just skip for your own good

[floatingleaf]

I am officially thirty-five. And I really want to thank everyone here at LJ for their kind birthday wishes, since you were the only people who actually remembered. Funny, isn't it? I don't think that ever happened before... but this time actually nobody called to say happy birthday. Not even my parents, which is kind of disturbing. Not to mention the fact that I spent the evening alone, drinking to my computer screen. Now, I never drink alone. I never drink at all, in fact - or at least haven't for many months (unless you count a glass of wine with dinner). So maybe that's why these two glasses of vodka+cola put me in a weird mood. Anyway. Never mind. I'm fine. Going to bed now. Not gonna cry or do anything stupid. I'm a big girl. And yes, I know this is pathetic, but it's my fucking journal and I can be as pathetic as I want to be. It's my fault, really. I only care about people who are at least a thousand miles away, so it's only right nobody living closer than that should care about me. I get what I deserve. And if my computer ever crashes again, I'm just going to disappear, because it provides my only meaningful connection with the outside world. Ha. Here I go. Moment of truth. How liberating. And I thought I was such a happy reclusive hermaphrodite. In vino veritas. Or, more truthfully, in vodka. *snort* But see, I am still anal about not making typos. I wonder how much I would have to drink before I stopped caring. About typos, I mean. Might try that out some day. Maybe on my next birthday - if I'm still single, fat and unemployed. And yes, that was supposed to be funny. I do have a sense of humor. And I will probably delete this post after I've had some sleep... but now I am going to be childish and post it. Please do not take it more seriously than it deserves...

Comments

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie.
First, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I didn't know, but I'm glad I do now.

Damn right: it's your journal and you can be as pathetic as you want to be. I'm honored to be on this end of it!

I hope you are sleeping and having happy dreams right now, and that you wake up feeling great.

*hugs you BIRTHDAY-hard*

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your kind words. Yes, I am much better now. Not great, exactly, but better. And the comments to last night's post are a big part of it.:)

[eliriel1.livejournal.com]

You're right.Your life,your birthday,your LJ,your everything.We all need to get drunk sometimes.But like you said to me not long ago,not to serious, not to deep,only that kind of things.
Hon,care for who cares for you,never disappear,because there are many in the other side of the screen who cares deeply for you.I'm one of them.
Hope your sleep,make you feel good,relaxed and more experienced,not older,even if I think that older is wiser.
Happy Sunday to you and know that you are loved by many.
((( hugs you very tighly )))

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your support.<3 I am a little ashamed now of this post, but I was in need of some reassurance, and well... I got it.;) I am much better now. And yes, older is wiser - though sometimes sadder too. Because in some ways ignorance is bliss. But enough of my cheap philosophy.;)
*hugs*

[oceansecrets2.livejournal.com]

Sweet Floating Leaf, I'm sorry you were alone for your birthday, but you aren't alone, even if the people who care about you are a thousand miles away. The relationships we form are just as real and important even if the glass of the PC screen separates us.

I hope your package has arrived or will arrive soon to cheer you.

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Yes, you are right. These relationships are just as real and important to me, maybe more - I only wish I could have some company, talk and laughter more often... especially on occasions like this. I miss being able to see the faces and hear the voices behind the posts and comments, you know... *sighs*

[romi.livejournal.com]

Floating Leaf. That your parents don't call seems so very strange - even rude! Why don't they? I have a very bad connection to my parents but there seem to be some sense in them to call at least (well maybe - we'll see next birthday!)

What do you say, if we both can make it, we should go out when I come to your hoods and have a birthday dinner together since we seem to be of the same age.

*hugs you very very hard*

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

It seems I have made a big ado about nothing. It was a typical family misunderstanding. My parents thought I would come see them yesterday, because that's what my sister told them some time ago... but then my sister never consulted that with me, and since I usually go visit them on Sundays, it didn't occur to me to do otherwise (while they were waiting and thinking they would wish me happy birthday in person, instead of on the phone). In addition, my sister, who means well, but is the most disorganized person I know, got confused about the dates and thought that my birthday was really on the 8th for some reason - so she didn't realize it would matter much whether anyone calls me on the 4th, obviously. Anyway, we got it all straightened out now and I am going there later for dinner...;)

And of course, when we see each other, we must party as much as we can.;P Who says that people born in March can't have a birthday dinner in November if they so choose? Hell, we may even celebrate Viggo's birthday behind his back for all I care.:D As long as we're having a blast together.:)

*loves you very much*

[romi.livejournal.com]

I am glad to see it all ended well. That seems to be something exactly like it happens in my family too. And now you are going to see them. Make sure you get a lot of hugs, hugs make you feel really good!