better late than never, I guess

I finally mustered up the courage and made a doctor's appointment. To find out why my metabolism is so weird; namely, why I have to pee every hour or two and eat every three or four, or I feel like I might faint (or actually DO faint if I go out in the morning with an empty stomach, which I never do anymore, precisely because I fainted two or three times on such an occasion); as well as why I get nearly catatonic after a substantial meal (to the point of having to sneak out for a 10-15 minute nap on the toilet seat at work after lunch - otherwise I would be napping right there in front of my desk, in plain view of the entire office). The obvious explanation seems to be either diabetes or something related to it, which wouldn't be a big surprise, since I know at least one person on my father's side of the family was diabetic; but it could be something else too, and I'm just tired of the guessing game. Besides, I'm also incredibly tired of waking up 2-3 times a night to go the bathroom. So if there is some medication out there that would make my bladder slow down a bit, I am extremely willing to try it. Of course I will probably have to do a gazillion of tests that are going to cost a shitload of money even with insurance; but since I don't intend to go on like this forever, I might just as well take care of the problem while I DO have insurance - right? Not that I'm expecting to lose my job again or anything like that; but I didn't quite expect it the first or second time it happened, either. And I do tend to put things off ad infinitum sometimes... especially difficult, embarrassing or painful things, of course. But finally something snaps and I tell myself: okay, girl, that's enough. Get your act together. And so I did.

So, if anyone happens to be reading this and to still give a damn (I know my journal has been incredibly boring of late), please keep your fingers crossed that I'm not in some serious condition I should have told a doctor about years ago. And, more pressingly somehow, that I don't go bankrupt (my medical plan is a PPO, because an HMO wasn't available; moreover, it's a high-deductible PPO, because it takes the least amount of money off my check). Anyone who lives here in the US knows what I'm talking about... and the rest of the planet would just have to take my word that medical costs here are somewhat intimidating. To say the least. And I am not exactly the richest person around right now. *checks account balance and snickers at the understatement*

OK. Enough whining for tonight. Gotta eat AGAIN, as well as read some slash to pump up the mood.;)