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Oh yeah. Everything makes sense after all. I just decided today I'm much better off as A.'s sidekick than I would be as her cheated wife.:)) She actually asked: "How do you think you would feel being with someone like me?", and, well... I had to admit it was a good question.:)) But I guess I am repeating myself. I already said she was the wrong one for me. And I know what I'm talking about, because I know her - we are really good friends after all...

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So this is what I'm thinking right now: is it possible to have an affair with a close friend and than switch back to being "just" friends, as though nothing had happened? I guess I'm soon going to find out.:)) But I have a feeling that it depends on how strong and deep the friendship was in the first place. If I am right, I shouldn't worry. But come to think of this, I seem to realize that the only one who might actually have a problem with switching back to the status quo is me. Does it mean I have felt more than friendship all along? Quite possible.:)) I just never thought the feeling might be returned. So I finally pushed it somewhere to the back of my mind. And now it just sprang up again. Too easily. Like it's been waiting all the while for some slightest sign. I wonder how long it's gonna take before I push it back again...