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[floatingleaf]

Why am I so tired? It's not even 10 p.m. Must be the nervous tension I've been feeling since last weekend. I know I'm paranoid, but I feel as though the very air in the apartment were suffocatingly thick - even while my roommate isn't here. In fact, she's been coming home really late all week, right before she went to bed - so I mostly had the place to myself. And yet, I feel my whole body tense every time I hear someone enter the building, wondering if it's her. Why am I so pathetic? Why does just the thought of being in the same room/apartment with someone who might possibly be angry/dissatisfied/disappointed with me make my stomach hurt?... I thought you were supposed to grow out of stuff like that as you got older. Apparently, no such luck. Not for me, anyway. *sigh*

The funny thing is, thanks to that I am actually much less squeamish about staying overnight at my parents' house after Christmas Eve than I've been for the last few years. I even considered surprising them by coming earlier than usual... but, sadly, they don't have DSL.:P And two days without constant email/LJ access is about as much as I can handle. Pathetic, again. I know. But I really don't want to fall more behind on flist fiction reading than absolutely necessary...

I am falling on my face, truly. WTF? Why go to bed now if I don't have to get up early tomorrow? And yet, why hang around with drooping eyelids and a growing headache? Dang it. Gotta hit the pillows. *shakes head in disbelief*

Pathetic.

Comments

[romi.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry that you are in this unfortunate situation at home... home should really be a place to rest and relax. Will you talk to your parents about it this Christmas? Maybe they have some good advice... who knows... in the midst of a lot of unwanted advice as parents often give.

I wish you a very Merry Christmas.
*hugs*

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

home should really be a place to rest and relax

Exactly. That's why I need to move out.

Will you talk to your parents about it this Christmas?

Yes, definitely. I am going to ask them if they are still thinking of buying an apartment. I am afraid, however, that even if they are, it won't happen too fast - it's not a quick and easy thing to do, after all. And I really don't want to be here longer than necessary. It would probably be quicker if I just rented something... but then again, I'm tired of moving from one rented room to the next. *sigh*

We'll see, I guess. *festive holiday hugs for you as well*

[aelfwitchfic.livejournal.com]

*just hugs you*

I still think your roomie is being a real %@!* about the whole thing...
just remember we loves you
xoxoxo

Akasha

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

We loves you too.;D *hugs back*