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Apr. 3rd, 2006 11:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
floatingleafWhere on earth does the time go??? I should be in bed already, but... I have hardly done anything tonight! Except, of course, checking my email and flist, using my brand new debit card for the first time (yay!!!) to order some obscure movies through amazon.com, uploading some new icons (lots of love to Akasha and Tien, btw :) and reading just a little bit of slash. And then just a little bit more.;) And... well. It's midnight. There was also a Pilates workout on schedule, but that somehow didn't happen. Again. No comments, I guess. *sigh*
My new job is boooring, btw - no internet and no music in the office... lol. But at least it's acceptable to wear headphones... so I bought myself a new portable CD/MP3 player.:) Maybe I'll even finally learn how to burn my own CDs.;P
And the weekend was, obviously, far too short. Eaten up by mundane activities like shopping, laundry, an obligatory Sunday dinner with my parents... as well as a ridiculously dramatic discussion through msn messenger with my hapless virtual admirer.;) Or should I say virtual ex-admirer? Since we somehow do not appear to be on speaking terms any more. Yes, I finally learned to be assertive and actually informed the girl in no uncertain terms that I am not interested in starting a romantic relationship with her at this point (I never indicated that I was, but up until now she didn't seem to get the message). And she sort of freaked out. I swear it felt like she had already planned out a nice life with me, marriage and children included - even though we had never actually seen each other, except on photographs. Of course I am the first to believe it is possible to fall in love with a photograph - but I think the person on the said photograph should also have a say in the matter, before any progress in mutual relations actually occurs (that's why I only fall for inaccessible virtual "objects"... lol). And I felt like it didn't really matter to her what I wanted. I never consciously encouraged her. I never flirted back. And yet she seemed so horribly offended when I finally mustered the courage to say no. Made me feel like a complete, heartless bitch. Ridiculous, isn't it? We barely know each other. And apart from any other considerations, my "gut instinct" tells me that if someone starts fighting with me before we even meet, then we definitely shouldn't go any further. I've had my share of emotionally troubled partners, thank you very much. And that's the end of this pointless ramble. *glances at the clock, horrified, and scurries off to bed*
My new job is boooring, btw - no internet and no music in the office... lol. But at least it's acceptable to wear headphones... so I bought myself a new portable CD/MP3 player.:) Maybe I'll even finally learn how to burn my own CDs.;P
And the weekend was, obviously, far too short. Eaten up by mundane activities like shopping, laundry, an obligatory Sunday dinner with my parents... as well as a ridiculously dramatic discussion through msn messenger with my hapless virtual admirer.;) Or should I say virtual ex-admirer? Since we somehow do not appear to be on speaking terms any more. Yes, I finally learned to be assertive and actually informed the girl in no uncertain terms that I am not interested in starting a romantic relationship with her at this point (I never indicated that I was, but up until now she didn't seem to get the message). And she sort of freaked out. I swear it felt like she had already planned out a nice life with me, marriage and children included - even though we had never actually seen each other, except on photographs. Of course I am the first to believe it is possible to fall in love with a photograph - but I think the person on the said photograph should also have a say in the matter, before any progress in mutual relations actually occurs (that's why I only fall for inaccessible virtual "objects"... lol). And I felt like it didn't really matter to her what I wanted. I never consciously encouraged her. I never flirted back. And yet she seemed so horribly offended when I finally mustered the courage to say no. Made me feel like a complete, heartless bitch. Ridiculous, isn't it? We barely know each other. And apart from any other considerations, my "gut instinct" tells me that if someone starts fighting with me before we even meet, then we definitely shouldn't go any further. I've had my share of emotionally troubled partners, thank you very much. And that's the end of this pointless ramble. *glances at the clock, horrified, and scurries off to bed*
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Date: 2006-04-04 07:07 pm (UTC)It could be a good idea to stay away from a person... perhaps not only for the fighting before you met, but also because she seems to have a very different view than you on what your relationship is - even now...
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Date: 2006-04-07 01:29 am (UTC)I say you are keeping me company already, most of the time. You are one of the people that are never far away from my thoughts. *sends good vibes across the Atlantic*
she seems to have a very different view than you on what your relationship is - even now...
Yeah. And I thought I was the one who lived in a fantasy land.;)
But seriously, this situation was just so weird, I couldn't take it any more. Maybe I should have been flattered by all the attention... but I found it annoying. Partly because I would never ever dare to be so persistent in pursuing someone who clearly doesn't reciprocate. It's just beyond me. To me, "no" means "no", and "maybe some other time" usually means "no" too.;) And I don't want anyone to "wait till I'm ready"!!!... Aaarghhh!!! the pressure!!!... lol. I guess I should just stop looking for friends among people who advertise themselves on dating sites.;) I surely have enough kindred souls on LJ already...:)
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Date: 2006-04-09 04:48 pm (UTC)*hugs very hard*