floatingleaf: (happy elf)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, [personal profile] surreysmum!!!

I believe a certain Elf just showed up to pay his respects:



He does seem happy to see you, doesn't he?...;)

In other news, I had a peculiar dream this morning in which you came to visit. )
floatingleaf: (perfect murder 3)
I honestly did not think it would be that difficult to start posting again. I've been meaning to say something for days, but the feeling of pointlessness and irrelevance of my daily news is still very much there... just like the feeling of dull, hollow, echoing emptiness inside my chest. Maybe I really should open a new online journal at another domain, to have a fresh start without all the baggage... I don't really want to, but I'm beginning to think nothing else will work. It just really feels like a post-apocalyptic landscape here for me right now. Like a funeral. )
floatingleaf: (green eyes)
I thought I had things to say today - positive things, even - but somehow they just seem totally pointless and irrelevant. And fake. Because whatever I said, it would be just pretending that everything is fine again. And it isn't.

I can't let go of LJ, because I generally find it hard to let go of things I have become accustomed to - but it's not the blessed, joyful place it used to be for me. Now it's more like that phase of drug addiction where you take them because you know you need to, but it's not any fun anymore.

Not that I really know what I'm talking about. Luckily for me, I guess.

Again, I think I'd better shut up.

Maybe I need a life or something.:|

bleh

Mar. 21st, 2008 08:25 pm
floatingleaf: (prison)
Want to hear a funny story featuring an incredibly stupid woman?... Who is, of course, yours truly?... I bet you do. So... here goes. I locked myself out of my car this morning. With all my keys, purse, cellphone etc. INSIDE the car. How in hell did that happen?... Well, it happened precisely BECAUSE I am paranoid about getting locked out of my car. *nods*

Let me explain. )

In other non-exciting news, msn hotmail just played an ugly trick on me and fucking ATE the draft of my message. It was a looong email to a friend, and I was almost done with it, but wanted to save to finish later. And the shitty thing told me it had saved it - except the 'saved draft' is now blank. WTF????... I spent HOURS writing that email over the past week or so. Why does shit like that never happen with short, unimportant messages you can retype in 30 seconds?...

Anyway... I don't seem to be spouting positive energy today, so I guess I'll just shut up. Maybe try to chill out by watching a movie or something...
floatingleaf: (aragorn)
Okay... [personal profile] stormatdusk said she would be interested in reading whatever I wrote.:P So, without further ado, I present my latest dribble. I haven't written anything in over a year, so it might feel a little scratchy... and it's not my usual pairing. Though I guess it fits into the same universe with my three fluffy/humorous ficlets about Legolas, young Estel & the Twins. Except this happens before Legolas walks into the picture - for Estel, anyway. Just a little snippet of unintentional voyeurism.;) (I hope you're not bothered by twincest, Tania - otherwise don't feel obliged to read, since I didn't warn you before :D)

Title: Closer Than Brothers
Author: Floating Leaf
Pairing: Elladan/Elrohir
Rating: R
Summary: Young Estel discovers something unexpected about the twin sons of Elrond.
Warning: Well... twincest, obviously.
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Tolkien.

It was one of those glorious summer days when everything seemed bathed in light. )
floatingleaf: (aragorn)
First of all, Happy St.Patrick's Day to whoever celebrates it.

Second of all, a belated Happy Birthday to [profile] ana_lib_elf, who probably won't see this, but whom I miss and wish all the best anyway.<3

Third of all, LJ these days feels like a sinking ship. So many people are leaving, for various reasons. And even though I understand those reasons, I'm far from happy about it. Because I'm just not ready to leave myself at this point. Even if I think it might be the 'politically correct' thing to do. I'm not enthusiastic about the way LJ treats its customers - eliminating basic free accounts etc. - but I would be even less enthusiastic about closing up shop and starting from scratch somewhere else, with no guarantees that it would actually be any better in the first place. Besides, I had decided to switch to a paid account long ago, so the changes concerning free accounts don't really affect me in any way. And as for fandom and its issues... I started this LJ BEFORE I actually discovered the LOTR fandom. In fact, at the beginning it wasn't a fandom or community thing for me at all. It was very personal, and no one was reading it besides myself, because I didn't know anyone and had no 'flist' whatsoever. So even if everyone I care about leaves now, and all fandom-related activities come to a standstill, it will be merely a deja-vu kind of situation. Not pleasant, perhaps, but tolerable. I am a classic self-sufficient hermit type, after all. *nods grimly*

And that is all for tonight. )
floatingleaf: (beautiful stranger)
Okay... let me just try to get some things off my chest. First of all, I really don't want to 'take sides' or judge anyone. I've seen enough of that on LJ in the past few years. I wasn't eager to judge or condemn even when the controversy revolved around people I didn't really care about - I'm just not comfortable passing judgement on someone because they're human and may have made a mistake. Period. And when it comes to those I call friends, it's even more difficult. To put it as simply as possible: I don't judge my friends. I support them. Regardless of whether I agree with what they do, or whether I would have done the same. Does that mean I have double standards?... Maybe. I don't know. All I know is that I always try to understand everyone's viewpoint in any situation, and sometimes I agree with two opposing sides, in a way - or at least see what put them in the place they're in, so to speak. I guess that might be synonymous with a lack of moral spine in the eyes of some people... but that's how I feel, and there's not much I can do about it. So shoot me. )
floatingleaf: (green eyes)
I really don't know where to start today. I meant to make a post last night, but I spent all afternoon & evening hanging out with a friend, and when I finally checked my flist sometime after midnight, I found some very upsetting stuff on it. So now I'm kinda torn as to what I should - or want to - talk about. Do I make the lighthearted post I had planned to make first, and then a sad, depressed one later, or do I just shut up and pretend there's nothing worth saying at all - because maybe there isn't. Maybe it just doesn't matter anymore.

To make things worse, I had finally managed to finish a ficlet yesterday morning - one that I had started back in 2007, or maybe even 2006, I'm not sure anymore. And I had every intention of posting it here today... except there just doesn't seem to be a point to it right now. Especially that the 'usual suspects', who would be most likely to want to read and/or comment on it, simply aren't around anymore. Or not in the mood for browsing LJ, as it were (the ficlet isn't A/L, strictly speaking, so I don't think it qualifies for posting at any of my usual 'haunts', btw). Besides, I just don't feel like bouncing with joy right now about having written something, since apparently writing fanfiction can only lead to major trouble and/or heartache in the end. Without any evil intentions on anyone's part, I might add. So... I'm kinda lost here at the moment.

TWENTY :)

Mar. 11th, 2008 09:53 pm
floatingleaf: (slightly mental)
Snagged from [livejournal.com profile] gairid:

The 100 Most Annoying Pop Songs We Hate To Love* Meme.
Let's see how sad you really are.
Bold the ones you like (if you dare!) then count them up and use your shameful total for the subject line. Add reasons if you dare.


Okay. Here goes... )
floatingleaf: (family)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, [personal profile] romi!!! I hope you have a wonderful day. And I hope this little reminder of the 'good old times' will make you smile...:)

floatingleaf: (green)
I can't believe it, but I've actually used up all the space on my iPod. I thought 1000 songs would be way more than enough... Of course I have more music than that, but the iPod was supposed to contain only my absolute favorites. Well... it appears I have more than a thousand favorites. So now I can sync only selected playlists from my iTunes library. And of course I am tempted to get a new, 'bigger' (= more expensive) iPod. Even if I really shouldn't throw money around like that. *sigh* So... maybe someone wants to buy my used 4GB nano? It's in good condition... lol. It was nearly $200 when I bought it over a year ago, but I'll sell it for a hundred. And it would come with the added bonus of being able to check out some of my music before you decide whether to keep it or wipe it out...

In other news, I am so not thrilled about the 'time jump' tonight. I'm very much NOT a morning person as it is - without 7 a.m. suddenly happening at 6... lol. Speaking of which, I should probably be in bed now, so I don't make the whole thing even worse... *gets nostalgic for the good old times when she could stay up past 2 a.m. and still feel alive the next morning - seems like another phase in the reincarnation cycle now, believe it or not...;)*
floatingleaf: (playful)
[personal profile] surreysmum rocks my world. She wrote this lovely A/L drabble for my birthday... totally charming and sweet little thing. If you haven't seen it yet, go check it out at [profile] legolasaragorn, or at [profile] aragornlegolas. It's all the more precious because it evokes a hot summer night, which right now seems to me like something out of an alternate universe indeed (four months of Chicago winter will do that to ya - and I suppose Canada isn't any better ;P).

I even think I might have a soundtrack to it.:D )
floatingleaf: (victory)
So... today is the exact anniversary of my move. A full year spent at this new apartment. Which means I now know all the pros & cons of living here, in all seasons. Most importantly, I know I CAN actually survive winter here... LOL. Not that the winter is over already, mind you... but it will be, soon, if there is any justice left in this world.;) Anyway, it was a bad one, and it doesn't really get much worse, even here in Chicago (*knocks on wood*) - so the fact that it went by without too many traumatic events (like spending over 30 minutes looking for a parking spot, getting stuck in the snow while trying to get out of the street etc.) is a good sign for the future.;) Basically, the parking situation is the only major drawback of living in this area - but it would be pretty much the same (or worse) in other parts of the city (except for the suburbs, where you simply don't find studio apartments for rent below $700 a month - ergo, there's no such option for me anyway). Whereas the definite positive points are as follows: )

In summary, I could have done much worse, and am looking forward to at least a few more years here (provided the rent doesn't go up faster than my salary... lol). And that's really all I have the time to say tonight.:(
floatingleaf: (elessar)
They say it's Aragorn's birthday today.:) Not that I need an excuse to go through my LOTR caps folder, but... here are a few that make me shiver.



two more under the cut )
floatingleaf: (indian runner)
I just found out that [personal profile] matan4il lost a friend to sudden death today. And she is asking all who read her journal to appreciate the friends and loved ones we still have, as opposed to taking them for granted. Because we never know when they might suddenly disappear from our life, for one reason or another. So I would like to take a moment to express my gratitude for all the friendships that passed the test of time. I have been lucky so far in that no one I truly cared about has ever died a sudden and tragic death... but I have lost many who meant a lot to me through simple neglect and gradual 'drifting away'. Sometimes it was their fault, sometimes mine. And, in a way, it can be even more painful to know that a person you care about chooses not to maintain that connection, not because they are no longer a part of this world, but because they no longer care. So I would like to hereby promise myself to pay more attention to those who are still with me, and make sure I am not the one to blame if they slip away...

In other news... )

Oh, and one more thing: Viggo at the Oscars, brandishing his San Lorenzo flag and wrapping it around Cate Blanchett's pregnant belly. Just... priceless. What does it matter if he did not win? He is the best anyway.:D
floatingleaf: (pensive orli)
So... I have finally caught up on what the whole big 'tinhat' controversy was all about. Not that anyone cares what I think - I am not delusional, at least not about that.;) But this is my personal journal, and I feel like sorting this out for myself, so... here goes.

My take on the apparent fandom split. )
floatingleaf: (mystery man)
Snagged from [personal profile] salixbabylon:

you are steelblue
#4682B4

Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect.

Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.
the spacefem.com html color quiz


Hmmm... not feeling particularly "up" right now for some reason. More like a wrung-out rag, actually. I hope it's just end-of-the-week fatigue and my easily triggered insecurity - not a bad vibe about something that's going to happen. *knocks on wood*

In any case, I need sleep. Thank God for Friday nights & Saturday mornings. Give me good eight hours and this headache will go away. *nods*
floatingleaf: (nikolai)
Tagged by [livejournal.com profile] ancabell:

Pick 10 people and give them the "you made my day" award. If you're picked, you are charged with picking 10 of your own.

Since my human interactions are somewhat limited, especially of late (my brain is in deep hibernation, it seems), not everyone on my list will be an LJ-friend - and not every reference will have to do with something specific. Mostly it's just people who have been in my thoughts in recent days/weeks, for one reason or another.

[livejournal.com profile] ancabell: for the lovely little thing she just wrote, and for putting me on her list.:)

[livejournal.com profile] baileymoyes: for being the never-drying fountain of gorgeous, clever, romantic, funny & sexy Viggorli fic that she still continues to be after all these years. *worships*

[livejournal.com profile] gairid: for the response to [livejournal.com profile] ancabell's challenge... and for being my "vampire connection".;)

[livejournal.com profile] mellacita: for always finding some interesting, thought-provoking stuff to post (like links to Perceval Press, which I don't visit often enough).

[livejournal.com profile] namarie120: for being my main source of updates on Viggo - among other things (it is not possible to sum up this amazing woman's merits in one sentence, so I am not going to try :P).

[livejournal.com profile] ptychu: for saying something in a recent email that made me feel VERY appreciated. She knows what.:D

[livejournal.com profile] romi: for being the absolute darling that she is. And for reposting some rare, cute, old & nearly forgotten piece of Viggorli fluff that made me very nostalgic for Romi-fic in general. *wistful sigh*

[livejournal.com profile] slesia: for sending me a Valentine when I thought she was irretrievably lost to RL and I would never hear from her again.

[livejournal.com profile] stormatdusk: for being cute & funny and making great icons - as seen above.:D

And finally, my good old friend D. - for still being there. Read more... )

In other news, it appears that I am still losing weight... veeery slowly. About a pound a month, lol. The day-to-day changes are barely noticeable, but the overall tendency seems to be DOWN. And that's a Very Good Thing.:D
floatingleaf: (mystery man)
The weather craziness continues. )

But that's not what this post was supposed to be about. I watched an amazing movie yesterday - The Lives of Others. Oscar winner for best foreign film in 2006. And, if I recall correctly, the lead actor, Ulrich Muhe, was one of the recent BAFTA nominees, along with Viggo & Daniel Day-Lewis. Anyway... it's been labelled as a political thriller, but I definitely wouldn't be gushing about it if that were all there was to it. I am not a political intrigue movie person at all. To me, this film is about personal redemption. About how a Stasi officer (for anyone not familiar with the historical background, it's the communist East Germany, 1984) - an aging, lonely, dried-up husk of a man, whose life seems to have no purpose or meaning other than serving the system - suddenly discovers he has a heart and a conscience. mild spoilers under the cut )
floatingleaf: (angsty)
I witnessed something unbelievable and disturbing today, as I was driving along one of the busy city streets just north of downtown. There was an elderly woman standing next to a parked car, right by the curb. Suddenly the car started moving, backing up right into the woman, who was knocked off balance and promptly fell down on her face, arms spread out to the sides. She was right behind the car, so her legs were actually under it as it kept backing up... it seemed the driver had no idea what happened at first, but as soon as he realized there was some commotion behind him, he pressed down on the gas pedal and was gone faster than anyone could blink. With the woman still lying face down on the street. I was stopped at a red light directly across them, so I had a good view of the whole incident - though it happened so quickly I barely registered what was going on before it was over. Fortunately, there were a lot of pedestrians around, and at least three people jumped up to the victim's side right away. The last thing I saw was someone helping her sit up - she didn't seem badly injured, probably just in shock from the fall - and then, within a few minutes, I heard the ambulance. Granted, accidents happen all the time, all over Chicago, and this wasn't the first one I've ever seen - but how can anyone not even look behind once as they start backing up out of their parking space, knock a pedestrian over and then just drive away leaving them in the dust???... This is completely beyond me. The woman could have been dead, for fuck's sake. He could have driven right over her legs or arms as she was lying there (as far as I could see, he didn't, but it was a close call). How in hell is anyone supposed to feel safe taking a stroll down the street in broad daylight after seeing something like this happen?... I just can't believe it. I thought things like that were done only by 'bad guys' in the movies. Well, here's a reality check from just a few blocks down, right in the middle of 'home sweet home' Chicago. So if you were, like me, under the impression that only moving cars are dangerous for pedestrians... think again.:/

In other news, there is some fierce Arctic wind rattling my windows as we speak. Again. I've so had enough of this jolly winter season it's not even funny anymore. I swear internet is the only thing that keeps me barely interested in staying alive right now. My flist, emails from friends, updates on Viggo and the slash - if not for that, I would just crawl down into some deep hole and let shitty reality screw itself over and over, which it can do well enough without my eager participation. I just can't seem to care much about the world at large right now. *shrug*
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