floatingleaf: (despair)
[personal profile] floatingleaf
I'm back. It's been an intense trip, for several reasons, and I'm sort of having a hard time figuring out what to say about it. I could just focus on the positives - but that wouldn't feel entirely honest, and this journal has always been THE place where I could be honest about pretty much anything. I don't want that to change. But I don't want to sound negative either - that would be unfair, and also dishonest, in a way. And I don't want to sound ridiculously cryptic - because if I'm gonna do that, I might just as well not post at all.

Maybe I need some time to sort through all those conflicting emotions before I even attempt a recap. Or maybe it's enough to say that online compatibility isn't quite the same thing as "real life" compatibility, and some friendships function better without crossing that line. Or perhaps the ease of online interactions has the unfortunate side effect of raising the bar impossibly high when it comes to our expectations of RL encounters. Even when we think we're being realistic.

See, that sounded negative. But I can't make a happy post just now. I probably can't even make a fair, objective one, because I am engaging a considerable effort of will in order to keep my mood from a massive downward plunge. I am sure the crisis will pass eventually, like others did before it. But I need time to adjust to these new perceptions, and I think I'd rather stay quiet on here for a bit than put the precarious emotional balance in peril by wallowing in it. Time will tell if I am overreacting again, I suppose...

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Date: 2014-05-29 05:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] elven-ranger.livejournal.com
Welcome back! And don't worry about being negative- it's your LJ, and, hell, most of my posts are at the moment...

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Date: 2014-05-29 02:10 pm (UTC)
meathiel: (Hugs)
From: [personal profile] meathiel
Oh no ... I'm so sorry! *big hugs*

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Date: 2014-05-29 05:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tindomerel.livejournal.com
Hmm... Expectations sometimes do this, I suppose. But it's confusing and strange and how would we ever know for sure where the line goes without crossing it?

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Date: 2014-05-30 12:23 am (UTC)
cloudsinvenice: "everyone's mental health is a bit shit right now, so be gentle" (Default)
From: [personal profile] cloudsinvenice
I find it can be very surreal meeting someone in person that you're very connected to online; there's a massive cognitive dissonance on some occasions, and on othets strangely none at all, and there seems to be no reliable predictor of which one it'll be. I think part of it is that communication style varies so profoundly between mediums (and for both parties) that you've got one person in your head, but are interacting with another, and it can take time, exposure and reflection to fully process the overlap.

<3
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