floatingleaf: (crave)
2012-12-20 11:55 pm
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I'm dreaming of a gothy Christmas ;P

Looks like taking tomorrow off was a very smart move. That winter storm I mentioned... it's probably going to roll through the area sometime tonight/tomorrow morning. Today was just wet and dreary, for the most part, but now the wind is really picking up. No snow so far, but I can feel through the cracks in my ancient windowframes that the temperature is dropping. Freezing rain is definitely one of my LEAST favorite things to be outside in, so I'll be more than happy to stay home until it blows over. Grocery shopping can wait until Saturday, which is supposed to be sunny and dry. Tomorrow I'll probably clean the place, decorate my tree (my evergreen potted plant, that is, which does a pretty good job of pretending to be a Christmas tree - I wouldn't bother getting a "real" one, I have no room for it anyway), dye my hair (which is long overdue), watch a movie... Then, either on Sunday night or Monday morning, I'll be heading over to my parents' house for two days of appalling gluttony.;D I'll let you know how well my stomach handled it this time.:P

Also, did I mention I can hardly wait for my new Lacrimosa CD?... I have managed to resist downloading the album so far, but of course I've been listening to samples on their website, and checking out videos on YouTube. For some reason, they are immensely popular in Mexico (though not in the US, as far as I can tell) - so there's a ton of fanvids of their songs with Spanish subtitles. Here's one of them:



I know the English lyrics sound a little awkward at times - that's pretty much the only thing about Lacrimosa that's not utterly perfect to me, btw. They're probably trying to be more accessible to an international audience - but I think including English translations of the lyrics in their CD booklets (which they've always done) is more than good enough for that purpose. Besides, you don't really need to understand every word in order to appreciate the music. Personally, I'd rather understand less than listen to lyrics that obviously need some corrections. But I'm famous for being a grammar nazi.;P Btw, I feel the same way when Polish rock/metal bands try to sing in English, with mixed results. Sometimes their original lyrics are quite good and ambitious, while the English versions sound awkward and simplistic. How is that supposed to be helping the band's image? I have a feeling it's the same way with Lacrimosa - when I read the translations of the songs originally written in German, I can tell they have a lot of depth despite the linguistic imperfections; but the ones written and sung in English are not nearly as interesting. That's just the lyrics, though; the music is unfailingly gorgeus throughout, and in the end, that's what really matters...
floatingleaf: (bauble)
2012-12-17 09:40 pm
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let it snow or whatever - just don't make me listen to that song again, kthxbai

As I might have mentioned, I was still off today, so I decided to do some last-minute Christmas shopping (yesterday was filled up with getting groceries and cooking, as well as phoning my dear friend in Poland whose birthday is today; btw, she is the same friend I had called before on my international cellphone plan, this was the third time we talked so far, and even though we kept getting disconnected, it was still great to hear her, and she sounded very happy to know I haven't forgotten...;). Mostly I wanted to get a little something for the three friends I am meeting for dinner the week after Christmas; but as it usually happens when I am not looking for anything specific, I found a whole bunch of stuff for myself instead.:P Read more... )
floatingleaf: (despair)
2012-12-15 11:25 pm

not going through menopause yet, after all ;)

Well... I did get my period after all. I really wasn't sure it was actually coming this time - everything felt so weird I didn't know what to think. But here it is. Read more... )

Yes, I am aware that The Hobbit movie is out already. No, I haven't seen it. I probably will, at some point, but I don't have any immediate plans in that regard. It seems I am unable to be really "into" something which is quite popular at the moment. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (Rossetti flaming hair)
2012-12-13 10:45 pm

I am here, but my inner hard drive needs a reboot :/

As you may have noticed, my brain hasn't been very cooperative in the posting department of late. It's not that I have nothing to talk about - it's more that on most evenings, formulating coherent sentences seems too much of an effort. I read my flist every day - I just don't have the wherewithall to comment much (if any). It's as though I have become even more introverted, if at all possible (now that's a troubling thought, if I ever had one... LOL). I am also in a strange physical/mental state resulting - most likely - from the hormonal changes my body seems to be going through. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (gothic)
2012-12-07 11:57 pm
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I lack the brainpower for a real post, so have a picspam

While I'm waiting for the new CD that's supposed to end up under the tree in less than 3 weeks (to quote my sister, "the elves are on it" ;P), here's a little something to celebrate my favorite band. Twenty years of incredible music, and they're maturing beautifully - like good wine...

Lacrimosa )
floatingleaf: (fallen leaf)
2012-12-03 10:50 pm
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a meme that's long overdue

So, there is this meme I stole a while back from [personal profile] goddessofchaos. I give you a letter and you have to write about 10 things to do with that letter and what they mean to you. [personal profile] goddessofchaos gave me M. Took me long enough to come up with ten things starting with M that I wanted to write about, but here they are. Oh, and if you want a random letter from me, let me know.:)

my 10 things )
floatingleaf: (black hat)
2012-12-01 11:17 pm

mundane musings of a bargain queen ;)

Wow. My Christmas shopping is done already. Well... most of it, anyway. The Polish bookstore where I always get gifts for my mom (she always wants books, and she doesn't read in English) had a major sale today, and I bought her three novels at a very nice discount. And that was really the only place I needed to visit in person. I ordered all my other gifts online. Moreover - smart girl that I am - I had them shipped directly to my parents' house. So that all I will need to do on Christmas Eve is change the packaging.;) Actually, my sister's gift, which is an art book from her Amazon wishlist, will come nicely wrapped already. So I really made it easy for myself this year.:P Incidentally, I also made it easy for everyone else, since I told them exactly what I want.:D My dad is getting me a new printer/scanner/copier, since my old one isn't working anymore (I've had it since 2003). Mom is getting me a new electric kettle (again, the old one is starting to act wonky, and I am ALWAYS making tea, so an operational kettle is a must). And my sister has a choice between two things: the new Lacrimosa album, which just came out in October (perfect timing, non?...), or Claudia's Story - a graphic novel based on Interview with the Vampire, which came out a little earlier this year. I am secretly hoping she will get me both.;) Actually, my fingers were really itching to order that Lacrimosa CD as soon as I found out about it - I've seen some gushing reviews on Amazon - but since last year I bought my sister the new album of a Polish rock band we both love, I thought it fitting that this time she should return the gift of music, so to speak. Now I just need to curb my excitement for a few more weeks...

Read more... )
floatingleaf: (hmmm)
2012-12-01 12:12 am

yaaaaawn

Still SOOO tired. Had this absolutely ridiculous dream last night, wherein I was supposedly a vampire, though I can't recall any specifically vampiric activities (let alone how I became one, which might have actually been interesting...;P). All I know is that I told my sister, who thought it was cool (she wanted to see my fangs... LOL), but went to great lengths to hide the fact from my parents. Anyway... the dream was extremely complicated, plotty and multilayered, but as it usually happens with such dreams, I couldn't remember a damned thing when I woke up.:/ Just this general feeling of complexity and intrigue... I think there might have been a number of alternate universes in the dream that I kept moving between, somehow. I get this notion that I was perhaps escaping from one universe to another, to avoid punishment for some terrible crimes (of which, fortunately, I also have no recollection). Or maybe some vampire hunters were after me.:D Anyway, the whole thing lasted no more than an hour (I woke up from it about an hour after I'd first fallen asleep), but felt like several lifetimes cramped into one. Too much fanfiction, you think?... *amused headshake*

Speaking of fanfiction - my latest favorite quote goes something like this: "his eyes were a dark violet blue, the color of lust". I tend to get random quotes stuck in my brain, especially when I devour as much fanfic on a daily basis as I do now. I should post a "quote of the week" series or something.;P

Crap... my brain has decided to shut down for the night. I need SLEEEEEP...
floatingleaf: (migraine)
2012-11-28 09:47 pm

it's the slash that keeps me going :)

See what the amazing [personal profile] meathiel made for me! *points at icon* :D

And yes, that would be more or less how I feel today. I did go to bed at eleven sharp last night, and fell asleep pretty quickly... but then I woke up at five, again, and somehow my body decided that we were done sleeping.:/ So I'm still utterly exhausted. Even coffee didn't do much for me this morning. I suppose I need much more than 6 hours of sleep to recover from yesterday's tension... or perhaps I am coming down with something, who knows. I just feel... drained. And not in a good way, in case you're wondering (*points at icon again*).:P

Two more days until the weekend... *weary sigh*
floatingleaf: (green eyes)
2012-11-27 10:13 pm

why I suck at life

So I went to this training session today. Had to get up at 5:30, which was, all by itself, quite traumatic.;) Then I somehow got off the bus at the wrong place again (despite having taken the trip beforehand) and couldn't find the train station (which was very close to where I was, actually, but I just didn't see it for some reason). Whereupon I panicked that I was going to be late, and almost took the bus in the wrong direction (luckily I got my bearings before I made that mistake, LOL). Then the train I got on was awfully crowded, and I almost panicked that I wasn't going to be able to squeeze out of it when my stop came along. In short, I was incredibly tense by the time I arrived (I was 20 minutes early, btw). Read more... )
floatingleaf: (candle)
2012-11-25 10:47 pm

brief and random

Allright. So I defeated the dustbunnies today (there were ridiculous amounts of them all over the place, but now they're GONE). And then I made food. And then I did the final segment of Anat Baniel's "Healthy Necks & Shoulders" exercise program (which I've been going through, for the second or third time, for the past two weeks). (By the way, those exercises are awesome, and if you haven't heard of Anat Baniel, do yourself a favor and check her out; her DVD's are pricey, but worth every penny and then some, especially if you have any back or neck pain, or feel older then you think you should. She is a powerful healer, in the widest sense of the word.) Oh, and I also ordered some Christmas gifts online. In short, I can't remember the last time I felt so productive.;D

AND I uploaded some icons I had found last night. See, I realized I didn't have any icons from Interview with the Vampire, and suddenly it seemed imperative that I find some. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (vanishing point)
2012-11-23 11:55 pm
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my sad little adventures, LOL

So this is a five-day weekend - you'd think I would get sooo much accomplished, right?... Sadly, the more time I THINK I have, the faster it disappears with barely a trace of its passing. Yesterday was Thanksgiving, obviously, which means I spent most of the day at my parents' house, stuffing my face with food. And today I had to take a trip to the city, because next Tuesday I am supposed to go to this one-day training course taking place at a hotel downtown. So I needed to make sure I know where exactly the hotel is and how long it might take me to get there. I always do that when I am expected to show up at some unfamiliar location at a certain time - I actually go there beforehand to get a "feel" of the area and the "logistics" of finding my way around it. Otherwise I am extremely anxious and afraid of getting lost and never actually making it there, or arriving ridiculously late (which has actually happened on a number of occasions). So anyway... this took far longer than expected due to a number of circumstances. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (sad Sinead)
2012-11-22 01:25 am
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not for the faint of heart

I just watched In the Land of Blood and Honey. You know, the movie about the war in Bosnia, directed by Angelina Jolie. I really want to say something coherent and intelligent about it, but I don't have the words. The fact is that it blew me away with its raw brutality. It flattened me into the chair. I guess I expected something tamer, some sanitized version of events for the American audience. But this film is devastatingly honest about the realities of war, as seen through the eyes of women. I have a whole new level of appreciation for Angelina now. I really didn't think anyone with ties to Hollywood capable of such uncompromising realism. Yes, there is a love story in there, but there's nothing - absolutely nothing - "Hollywood" about it. It is as uncomfortable, and ultimately terrifying, as the circumstances in which it happens. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (croissant)
2012-11-20 11:27 pm
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mission accomplished... sort of

Well... looks like I'm not destined to become a fruitarian.;) Which I kind of suspected, anyway. Surprisingly enough, it wasn't about lack of willpower. I was pretty determined to go through with my little experiment - and when I do set my mind on something, I can be "stubborn as a mule" (as my mother likes to put it). However, my body told me in no uncertain terms that I had ventured into dangerous territory. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (cherries)
2012-11-17 11:33 pm
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keep your fingers crossed :)

So... I've been thinking of a way to deal with the pesky weight gain problem. I know I'm most likely never going to be slim again, and that's OK; but I refuse to sit back and wait until all my favorite clothes no longer fit. It's happened before, and I hate the way it makes me feel when it happens. So I've got to do something. I still have my info kit from WeightWatchers - I could look it up and start counting points again. But somehow that feels like too much effort. And don't even get me started on some intensive exercise regime - I'm trying to get back to doing ANY exercise at all, just to avoid muscle atrophy, and I know myself well enough by now to abandon any delusions of ever achieving anything beyond a mild 30-minute workout 2-3 times a week. It never happened when I was younger, and it's not going to happen now. But I've thought of something else. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (Rossetti flaming hair)
2012-11-11 10:20 pm

ruminations on a rainy night ;)

So... I did get my period properly, so to speak, sometime yesterday. And by now I am feeling more or less fine. Still, it was a week early, and I have no slightest clue when to expect the next one. At least it didn't knock me out too badly - though I guess having a lazy weekend at home made it as bearable as can be. But apparently I no longer need to spend hours in bed on the worst day of it, which is an unexpected bonus. Seriously, it's been the bane of my existence for many years. I am still a bit sluggish and get tired more easily... but that's a far cry from being completely incapacitated for 10-15 hours at a time. So perhaps there is a good side to all those weird hormonal changes as well...

But another thing that's bothering me is that I am gaining weight. Slowly enough that it took me a while to notice, but yes - there's no denying it any more. Read more... )
floatingleaf: (red leaf)
2012-11-07 10:45 pm

a little bit of everything, I guess

Looks like I haven't posted here a bit longer than usual. I totally meant to do so last Saturday, but somehow ended up too braindead in the evening after a day of errands and stuff... And now I feel like there's too much I want to talk about and I can't decide where to start. So what's new?... LOL.

Well... all those long, rambling posts I've been making in my head while I go about my daily routine are irretrievable, I guess (unless I take a month off work and spend most of that time typing them up, which is not an option). Instead, I give you a brief, random bullet point update that may seem incredibly shallow and inconsequential. Oh well... c'est la vie, I suppose. *sigh*

1) Most people on my flist, American and otherwise, have made some sort of comment on yesterday's big event, and I don't want to leave the impression that I am ignoring it completely - so I should probably say something too. Problem is, I could either make a long, rambling post on my general, deeply ingrained cynicism in regards to politics (and I obviously have no time for that), or simply shrug and breathe a quiet sigh of relief that the pre-election media frenzy is over. And yes, I am profoundly glad that Obama won - but I also freely admit that said gladness has much less to do with my opinion of Obama than it does with my opinion of Romney. There. Enough said.:P

female physiology related complaint and other random stuff behind the cut )
floatingleaf: (vampire love)
2012-10-27 10:03 pm

there I go again *headdesk*

Because the month is almost over, and because I'm having the "scattered brain syndrome" again, let's try to facilitate this post by making it the next installment of the 30-day-meme.

Day 20 - This month, in great detail )
floatingleaf: (bookish leaf)
2012-10-22 10:20 pm
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bookworm paradise :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, [personal profile] gairid!!! I hope it was a good one. It's a bit late, I know, but I've been thinking of you fondly.;)

I wish I could write more, but it's back to work tomorrow, and I should be in bed soon. The weather is very wet and depressing, and I have zero motivation to "go out into the world". I just want to stay home and read. I have books, I have comics, I have fanfic, I have LJ, I have an old journal that I found in my old bedroom at my parents' house... Why would I need anything else?... Why do people ever do anything OTHER than read or write?... I mean, really. Unless it's, perhaps, daydreaming about stuff they've read, or written, or want to read or write. LOL. Yes, that's the sort of mental space I'm in right now. Very surprising, I know.;P
floatingleaf: (green eyes)
2012-10-20 11:55 pm
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last one for today, I swear

I wonder if I've ever made three LJ posts in a single day. I don't think so. This will be a first, then. Because I am on a roll, and I've been thinking about the next installment of the 30-day meme...

Day 19 – Something you regret, in great detail )