another disjointed ramble

[floatingleaf]

So we had this meeting recently at work, where the boss showed us how to use this new fancy "employee absence tracker" computer program, and while we talked about that, it was brought to my attention that we have TEN sick days, as well as TEN vacation days and THREE personal days off available to use each year. Yes, even if it's the first year of employment (of course, those who have worked significantly longer have even more). I have to say that's more than I ever heard of at any other workplace. My best-paying job (the one that seemed so grand until they laid me off with no warning) offered 8 sickies, one personal day and about five days' vacation at the end of the first year - which I didn't use then, but waited till about the middle of the second year, so that I could take ten days off at a time. Now I have barely started, and I can already go on a two-week vacation this very summer (not that I have any plans what to do with that as of right now - but still, it's nice to know). As for the sickies, I would never use that many if I dutifully waited till I got really sick - so I took one today.:P I mean, I have my period, and I pretty much felt like shit this morning, so it wasn't completely unmotivated; but it's nothing I haven't dealt with before, and I could have gritted my teeth and gone to work, if I had to. Except I didn't.:D I mean, why sit there all day with an aching gut, if I can stay home, stretched out comfortably on my new, beautiful sofa bed, with a new, beautiful Viggorli fanzine for company, and still get paid??? A moot question, I guess.:P

Yes, my copy of the new fanzine is already in my possession; has been for some time (in fact, it arrived about two days after I ordered it, which is pretty amazing), but I have barely started on it. I mean to savor it slowly and deliciously over the next few weeks (so far, the two stories that hit me the most were the ones by rainweaver13 and namarie120 - but that is no surprise whatsoever, since these two talented ladies usually score very high with me ;P). After all, there were also about 30 new A/L treats over at the ficathon. I feel pretty much gorged on tasty slash right now.:D

My ex-roommate never got back to me about that stupid AT&T customer code I need in order to try and retrieve my Yahoo account. What's more, I know for certain she doesn't mean to. How? Very simple. I accidentally happen to remember the password to HER OWN Yahoo account, because occasionally, when we had connection problems back at her place, we used to try and log on to the net directly through the IP address - using her password, but on my computer (we were using the same DSL account). So I accessed her account - just to check if she got my email. I didn't open any of her messages, just looked for mine - and it wasn't there. Weird, but things happen - so I emailed her again, this time checking right after sending if it popped up in her inbox. It did. About two days later I checked again - and it was gone, just like before. Deleted without responding - possibly even without reading. I admit I find this quite unsettling, and it makes me even more reluctant to call her on the phone. I just didn't think she hated me THAT much. It wouldn't cost her any effort to give me that damned code - it would have taken 30 seconds to look up the phone bill. And yet, she won't. I can't help wondering whether she simply doesn't give a f**k, or possibly thinks I might use the code in some harmful way. I don't know, maybe I'm paranoid - but since she is already convinced that I am a slob who avoids household chores and clogs drains, she might just as well accuse me of even nastier stuff. Somehow that wouldn't surprise me much. *scowl* Or is she just pissed off that I left without saying goodbye?... I really don't think she cared enough for that. She didn't exactly act like she wanted to say: 'well, it's been nice', or wish me luck at the new place. She acted like she couldn't wait for me to be gone. Unless I'm being paranoid on that account as well. I've been known to exaggerate people's negative reactions through the magnifying glass of my insecurities. Not that it matters anymore, as far as the case in question is concerned. Either way, or whichever other way, I don't think I'll be able to force myself to get in touch with her again... unless she contacts me first. By the way, I'm sure there must be some mail for me still coming to her address - mostly junk, I bet; but still, if she gave a flying f**k, she would at least call and ask if it's OK to throw it out. Still, nothing. So I guess I might just as well say goodbye to my Yahoo account. If it's not deleted already (it might not be, because, as far as I know, email accounts only get wiped after they haven't been accessed in three months). I will probably never know... *sigh*

EDIT: I just ran a spell check on this post, which I hardly ever do - and here are some replacements it suggested for "Viggorli": Wiggle, Giggle, Jiggle, Gigolo and - lo and behold! - Viagra. *sporfle* Oh, the endless creativity of Microsoft.:D If I didn't know better, I could almost take it as a deliberate insult to my OTP. *shakes head, giggling helplessly, and goes back to regularly scheduled porn ;)*

Comments

[oceansecrets2.livejournal.com]

I admire you being able to savor the fanzine - I pretty much churned through mine within two days (self-control? what's that??) I do still have some LAS ficathon reading to catch up on, though. I'm glad you enjoyed Flight!

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

I guess for me the ficathon was a priority, because I am always more hungry for A/L than for V/O. Besides, I like to savor the good stuff and prolong the pleasure.:D

And Flight was simply glorious. I think it's one of the best stories you've ever written. You really have a knack for the romantic stuff.;)

And your icon!... OMG those drawings are amazing. *dies from an overload of beauty*

[oceansecrets2.livejournal.com]

That's kind of funny considering how unhappy I was with it as I was writing it! It was such a departure from anything I'd written before and it just didn't feel like I was finding the words I wanted. But reafre's illustration was so completely what I had imagined that it made me feel much better, since she was abviously seeing what I was trying to say.

[stormatdusk.livejournal.com]

viagara - ha! i was JUST looking at the suggestions for viggo recently, and they're fun too.

yay for a sick day when you don't absolutely positively NEED it!

[rainweaver13.livejournal.com]

*raising hand* Another race horse here. I gobbled my book within 48 hours of receiving it. No dick control whatsoever.

The plan now is to read back through it slowly and this time leave comments for those hard-working writers.

And thanks for noticing "General Principles." It's sort of a departure for me, so I'm interested in seeing how its received.

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Heh. I think pretty much everything you write is a departure from the ordinary. In a good way.:)