assorted random babble

So, about that Polish website where you can look for old friends/acquaintances from school/college etc.... Two of my friends found me there, and sent me messages to get back in touch, before I even managed to decide how to approach them. Almost as soon as my profile was up, they were there - which means they must have actually looked for me. I feel almost embarrassed at how happy that made me. I missed them so much... but I guess I was too proud to try contacting them again after they stopped responding to my emails a few years back. I knew they probably never made a conscious decision to cut me off - just got entangled in their own busy lives - but still... I hate feeling like I'm forcing myself on anyone, and if my email remains unanswered for months, in most cases I will not trouble that person again. And then, after months stretched into years, I didn't even know if my contact info for those people was correct anymore... So I basically gave up on them (or rather decided they had given up on me, even though that was pretty hard to accept). And now they're all "here you are, where have you been, we haven't heard from you for so long". Well... duh. I was here all the time, waiting for one of you guys to give a sign of life or something. *blinks*

Anyway... we'll see what comes out of this. Apart from some of the friends I used to hang out with right before I left for the States five years ago, I also found a few people I haven't seen or heard from for much longer. Including the girl who sat next to me for most of elementary school, and who I probably had my first gay crush on.:) Yep, the one who still appears in my dreams pretty regularly after all those years. That's quite freaky, isn't it? Well, I'm not actually 100% positive I found her, because the profile has no photo attached; but the name (not a very common one), age and town of residence are all correct, so I suppose it must be her. I wrote her a message - I wonder if she will respond...

( In other news, my culinary adventures continue. )

And now, a special treat for the few select individuals who are actually still reading this: a Viggorli dream I had a few nights ago. ( Kinda Mary-Sue-ish - so if that disturbs you, stop reading now.:P )