Snagged from carynita:



Buahahahaaa OMG. *flips over* Sorry, ancabell...;) But how fitting. Especially the final line. *sporfle*

And yes, I am feeling rather uneasy about what LJ is doing; but at the same time, I don't think I will be moving anywhere else anytime soon. I've had this journal for over four years, and I just don't find the thought of starting from scratch again very appealing. Besides, there is no guarantee that similar problems will not eventually arise in whichever different blogspace the 'questionable' fandoms decide to move to. And just thinking of keeping multiple online journals makes me feel schizoid somehow. I guess I'm weird that way. Yes, I theoretically have one on GreatestJournal, where I made a few entries sometime in 2005 or 2006 - but I sort of forgot about it, and when I recently tried to access it again, it turned out I needed a password reminder... which, of course, would be sent to the unfortunate Yahoo email address I can't access anymore either (thanks to my #@%$& ex-roommate). So, I guess I'll just say screw it and forget about it for good.:|

In other news, no call so far regarding my not-quite-successful sleep study. And it's been over two weeks. *sigh*

Speaking of which, I should be getting ready for bed... but instead here I sit, browsing LJ and downloading music from mp3sugar.com (more Lacrimosa, yay! :P). Not that it would necessarily have helped if I had gone to bed early. And when I wake up feeling crappy, it doesn't really make that much of a difference whether I think it's my fault or not. *shrug*

Just booked my plane tickets for Toronto. Looks like I am REALLY going there. OMG. *blinks*

I am NOT going to think about the possibility of actually seeing Viggo in person, because that just might be a little bit more excitement than I can handle. *wibbles*

Shit, it's late. *shuts up and logs off*

Snagged from rainweaver13:

Link: The Greek Mythology Personality Test written by Aleph_Nine on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

( In other news, I am a loser and I feel cheated again. )

OK, that's it. I seriously can't take it anymore. I woke up so tired and worn out this morning I actually felt like crying. Even though I had taken a brisk, refreshing walk the previous evening and gone to bed before midnight. And I know I did sleep - for most of the night anyway - because I could easily recall snatches of dreams in the morning. And yet, the headache I've been having all day is the exact kind of headache I usually get after a sleepless night. There is something seriously wrong with me. I can't wait for that damn sleep study. And if they happen to tell me that they don't know what my problem is, I just might shoot myself. Because I'd rather be completely dead once and for all than feel half-dead most of the time (actually, that's an understatement; I feel at least two-thirds dead at the moment :/). And apparently it shows, because my coworker from the next cubicle - a funny guy with a twisted sense of humor - tells me that on most mornings I look like I had partied, drunk and smoked all night. Except I never smoked, haven't partied in years, and the only alcohol I consume these days is an occasional single glass of white wine with dinner. And the way I look in the mornings is no surprise to me, because I've gotten used to it over the years. And if anyone else ever noticed anything unusual about it, they were too polite to tell me (maybe they just assumed I really had partied all night...:|). They only raised their eyebrows if they happened to ask me about my plans for a given weekend/holiday etc., and my immediate response was "catch up on my sleep". Actually, I've just realized that this is probably my most frequent answer to any inquiries about my plans - and that in itself is kind of alarming. I seem to be forever trying to catch up on my sleep, and never quite succeeding. Not for a long time, anyway. I've also just realized that sometimes people do say to me something like: "Wow, you look tired. What did you do all night?" - and I just stare at them blankly, not sure if I'm supposed to laugh or what. Because they're certainly not expecting an answer along the lines of: "Well, I was trying to sleep", or "What did I do? Let me see... well, I had my dinner, checked my email, read a few pages of a story and then went to bed, because I was tired". OMG what an exhausting night. Anyone in their right mind would just snort in disbelief. Except that's the truth.:[

So, if it often seems to anyone reading this journal that I'm ignoring other people's posts and the world at large for long stretches of time, it is because I am not fully there. I spend a substantial part of my days in zombie-mode, struggling with drooping eyelids, throbbing headaches and a complete lack of energy or motivation to do anything other than stare blankly at my computer screen.:(

What more appropriate occasion to post something like that? :D (snagged from rainweaver13 and carynita)



To be honest, I didn't realize I was THAT militant.;P I am a very NON-political person, most of the time. But bigotry and homophobia make my blood boil. And when I saw the answer: "May the Fetus You Save Be Gay", I just couldn't resist it. God help me... I couldn't.;P

In other news, I just finished reading Size Matters. I enjoyed all the stories quite a lot, even if the characters didn't always closely resemble Viggo & Orlando.;P But of course it was far more gratifying if they did (yeah, call me hopeless; I have no shame on this one at all ;). So... I loved Snowfall in Seattle. That 'Lucia Logan' person (*wink wink*) has a very nice touch with the romantic stuff.:D Dreamscape International killed me dead ten times over... but that's no surprise either, since anything with Connie Bailey's name attached to it usually ends up on my favorites' list (can't wait for the promised continuation, btw!...). I was also nicely titillated by An Academic Dilemma - which, I think, is a very thinly veiled Viggorlibean (I could be wrong, but that's what my brain supplied me with anyway :P). OMG hottt. It's a shame I don't really know who 'Alix Bekins' is. Any helpful pointers, anyone? ;)

I also finished reading To Wherever It May Lead - quite some time ago, in fact; and I certainly intend to offer specific feedback to my favorite authors, as soon as I can sit quietly down and devote as much time to it as it deserves. That won't be today, though. Right now I am on the run again, to see akashaelfwitch for dinner, movies and some perving.:D It's becoming a habit... LOL. *grabs the EE of Two Towers and scampers off, skipping on the way like an excited teenager* ;P

So, I went to see a good friend of mine last night, and she suggested we watch a movie she had just rented. The History Boys. A British comedy about teachers, and high school students trying to get to Oxford & Cambridge. I said OK, basically to humor my friend, who is a teacher herself. I had no slightest inkling the movie was going to turn out this good. Basically, we were both totally floored by it. Just... O. M. G. Totally fucking brilliant (or 'brill', as the Brits would say ;). The dialog was killer (I LOVE British humor, give it to me anytime, I just adore the way it makes my brain work to catch the punch line... LOL), the portrayal of characters refreshingly honest, and the whole story just rocked the foundations of social bigotry down to the very core. I don't want to give any spoilers, but let me just say, as an incentive, that The Gay in this movie is not only a subtle undercurrent, but a powerful driving force, moving the plot along all on its own... LOL. So run to see it, folks, when you have the opportunity, and then come back here to discuss it with me.:D

( And, to top off the review... )

And now I gotta get my ass in gear, because I'm meeting akashaelfwitch for another round of POTC:AWE fangirling in about two hours.:) (After last night's dose of brainy entertainment, I'm just in the mood for some pretty Orlando and his unsurprisingly 'Aragornish' facial expressions worn to match the nice burgundy pirate shirt.;D) And then another friend - the one I saw last night - wants to drag me to some lesbian bar or cafe (a quiet place, I hope, because crowded dance floors somehow no longer hold the appeal they had for me a few years back...). OMG... what a weekend. *wipes brow* ;)

First day back at work after my unplanned sick leave, and everyone says I still sound awful. They should have heard me try to speak five days ago... lol.

Anyway... I spent most of the weekend hanging out with akashaelfwitch, watching movies. Yesterday was the annual Gay Pride Parade... but I didn't go. Even though a good friend of mine was planning on going, and called me to ask if I would join her. We went together last year, and it was great - but somehow this time the prospect of having to elbow my way through a crowd of sweaty strangers on a hot summer's day didn't seem half as appealing.:( Besides, it was Sunday morning, and my idea of a Sunday morning doesn't include getting up early and going out. On the contrary, it includes sleeping in, reading in bed, taking my time checking email & LJ over breakfast, which is then followed by a long bath... so by the time I'm dressed and ready to face the world, it's usually late afternoon.:) That's the main appeal of a Sunday for me, and apparently even a gay parade isn't enough incentive to change it any more. Which probably means that I'm becoming more and more antisocial/reclusive/lazy/set in my evil ways as I get older... *ponders*

In other news, apparently if you happen to be a 'legal alien' in the US and have a valid green card (which I do), you don't need a passport to go to Canada. You just present said green card at the airport and they let you in. Seems kinda strange, especially since regular US citizens need a passport; but that could be because a simple state ID/driver's license doesn't carry as much legal weight as a passport, while a permanent resident card certainly does (for one, you could never get it without having a valid passport AND a visa in the first place, so...). Anyway... in that case, I can safely plan for Toronto; provided that my vacation request is approved, of course (which it should be; unless someone else from my department asks for a vacation at the same time, which would be an evil coincidence indeed). So... keeping my fingers crossed on that account. *smiles hopefully*

Snagged from rainweaver13, again. Different result this time.:)

What color is your soul painted? Grey Your soul is painted the color grey, which embodies the characteristics of elegance, humility, respect, reverence, stability, subtlety, wisdom, strong emotions, balance, and cancellation. Grey falls under the element of Water, and symbolizes the moon, tide, ebb and flow. Click Here to Take This Quiz

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In other news, still feeling like shit. Or possibly worse.:( And guess what? My doctor is on vacation. Until the middle of July. *frustrated growl* And yes, there is another doctor covering for her, but she can see me no earlier than Wednesday afternoon. Hah. By then, I figure I'm going to either die, or recover all by myself.:D

( So what have I been doing today? )

Snagged from rainweaver13. And, again, we got the same result.:)
Not that my writing could ever come close to either hers or Virginia Woolf's... BUT. The 'inside my own head' focus is definitely there.:P




In other news, I am FINALLY going to see POTC:AWE tomorrow. With akashaelfwitch, who has seen it four times already (ahhh, the sacrifices we sometimes make for our friends... ;D). Yes, I had to wait for her to come to Chicago again, because none of the few friends I have here would even consider seeing a Disney movie.:P And I can't really explain to them why I want to see it - not without going into the whole slash thing. Because otherwise I probably wouldn't want to see it either. Btw, I just pictured myself saying something along the lines of: Yes, I want to see this movie for Orlando - not because I fancy him, but because I think Viggo does. Heh. I bet the look on some of my friends' faces would be priceless.:D

Also, my throat feels extremely dry, constricted and scratchy for some reason. I keep drinking water and hot tea with large amounts of honey, and still it doesn't get any better. Could it be some infection?... Last time I got a nasty larynx inflammation that lasted a week and required antibiotics, it was also the height of summer. I hope this one is just a side effect of my allergies, or possibly air conditioning, which does make the air extremely dry - but I have a feeling it might be something worse. I woke up this morning feeling like I had spent weeks in the Sahara...LOL.

( another random topic change under the cut )

So, it seems that the big LJ suspension scare is over. I was nervous there for a moment, even though my most questionable interest is probably "elladan/elrohir" - provided, of course, that the anti-freak police knows who they are and realizes they are actually brothers.:P Very fictional brothers, and certainly very mature (hundreds of years old... LOL), but still. I'm sure some people might possibly be offended at the idea of them having a sexual relationship. But then, some people seem offended by the very existence of gays, lesbians or transgendered individuals - which, of course, does not mean that said individuals should pretend not to exist. It is not possible to please everyone, and LJ is definitely not the place to start trying, IMHO.

That said, I sincerely hope I don't get suspended because I posted a few little ficlets implying twincest between Tolkien's characters. In fact, will probably post another one in the near future (if the muses continue to cooperate).:P

I have contemplated going "friends only" - but there are reasons I don't want to do that, so I'd rather wait until it becomes absolutely necessary. It's kind of sad that some people have to do that, IMO. Even if I totally understand why. I just used to think that LJ was this wonderfully open community, where you met new friends just because you were "out there" on the web... and well. Uhm. Yeah. It sort of isn't anymore. *sigh*

( In other totally irrelevant news: )