seriously... where the FUCK does the time go???

[floatingleaf]

Today was another failure of a day. Again, it took me several hours to decide what I needed from the grocery store - and when I finally put myself together and went there, I got drenched in buckets of torrential rain on my way back. Of course, minutes after I got home - looking like a wet rat, I might add - the rain stopped. But when I changed all my clothes and went out again, to the other grocery store, the skies opened for the second time. Now I had an umbrella, though, so I only got soaked from the knees down.:| Anyway... I had been planning to cook tonight, but somehow lost the will to do it after this little adventure, so I decided to spend the evening making a long LJ post instead. Except the long post never materialized either, as you can see. It was the usual "OMG I have so much to say I don't know where to start", and then "OMG why is my brain a blank now???" syndrome.:/

And now it's late and I just want to sleep. Gahhh. This is so pathetic I can't even. How do people manage to actually DO STUFF on weekends, like go to clubs or the movies or see friends or whatever?... I barely seem able to cope with the basics. Is it just me, or is this what "middle age" feels like? If so, then I don't want. I need extra 12 hours added to each day - otherwise it just doesn't make sense anymore. I might just as well die now, because I will never do anything worthwhile again. Unless I hire someone to take care of all my daily chores for me - but then I would need to work two jobs so I could afford it, which would defeat the purpose. Anyway, I'll stop babbling and go to bed. No need to make this overwhelming feeling of futility worse by wallowing in it.:/

Comments

[tindomerel.livejournal.com]

I really have no idea how people manage it. I surely don't because I feel completely exhausted & stressed out in such a hectic pace of life.

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Getting exhausted with social contact is only part of the problem for me; another part is that somehow everything seems to be taking longer than it used to, and I still have the same amount of hours available to do it. For example, I need more sleep now than I did a few years ago - but if I sleep more, I have less time to do my chores, catch up on the internet stuff etc. And, obviously, I still have to work 40 hours a week, which is also more tiring than it used to be.:/ It feels like a trap with no way out, really. *sigh*

[meathiel]

I feel you ... I definitely do.
I've actually thought about getting a cleaner several times but ... then I'd need to work more as well. *sigh*

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

I know. I SHOULD be cleaning more often than I do now - especially in the summer. My place tends to get very dusty very soon, probably due to the fact that at least one window is always open (the one with the fan in it). But I simply don't have the time to dust everything every weekend... which probably doesn't help my allergies, either. *sigh*

need extra 12 hours added to each day

[elven-ranger.livejournal.com]

same!

Re: need extra 12 hours added to each day

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Oh, but you actually do tons of awesome and worthwhile stuff with your time. I often wonder how you manage it all... Honestly, I'm pretty sure that if I ever tried to live life at your pace, I'd be dead by now.:P

[samtyr.livejournal.com]

If you ever find out, please let me know ok?
::stares at clock::

*hugs*

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Hah. Sure will.:P

[goddessofchaos.livejournal.com]

This is the story of most of my weekends =/ They always seem so full of promise, so long and empty... and then it's Sunday evening and somehow the time has flown by and I've only done a tiny fraction of what I intended - or none of it at all =/ It's insane. And I'm only 36! If it gets worse from here on, I might as well give up!

[poeticknowledge.livejournal.com]

I hear you! I've been through this sooooo many times, especially since I started working full-time! :/ I used to have so much time to respond to letters and do other things and now that I work 5 days a week, I hardly feel like doing much when I get home each day, aside from relaxing and then the weekend comes and I face the constant dilemma of: "Should I get things done (i.e. respond to my backlog of long overdue letters, etc.) or should I just RELAX?" Even when I'm hanging out with friends on the weekend, I still don't feel like I have enough time to do the things I want -- social outings can leave me exhausted too since I'm an introvert by nature and restore more of my energy by being alone than in being in a crowd.....what a conundrum! And then I still don't get as much done as I'd want to....it's a constant struggle, but I digress....

[floatingleaf.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, working full time is a bitch.:/ Sadly, if you're a single woman, living by yourself and paying your own bills, you don't really have a choice in the matter... *sigh*