floatingleaf | ONLY ten weird things about me :)

Predictably enough, no call from the place I had applied for - and when I called to ask about the other nice apartment that I liked so much, it was taken already. No surprise whatsoever. But I am kinda torn - between relief that I don't have to move on a very short notice, and disappointment that I'm stuck here for another month. *disgruntled sigh*

But now, on a completely different note: lo and behold! I was tagged.:D By

stormatdusk. To do the Ten Weird Things Meme.

I am absolutely positive there are many, many more than ten weird things about me... but since it's getting kinda late, I'll try to keep it as concise as I can.;)

1) I would do almost anything to avoid drawing attention to myself - at least the attention of too many people at once (and more than two or three is usually too many). I would probably wear an invisible cloak, if such a thing existed.

2) I am incredibly quiet in social settings, but very noisy in some, uh, private situations.;) A classic case of still waters running deep, I guess - or does that saying actually apply to something else? Never mind.:P

3) I have - or used to have - a serious phobia of talking on the phone to strangers. I am always shy when interacting with people I don't know too well, but doing it through the phone is actually worse for me than face to face. More possibilities of mishearing something and making a fool of oneself, I guess. Especially if the conversation is not in my native language. I know many people would be surprised to hear that I still feel somewhat insecure about my English - but I do. At least on the phone. I have lived in the US for over four years - and still, sometimes, having to make a call gives me stomach cramps. *sigh*

4) One of my worst fears, and the worst things that can happen to me, is being taken for an idiot. Possibly because I don't have too much patience for mentally slow people myself, and I have a gnawing suspicion that my clinical shyness makes me appear as one.

5) I have a whole bunch of little obsessive-compulsive habits that are even hard to describe, and probably hard to notice as well, unless you spend a LOT of time with me (which practically no one does anymore). Washing my hands every five minutes is NOT one of them.:P

6) I love reading and writing about sex, but some aspects of actually "doing it" were never very appealing to me, and seem to be even less appealing now. Not feeling confident enough about my own attractiveness is just one part of it. There is also the very real possibility of not finding anyone else attractive enough to go that far with them - at least not the "real" people I have a chance of meeting and getting to know. As a result of that, my libido has totally shifted into the fantasy zone. I don't even like IMAGINING myself having sex anymore. I always imagine fictional characters instead (no need to become more specific in this area, I believe :D).

7) I am a little obsessed with beauty and the aesthetic aspect of things. Even very simple, everyday things. When shopping for necessities, I will not pick a tube of toothpaste or hand cream if it looks too garish/ugly to me. Basically, I steer clear of anything that has too many colors - especially if said colors don't match.:P

8) The same goes for my clothes. My underwear and socks always more or less match the rest of the outfit, even if no one will ever see them (which usually no one does, btw). It just bothers me if they don't.

9) I hate the color red. Burgundy or purple - yes, please. But bright, vivid red makes me cringe. So do flashy things, in general. So if someone tried to impress me by, say, picking me up in a shiny new RED sports car, the effect would be totally opposite, I'm afraid.;)

10) I am also allergic to commercials. I'd rather miss a good movie (or pay to rent it later) than have to sit through five 10-minute commercial breaks. Which is one of the main reasons I stopped watching TV a few years ago, and don't intend to start again.

OK... I guess I could go on, but I really have to hit the pillows right about now. Besides, I guess everyone is sufficiently scared off already anyway.;P

And since this is a tagging game, I tag the following flisters:

romi (I know she's taking a break from the net, but I can't keep myself from tagging her anyway ;P),

slesia (btw: where are you, babe???...),

crowdaughter,

surreysmum,

cynical_terror and

ancabell.