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floatingleafUgh. This is probably going to sound weird, but sometimes I am just so fed up with the human body and all its disgusting "natural functions". Why does everything have to be so icky? The older I get, the more sickened I am by certain unavoidable "facts of life". Sometimes I wish I didn't have a body at all. Or, you know, had a clean and easily maintained supernatural one that doesn't emit any waste, and bleeds only when it chooses.
Yes, in case you're still wondering what prompted this, I got my period last night. It was very much on time, and the PMS lasted only about two days - which is fine. What bothers me is how ridiculously bllleeerghhh I have felt for most of today, including a horrid tension headache which only just eased a bit in the past few hours. Normally, I would get the worst of the headache just BEFORE the bleeding started - then it would gradually go away. This time, the headache started intensifying just as I was thinking that the worst of the entire ordeal was over. I wonder why. Could it be dehydration? Obviously, I didn't have much of an appetite this morning, but I did drink lots of water - or so it seemed. Maybe when I can't force myself to eat, I should be drinking twice as much as usual - but I hate doing that, because then I have to keep running to the loo all the time, and during THAT time of the month, each visit to the loo is just hideously messy. And the fact that I am bleeding much more than I used to certainly doesn't help. I am not accustomed to such heavy bleeding, and it sort of nauseates me. So I don't want to eat or drink, but I am forcing myself to, in the hopes that it will make the headache go away - and when that fails, I finally give up and take painkillers (even thought the mere thought of swallowing pills filled with chemicals also nauseates me). At least that's what happened today. So I don't really know why the headache was so bad (dehydration? low blood sugar? the heavy bleeding itself?), or what finally made it ease up (the food/water or the Ibuprofen). At any rate, I'm glad I called in sick to work - otherwise I'd be incredibly miserable. But the funny thing is, when I called in, I was just feeling weak and sluggish, thinking I'd be fine in an hour or two - maybe even get up and dressed and actually DO something, you know. And THEN the headache started. *sigh* Divine punishment for calling in sick when I should just grit my teeth and get going?... Yeah right. *snort*
Well, considering that management wants us to use up at least half of our vacation time by the end of August, I certainly shouldn't have any qualms about taking a sickie whenever I feel like it. It's just that I was hoping I might actually be able to use those days for, you know, making plans and getting stuff done. I was hoping those times when I needed a sickie each month were finally over. But it looks like I was spectacularly wrong.:/
I'll stop whinging now, and go lay down for a bit. And yes, read about beautiful supernatural beings who don't get sick and don't feel the urge to vomit at the sight/smell of their own blood. What a concept, non? I takes a majestic flight of the imagination - and that's precisely what I need. To forget the ugly "human condition", at least for a little while...
Yes, in case you're still wondering what prompted this, I got my period last night. It was very much on time, and the PMS lasted only about two days - which is fine. What bothers me is how ridiculously bllleeerghhh I have felt for most of today, including a horrid tension headache which only just eased a bit in the past few hours. Normally, I would get the worst of the headache just BEFORE the bleeding started - then it would gradually go away. This time, the headache started intensifying just as I was thinking that the worst of the entire ordeal was over. I wonder why. Could it be dehydration? Obviously, I didn't have much of an appetite this morning, but I did drink lots of water - or so it seemed. Maybe when I can't force myself to eat, I should be drinking twice as much as usual - but I hate doing that, because then I have to keep running to the loo all the time, and during THAT time of the month, each visit to the loo is just hideously messy. And the fact that I am bleeding much more than I used to certainly doesn't help. I am not accustomed to such heavy bleeding, and it sort of nauseates me. So I don't want to eat or drink, but I am forcing myself to, in the hopes that it will make the headache go away - and when that fails, I finally give up and take painkillers (even thought the mere thought of swallowing pills filled with chemicals also nauseates me). At least that's what happened today. So I don't really know why the headache was so bad (dehydration? low blood sugar? the heavy bleeding itself?), or what finally made it ease up (the food/water or the Ibuprofen). At any rate, I'm glad I called in sick to work - otherwise I'd be incredibly miserable. But the funny thing is, when I called in, I was just feeling weak and sluggish, thinking I'd be fine in an hour or two - maybe even get up and dressed and actually DO something, you know. And THEN the headache started. *sigh* Divine punishment for calling in sick when I should just grit my teeth and get going?... Yeah right. *snort*
Well, considering that management wants us to use up at least half of our vacation time by the end of August, I certainly shouldn't have any qualms about taking a sickie whenever I feel like it. It's just that I was hoping I might actually be able to use those days for, you know, making plans and getting stuff done. I was hoping those times when I needed a sickie each month were finally over. But it looks like I was spectacularly wrong.:/
I'll stop whinging now, and go lay down for a bit. And yes, read about beautiful supernatural beings who don't get sick and don't feel the urge to vomit at the sight/smell of their own blood. What a concept, non? I takes a majestic flight of the imagination - and that's precisely what I need. To forget the ugly "human condition", at least for a little while...
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Date: 2013-02-08 03:36 pm (UTC)My body surprised me with a period yesterday - about a week early. No cramps before so it was a big surprise. Ugh.
On the other hand - I'm kinda happy to get it more at the beginning of a month again because of holiday planning ... hehe ...
Anyway - hope you feel better by now! *hugs*
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Date: 2013-02-09 02:29 am (UTC)I do feel better, thanks. Even though the headache isn't gone completely - I sort of feel it simmering in the background, which really sucks. And I hate to take painkillers, unless absolutely necessary... *sigh*