real life strikes again

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We had another one of those meetings at work today, where they give us updates on the whole outsourcing process going on across all the companies owned by Nielsen (who bought us soon after I was hired). And they said that even though at this point they still don't know how many people will be laid off, we can expect to find out who goes & who stays by early September - if not sooner than that. So much for it NOT happening this year. *sigh* And since they have aready determined that a large part of our data processing can be safely & conveniently transferred over to that consulting company in India, the likelihood of 'bottom level' employees like me getting to stay is very low indeed. Yes, I know there are only three of us dealing with International Media Guides, and they might want to keep at least one person on site in charge of that particular section of our products - but then, I am the one most recently hired = least experienced of the three, so it's not a big stretch to imagine I would be the first one out the door. And since I was hired in late November'06, I won't even last till my second anniversary (and my severance won't even equal two weeks' pay, since it's gonna be a week per each year of service). How profoundly pathetic. How fucking predictable. I am 37, and my record time staying at one workplace is 2,5 years. So I find it viciously ironic when I hear people complain about being stuck somewhere for too long and feeling sick & tired of the 'same old, same old'. I would be ECSTATIC if I could actually keep one job for long enough to get a reasonable raise, or be able to take more than 10 vacation days per year (let alone actually saving something for retirement). But I just have this feeling it's never going to happen. Either because the economy/job market sucks, or because my luck sucks - or because I personally suck at life in general, or at least the social/financial aspect of it; whichever you prefer. The result is basically the same. Why, oh why can't I live on an uninhabited island, where there is no money, no jobs, no corporations, and food just grows on trees & falls into your mouth?... I was born in the wrong era, obviously. I just don't want to deal with recruiting agencies, HR personnel and the whole rat race anymore. I want to sit in the grass watching butterflies. Does that mean I should have been thrown off a cliff right after birth, to make room for all the up-and-coming go-getters who are 15 years younger and earn three times as much?... I'm not envious at all, mind you - I just want enough to pay my (not so) meager rent and be left in peace. Is that too much to ask?

Sorry. I guess I needed to vent a little. At least this journal is still good for something - since recently I don't seem to have much to say, unless I'm either worried or pissed off (or both, as happens to be the case right now). There's nothing like verbal autotherapy, lol. *a rueful headshake, closely followed by a yawn*

Comments

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I know it's not my fault that they're laying me off... but if I wasn't so rabidly antisocial and could actually handle any type of 'client-facing' position, I would be safe, because those positions are not being cut. It's only the 'data maintenance' (or, as I call it, 'computer-facing') staff that can be easily disposed of - and, ironically enough, that's about the only kind of work I feel comfortable with. *heavy sigh*

Thanks for the kind words, though. Maybe your positive thoughts will help.:)