymore.:/ So it's definitely time to have a look around. Funny how Akasha was saying just yesterday how cool it would be if the two of us rented a place together. She was supposed to move to Ohio next year, but she says she'd stay in Chicago if she had someone to share rent with. I also seem to recall that my parents had a plan of buying an apartment, just as a safety measure for when (and if, but very likely when) they have to sell their house, and of me living there for the time being, paying part of their mortgage instead of rent, so that the money stays in the family, so to speak. I didn't like that plan too much in the beginning, since I figured I was okay where I was and could stay here until I can afford a place of my own... but apparently that's not meant to be. So I might just as well go along with my mother's idea. Even if I'm not too enthusiastic about her being the landlady... at least she won't be actually living there with me, and I know she will never even suggest I should move out - until the day I finally have my own little one-bedroom apartment, which I am NOT going to share with ANYONE (oh, the ecstatic joy of just imagining that... lol). So, the first step is to find out over Christmas if my parents are still thinking of that, and how they would feel about me sharing the apartment with Akasha and her three cats.:) (finding a roommate was definitely included in the plan, since they wouldn't be able to afford paying too much of the mortgage and neither would I) And how Akasha would feel about my parents being her landlords.:) And if there are any objections on either side, I guess I'll start looking for a place to rent. Actually, I'm kinda excited about that. Not the search itself, but the perspective of moving out of here. I do tend to get attached to the status quo - just for the ease of it - but enough is enough. I really don't have to live with someone who sees me as the black sheep, causing nothing but trouble. Right now I am quite uneasy about touching ANYTHING that belongs to her - lest it should break and make me even more evil than I already am. Frankly, I can't deal with people guilt-tripping me, because it's just too easy for me to fall into that trap. It has always been. Yes, I know I suck at certain aspects of housekeeping, but for God's sake, I don't do it on purpose, so that someone would have to clean up after me. I do what I can to stay out of trouble with anyone - which is obviously far from enough for some people - and that's that. So shoot me. I would very gladly live on my own, if I could only afford it, thank you very much. So that, if anything goes out of order, I could just say "oh well, things happen", and try to fix it as best I can; and then, if that doesn't work, pay someone else to fix it - with no hard feelings, guilt trips, residual resentment or anything of the kind. My stuff, I broke it, I deal with it in whatever way I have available. Simple and sweet, you know? *wistful sigh*
Anyway... enough for tonight. Oh, and btw, I did finally find out who played the gorgeous guy whom Oscar Wilde dumped for Bosie.:) It was Ioan Gruffudd... lol. I would probably have figured it out much sooner if I had seen the Arthur movie... but I haven't. Probably will now, though.;P He has an exquisite mouth - just like Jonathan Rhys-Meyers, who is my main prototype for the Elven twins.:) Mmmmm, twins... I feel better already.:D
Heh. I even managed to end this post on a positive note. Go me. But I feel quite drained now and must go to sleep. *nods off*
Second of all - Happy Birthday,
rainweaver13! I know it's kinda late, but I sincerely hope you had a good one.:) Third of all, I had a great time last night with
akashaelfwitch and agrotora - one of my favorite manip artists (*points at icon*), who is currently in Chicago visiting Akasha. There's nothing like a slashy chat to put one well into the joyous holiday mood (at least one such as me ;P). However, my joyous holiday mood died a sudden, though not entirely unexpected death this morning. As I have mentioned here some weeks/months ago, there have been problems with clogging drains in the apartment I live in, and my roomate - who owns the place - is of the opinion that it's my fault (it doesn't matter if I don't agree - I have no way of proving to her that she's wrong, and somehow that's not even the point anymore). To cut a long story short, the bathtub drain is fine since it got fixed a couple months ago, but there is a major clog in the kitchen as of right now, and it no longer matters how careful I've been not to let that happen ever since the problems first started. It's happened anyway. The water just stopped going down in the sink at one point, almost entirely, and so the dirty dishes have been accumulating for a few days, because the sink was full of water after the last wash-up. I bought a huge bottle of some tough, poisonous "liquid plumber" stuff, meaning to use it and clean everything up as soon as the water actually does go down, since I noticed it was receding, after all - albeit very slowly. I didn't know what else to do, and I definitely wasn't waiting for my roomate to take care of everything herself. I was just waiting for the damn water to go down enough to let me try unclogging the drain. But of course, as it somehow always happens in situations like this, she lost her temper first. So she announced this morning that she will fix the drain "one last time", but if this happens again, I'd better look for another place to live. Well, I'm not going to wait till she gives me a month to move out or something. Especially that she also informed me how magnanimous she had been by letting me use her plates & pots & pans and all the kitchen stuff. This was apparently a grave mistake on her part, and as of now she doesn't want me to TOUCH her kitchen utensils any more (I find that grotesquely hilarious for some reason, but that's another story). So I am supposed to go shopping and buy whatever I need. Not a problem - less shopping for when I do get my own place one day, I guess. She's also raising my rent by $50, starting January (again, she's been unbelievably magnanimous by keeping it at the same level for so long :P). Not a big problem either. What is a problem to me, however, is the righteously offended looks she gives me now and the tense atmosphere whenever we're in the apartment together. I guess it's pretty safe to assume we're not friends anymore.:/ So it's definitely time to have a look around. Funny how Akasha was saying just yesterday how cool it would be if the two of us rented a place together. She was supposed to move to Ohio next year, but she says she'd stay in Chicago if she had someone to share rent with. I also seem to recall that my parents had a plan of buying an apartment, just as a safety measure for when (and if, but very likely when) they have to sell their house, and of me living there for the time being, paying part of their mortgage instead of rent, so that the money stays in the family, so to speak. I didn't like that plan too much in the beginning, since I figured I was okay where I was and could stay here until I can afford a place of my own... but apparently that's not meant to be. So I might just as well go along with my mother's idea. Even if I'm not too enthusiastic about her being the landlady... at least she won't be actually living there with me, and I know she will never even suggest I should move out - until the day I finally have my own little one-bedroom apartment, which I am NOT going to share with ANYONE (oh, the ecstatic joy of just imagining that... lol). So, the first step is to find out over Christmas if my parents are still thinking of that, and how they would feel about me sharing the apartment with Akasha and her three cats.:) (finding a roommate was definitely included in the plan, since they wouldn't be able to afford paying too much of the mortgage and neither would I) And how Akasha would feel about my parents being her landlords.:) And if there are any objections on either side, I guess I'll start looking for a place to rent. Actually, I'm kinda excited about that. Not the search itself, but the perspective of moving out of here. I do tend to get attached to the status quo - just for the ease of it - but enough is enough. I really don't have to live with someone who sees me as the black sheep, causing nothing but trouble. Right now I am quite uneasy about touching ANYTHING that belongs to her - lest it should break and make me even more evil than I already am. Frankly, I can't deal with people guilt-tripping me, because it's just too easy for me to fall into that trap. It has always been. Yes, I know I suck at certain aspects of housekeeping, but for God's sake, I don't do it on purpose, so that someone would have to clean up after me. I do what I can to stay out of trouble with anyone - which is obviously far from enough for some people - and that's that. So shoot me. I would very gladly live on my own, if I could only afford it, thank you very much. So that, if anything goes out of order, I could just say "oh well, things happen", and try to fix it as best I can; and then, if that doesn't work, pay someone else to fix it - with no hard feelings, guilt trips, residual resentment or anything of the kind. My stuff, I broke it, I deal with it in whatever way I have available. Simple and sweet, you know? *wistful sigh*
Anyway... enough for tonight. Oh, and btw, I did finally find out who played the gorgeous guy whom Oscar Wilde dumped for Bosie.:) It was Ioan Gruffudd... lol. I would probably have figured it out much sooner if I had seen the Arthur movie... but I haven't. Probably will now, though.;P He has an exquisite mouth - just like Jonathan Rhys-Meyers, who is my main prototype for the Elven twins.:) Mmmmm, twins... I feel better already.:D
Heh. I even managed to end this post on a positive note. Go me. But I feel quite drained now and must go to sleep. *nods off*
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Date: 2006-12-17 02:49 pm (UTC)Are we still going to try to get together while I'm in next week? I'm thinking the 26th would work best, though it also sounds like getting together at your apartment may not be the best idea :-)
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Date: 2006-12-17 07:37 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2006-12-17 05:40 pm (UTC)You remind me that I should rent Wilde again, it is about time :)
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Date: 2006-12-17 08:12 pm (UTC)Very apt description, unfortunately. It may sound pathetic, but I actually try to stay in my bedroom while she's home. I don't go to the kitchen when she's there, unless I absolutely have to. That's how uneasy she makes me at the moment. *sigh*
And yes, Wilde is definitely a film worth seeing twice.:)