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May. 11th, 2008 08:22 pmHello. It's me again. I have decided to attempt an update. Still not feeling like I have anything important to say... but that might never change, so let me try and say something unimportant instead.
( I had to cancel my Blockbusters Online subscription. )
Having no new movies to watch has left me feeling kind of bereft, but also gave me the rare opportunity to 'go back to the roots' and see some of the old favorites. Starting with LOTR... lol. I just watched all three extended editions over the past two weekends; in full, mind you - by which I mean no skipping orc or hobbit scenes.;) It just didn't seem right to use fast-forward at all, for some reason. And that made me feel like I was watching the movies for the first time. Honestly, I didn't expect to be so taken with them any more. I didn't expect to cry over so many scenes, lol. But somehow, I was very powerfully reminded why I am in this fandom, and why I intend to stay in it, no matter what. At the same time, I am in the tight grip of nostalgia for those good old times when this fandom was (or seemed to be) a safe, happy, peaceful and hospitable place. Like a party in Hobbiton, lol. Those times are no more. I came late to the party, and it was over as soon as I really started having fun, it seems. So painfully typical of my life in general. *sigh*
On a more positive note (in a way, at least), the movies have induced a weirdly amusing dream, in which my grandmother (who died nearly 20 years ago) comes up to me and asks if I happen to know a guy named Sauron (sic!). Why?... Because he just came to the door and left this for me. And she gives me a big black leather case (like an old-fashioned doctor's bag). Unfortunately, I woke up before finding out what was in it. A Palantir, perhaps?... Who knows, maybe I was chosen to replace Saruman. A dark witch of terrible power, or something to that effect. All shall love me and despair, LOLOLOL.
And that is all the deep insight I feel privileged to share tonight. *snort*
( I had to cancel my Blockbusters Online subscription. )
Having no new movies to watch has left me feeling kind of bereft, but also gave me the rare opportunity to 'go back to the roots' and see some of the old favorites. Starting with LOTR... lol. I just watched all three extended editions over the past two weekends; in full, mind you - by which I mean no skipping orc or hobbit scenes.;) It just didn't seem right to use fast-forward at all, for some reason. And that made me feel like I was watching the movies for the first time. Honestly, I didn't expect to be so taken with them any more. I didn't expect to cry over so many scenes, lol. But somehow, I was very powerfully reminded why I am in this fandom, and why I intend to stay in it, no matter what. At the same time, I am in the tight grip of nostalgia for those good old times when this fandom was (or seemed to be) a safe, happy, peaceful and hospitable place. Like a party in Hobbiton, lol. Those times are no more. I came late to the party, and it was over as soon as I really started having fun, it seems. So painfully typical of my life in general. *sigh*
On a more positive note (in a way, at least), the movies have induced a weirdly amusing dream, in which my grandmother (who died nearly 20 years ago) comes up to me and asks if I happen to know a guy named Sauron (sic!). Why?... Because he just came to the door and left this for me. And she gives me a big black leather case (like an old-fashioned doctor's bag). Unfortunately, I woke up before finding out what was in it. A Palantir, perhaps?... Who knows, maybe I was chosen to replace Saruman. A dark witch of terrible power, or something to that effect. All shall love me and despair, LOLOLOL.
And that is all the deep insight I feel privileged to share tonight. *snort*
